Guest guest Posted November 12, 2007 Report Share Posted November 12, 2007 -Sat Nam Group! Thank you for the replies re: my individuation and separation process. I have been reading Guru Rattanas' and Atwar Singhs' posts regarding the pain of deep love and self love and identity with a tender heart and a schizophrenic mind. ( I was warned by Guru Dev Singh I would experience this as I individuate and separate from the " Mother. " ) I have increased my neutral mind meditation and it helps a lot! (Thank you Deva). Update: Since Deva's comment of all the negatives I post and learning to focus on the good stuff and doing more of " allowing space " and breathing, and saying to myself after a " bad " thing " But I love you, " - I can see some progress and some light in the tunnel (of personal maturation and my mind). Currently I am trying to allow more space in response to old habituations and behaviours that seem to, at times, increase in potency. I read a YB lecture and he says there are 2 of you: The real you, the soul in you that is part of God so you are perfect as is, then there is the hidden you with its agenda of not so good things. " most of you do not want to grow up. " YB I feel as if I am waking up (thank God), and the hidden agendas (which are now not so hidden) have had the volume raised and the colors enhanced. And self denial should be a 4 letter word - " I know what I am doing / did is bad for me but I will create a world in my head that will allow the contiuation of these bad things because the lower brained animal wanting pleasure and the child not wanting to grow up like it this way. " And the habituations, (Like " picking " ) which Guru Dev describes as a means of self acknoweldgement - " I am here in this body, " are now at times worse too. However I am calmer, more responsive from my head and my heart and not my lower chakras, and see now the statement " you must surrender to God and the universe, " is a bit more tangible for me. I have faith that my soul will come through. For goodness sake I am a therpist, bodyworker, help a lot of people and Trying very hard to wake up more and more. I have stopped wondering if it was the things that happened as a child, or the adoption issue, or the pain I felt in the womb of the Mother who gave me up, etc. All I want is me, now, awake, and not engaging in the crap. And i am a little more each week - It seems the Universe makes sure we accept who we are and the Karma needing to be dealt with. (is there a karma cleanser out there? Like spic and span..)........ I see before me what the deal is...the identity process is not easy but it --- is what it is. The most promising thing to report is my ability to just be still is increasing. It is the hardest thing to do, just breathe, surrender, and relax - but with practice it does develop, the skill to tune in and surrender. Thanks for reading my post. Sarabjot Singh. -- In Kundaliniyoga , " Guru Rattana " <gururattan wrote: > > Sat Nam, > > > > That was beautiful Awtar. The following is on the same theme. This is what I am teaching in my workshop in Encinitas, CA this Sunday Nov. 11. I wish you all could attend! Anyone close enough to join us, let me know. > > > > Emotional energy always moves and needs an object for its desire. > > > > We generally focus our love outside ourselves. When our emotional energy is projected outside ourselves, we project neediness. We are trying to find a union outside ourselves to substitute for the union we must find within. This creates problems. > > > Don't we know! > > > > When we find something or someone that satisfies us temporarily, we become attached to it. When we cannot find what we think we want, we become depressed and agitated. When we are deprived of our external object, we are traumatized because we no longer feel whole. Auric separation creates deep anguish. Our cup overflows with tears. > > > > Our emotional body needs something to love. Loving Spirit and loving our physical body and its sensations gives our emotional body something to do. When we love both Spirit and Matter we contain both spiritual and emotional energy in our physical body. Our love creates an alchemical reaction by which we embody Spirit and spiritualize matter. > > > > Then we are able to love without attachment, because we are always loving Love itself inside ourselves. We become very magnetic. And we feel very satisified. And we can truly love because we experience what Love is. > > > > It requires spiritual discipline to reach this state of consciousness. So we practice this while we do our KY and meditation. It is a beautiful practice. > > > > Blessings, > > > > Guru Rattana :+) > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 13, 2007 Report Share Posted November 13, 2007 Dear Sarabjot Singh, Sat Nam! Thank you for the replies re: my individuation and separation process. I have been reading Guru Rattanas' and Atwar Singhs' posts regarding the pain of deep love and self love and identity with a tender heart and a schizophrenic mind. ( I was warned by Guru Dev Singh I would experience this as I individuate and separate from the " Mother. " ) * Yes, you must separate from your attachment to your birth mother and adoptive mother, but to do so you much connect with the Divine Mother. I have included below exerpts from an essay poem I wrote in 1995 about this. This is very important for both men and women. I have increased my neutral mind meditation and it helps a lot! * EVERYONE! Neutral is required for our sanity and evolution. Practice this EVERY day until it is part of your consciousness. Update: Since Deva's comment of all the negatives I post and learning to focus on the good stuff and doing more of " allowing space " and breathing, (this is prt of the neutral mind. So you are making progress.) and saying to myself after a " bad " thing " But I love you, " * Good. - I can see some progress and some light in the tunnel (of personal maturation and my mind). * Great! Feel the satisfaction of making progress. Currently I am trying to allow more space in response to old habituations and behaviours that seem to, at times, increase in potency. I read a YB lecture and he says there are 2 of you: The real you, the soul in you that is part of God so you are perfect as is, then there is the hidden you with its agenda of not so good things. " most of you do not want to grow up. " YB :+) I feel as if I am waking up (thank God), and the hidden agendas (which are now not so hidden) have had the volume raised and the colors enhanced. And self denial should be a 4 letter word - " I know what I am doing / did is bad for me but I will create a world in my head that will allow the contiuation of these bad things because the lower brained animal wanting pleasure and the child not wanting to grow up like it this way. " * The unconscious has to be made conscious in order to change it. So this is good progress. And the habituations, (Like " picking " ) which Guru Dev describes as a means of self acknoweldgement - " I am here in this body, " are now at times worse too. * You are more aware of them now. However I am calmer, more responsive from my head and my heart and not my lower chakras, and see now the statement " you must surrender to God and the universe, " is a bit more tangible for me. * Your consciousness is shifting. Give yourself a pat on the back. (or heart) I have faith that my soul will come through. For goodness sake I am a therpist, bodyworker, help a lot of people and Trying very hard to wake up more and more. * Your evolution is part of the evolution of your dharma. We have to experience things for ourselves before we can share them with others. Then our space creates the space for others to step into. So perhaps you can drop " I am a therapist so why am I such a mess " idea and accept all your growth as part of your training to also help others. Space for others' healing has to be created. And that is what you are doing. I have stopped wondering if it was the things that happened as a child, or the adoption issue, or the pain I felt in the womb of theMother who gave me up, etc. * THere are always experiences -- deep emotional traumas that impact us. The question is what are we doing to transmute the pain energy into Self/power energy. All I want is me, now, awake, and not engaging in the crap. And i am a little more each week - * Awesome. It seems the Universe makes sure we accept who we are and the Karma needing to be dealt with. * Sure it does. :+) (is there a karma cleanser out there? Like spic and span..). * Kundalini yoga and meditation. :+) ........ I see before me what the deal is...the identity process is not easy but it --- is what it is. The most promising thing to report is my ability to just be still is increasing. It is the hardest thing to do, just breathe, surrender, and relax - but with practice it does develop, the skill to tune in and surrender. * And that is exactly it. We must practice. With practice transformation happens. It is a beautiful processs. It is such a wonderful feeling that if we practice KY with awareness, it is guaranteed that change will happen. It is such a relief to be able to trust our process. And here are some words from the Mother. Blessings, Guru Rattana Only the Divine Mother Can Heal Our Wounds by Guru Rattana, Ph.D. February 12, 1995 In my pain I ask " Who can help heal my wounds? " In my despair I ask " Where can I go? " In my frenzy I ask " How can I get out of here? " In our fear I plead for refuge. And then one day I sit down and cry. I find myself on the lap of my Mother. I hear her comforting words speak to my heart. I feel her gentle hands touch my body. I let her warm hug pull me into the infinity of her love. In her sweet embrace I realize- Only the love of the Divine Mother can heal my wounds. Only the love of the Divine Mother can fill the pit of anguish. Only the love of the Divine Mother can redirect my apathy and bring me back to life. Only the arms of the Earth Mother can give me the strength to go on. Only the caring of the Earth Mother can give me the confidence to believe in myself. Only the forgiveness of the Mother can absolve the past. Only the trust of the Goddess Mother can open the door to the future. Only the love of the Goddess Mother that streams toward me without condition without discrimination without stipulations can liberate me from my plight. Only the compassion of her acceptance only the peace of her calm touch only the passion of her life force only the beauty of her grace only the patience of her encouragement can give me the raison d'etre to reach for life once again. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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