Guest guest Posted November 12, 2007 Report Share Posted November 12, 2007 I have been reading with relief almost, the stories here on soul mates meeting. Last February I decided I needed to have some Reikki due to depression. I have been a spiritual seeker for about.. 15 years and find that Reikki is an experience that is different each time and can be mind blowing. I saw an advertisement and made an appointment. Three days before the appointment I was in the bus station in my town and somehow ended up in conversation (he started it) with a handsome man, mid 40's, long hair, sort of hippy like. We got onto the topic of spirituality and I said I had always wanted to study buddhism. He told me that he is a student of eastern religions and that he takes buddhism every thursday nights in town. I was.. excited. We shook hands and.. I found myself thinking a lot about him over the next two days. Three days after the meeting with him I had my Reikki session. When she put her hands on me she immediately told me that I had many spirit guides. I didn't realize that Reikki was a window of sorts to becoming more psychic. This was totally unexpected. Then she asked if I had just met a man, three days ago (exactly) and that his name was Bill. I almost fell off the bed. That was his name. She said he had found me again; that we were soul mates. We had been together in a past life in India. We had wanted to marry but my father wouldn't let us as he was very poor. She said he would take me on the spiritual journey of my life. I finally managed to get to a buddhist class three weeks later and, in my outgoing way, told him that I was told he was my soul mate. He doesn't believe in one soul mate and was.. cautious. But when I told him about taking me on a spiritual journey he told me that he was involved in a religion called Eckankar. Well, to cut a long story short, we became friends, couldn't stop talking talking talking. I went to a few of his Eckankar meetings but.. it's not for me. I prefer Hinduism or Buddhism (Eckankar is somewhat like Hinduism actually but.. too many rules for me). One night we ended up in bed together and it was not the.. spiritual sex I imagined. lol... He is a very depressed man, I believe in part because of the problems with being completely bound by this religion, and in part because of things he wouldn't tell me. He held me very much at bay. Even physically he seemed to me to be ... in pain. I could feel his pain. I wanted so much to help him. By this time I was so in love with him that I didn't care if he was rich or poor, depressed or not. There was something about the way I felt about him (and still do) that I have never felt in my life. The night we were together, sleeping next to him I had a dream that he was having a book sale. I was helping him puts the books outside his apartment building and he showed me one of the books. It had three letters on it (not ECK but.. some I couldn't tell) and he told me that it was the Life and Secrets of Bill. He told me that I would be able to read it all " tomorrow " . I woke up and he was next to me. I looked at him and asked when the book sale was starting. He of course, didn't have a clue what I was talking about. It was a very strange feeling. He is back (or so he says) with his ex girlfriend and not willing to have any relationship with me. He has many many emotional issues and while I would have gladly helped him (helping myself I truly believe at the same time, he is wise in many ways) he is not interested and so I have moved to another city to be near my family. The past five years have been very painful for me. I had hoped that in meeting him I was having a turn around in my life. Instead, this last summer I have had to make my teenagers live with my ex husband (who owes me lots of money through my divorce) due to not being able to afford to take care of them, as well as being emotionally unstable for a while (getting a little better). I'm not sure really whether the relationship with my soul mate is over. The Reikki master I went to says that it's not. That we are going to be together. We have talked briefly on the phone since I left and he wanted my number but.. I'm not focusing on him. I have to heal my life before I can be with anyone else I believe. Sometimes it's easier to be alone, although the lessons in life come through others. I meditate daily and have found a wonderful Kundalini dvd to do the kry's and exercises for Kundalini energy. I believe this is where I am supposed to focus my energy on. I've been told I am supposed to be a healer and have my Reikki 1. I'm in no rush with anything in my life anymore. Trying to savour the good things and understand the difficulties. Letting go of people is only temporary in my mind these days. I have lost everything - marriage, home, furnishing, money, jobs, and now my children (I see them only occasionally and we were almost painfully close) and I know that in reality, it doesn't stop. The wheel of life goes on and those who are close to us keep coming back. It's a comfort, if only a small one at times. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 12, 2007 Report Share Posted November 12, 2007 Sat Nam Susan, A very moving story full of highs and lows. It is very hard to lose everything but think of it like cleaning out the garbage. Get rid of the old and get the new. It seems that you are at a state of rejuvenation. From what you write I presume that it is time to start afresh with a new city. Think of it as a blessing. Everything is always moving out of our reach you cannot hold onto things. Your children for example are teenagers. You are their mother do not smother. Birds always fly the nest. Look at the time that that you spent with them and cherish it. Don't live in the past but more for now. Do not look for happiness in other people. You yourself have to be happy first to attract happiness. Make your own soul your soulmate. Souls do not mate they only spend time together to be with any particluar soul light. Blessings, Goldie Singh. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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