Awtar -- Past Life and deep Love

[Guest guest]

Hi again Awtar,

 

Your response to Akkama's post is very important for me. I was

wondering if you could go into a little more description.

 

I have been reading about the way you relate with Love from Dr.

Hawkins, he says that love is within us and does not come from any

outside source.

 

I have tried over and over to just make it come from within and not

based on any external or any conditional qualities. Thought I was

making progress and then I was away from my husband for 4 months with

only weekend visits, no friends and no media. It really effected me to

where I could see I just didn't feel love inside without anything on

the outside.

 

Dr. Hawkins mentions in some of his chapters that we project special

qualities upon another or an object and then deem them special. I

don't quite understand that. I know for me when I see someone with

qualities of their charachter that I think are " good " then I feel

" good " about them. I would like to always feel love for all inside.

 

The hard part is when others do negative things to us or hurt us in

some way and are not sorry at all. I have had this happen many times

to the point where I felt it like " killed " the love in me.

 

I was really happy to read your post but feel I need further

understanding.

 

Thanks Awtar -- it's so great to hear your words of wisdom since your

energy is also matching your words.

[Guest guest]

> The hard part is when others do negative things to us or hurt us in

> some way and are not sorry at all. I have had this happen many times

> to the point where I felt it like " killed " the love in me.

>

 

Dear Christine:

 

Your question is perhaps the hardest we have to face as human beings.

That's why Jesus said: " Turn the other cheek! " That's why Zen has the

story of the monk meditating while a burglar is emptying his house and

as the burglar leaves for the last time, the monk catches his leg and

says: " You're forgetting this... " and hands him one more thing.

Imagine the face of the burglar. He thought he was being so clever...

but instead everything could have just been given to him... there was

no risk in what he just did, no glamor... How do you think it affected

his perception of himself as a grand master burglar? If the monk had

not waited until the end, the lesson would not have worked so well!

 

There are many stories of great spiritual people who have acted or

spoken of forgiveness in moments when most of us would have had other

thoughts...

 

There are people who have a knack at pushing our buttons, so with even

the best intentions on our part we just feel raw with the slightest

tone or choice of words on their part... when we would feel nothing of

the sort with the same tone or words from anyone else.

 

When you use an expression such as the one I quoted from you above

" killed the love in me " that image comes from something very real that

happened between you and these people you mention but in a past life.

At least I think it's helpful to think this way because if you do then

you also discover that the truth now is different. Now it is no longer

a concrete reality of something of you dying, it is just an image that

represents a feeling. You are not actually dying this time. It is just

a memory from the past that is triggered. You are here to leave that

reality behind now and forever. And you will be given as much practice

as you need, so don't feel bad if it does not happen right away. Now

instead of seeing these people as killing your love, you can start

seeing the situation as practice to change your reaction. When it

happens you can practice remembering: " Am I going to let them kill my

love or am I going to think differently this time? " And instead of

thinking about what is happening to you, you will turn things around.

Not take it personally this time, but see their pain. You will see

that what you are feeling is their pain. It has no longer anything to

do with you. You have nothing to protect or defend, you are full of

love. And that love allows you to feel their pain.

 

You recover your own power with each instance of the sort. And as I

suggest you also discover that it never was them killing your love, it

was you giving your love up, because when you find your love again you

realize you always had the key to it!

 

Blessings,

Awtar Singh