Past Life and deep Love / workshop notes - seperation and individuation proc

[Guest guest]

Dear Sarabjot Singh

 

What you are sharing is very true regarding inviting the demons to tea

with a neutral mind.

 

To be clear the neutral mind does not mean not feeling! It means " not

censoring " , it means accepting, it means participating with as much

openness as we can muster with no judgment... We have to have all our

senses aware.

 

I'll give an example.

 

One night I could not sleep. I was scared of a vampire. I don't

usually have nightmares and when I do I usually wake up after it's

over. I feel the energy of it and I find what scares me in my actual

life and that's it. It is gone. I understand why the nightmare came to

me. I can sleep again. But that night it was different, when I woke up

I still felt the vampire scaring me and I was shocked. I could not

sleep and escape him that way and i could not figure out what in my

actual life brought a vampire after me, so I got up and started to

write about it to learn about the whole scene... but could not get

anywhere. This was before my Kundalini Yoga yoga days and knowing

about the neutral mind so I was in exploring mode. I stumbled upon a

new approach for myself quite by accident. This " new " approach was to

welcome the vampire completely. So I accepted my fear and I still

welcomed him at the same time I could both see him as in my nightmare

and feel my reactions to him. I chose to accept the nightmare as it

was instead of trying to change anything. I chose to allowed him to

scare the wits out of me as thoroughly and completely as I could and

felt loving toward him at the same time.

 

I discovered that night that truly sending love is not sending

anything at all consciously and is not an effort to avoid feeling what

we fear from the other. It is an effort to accept the other exactly as

he or she is and our reactions to them exactly as they are. By

accepting the vampire's energy toward me exactly as it was, I

experienced that light was pouring out of me toward him. Not because I

sent it consciously as a protection for myself, but because I accepted

both of us exactly as we were. And then a miracle of sorts happened.

The vampire transformed... into me. The neediness was gone,

transmuted. That was it. He never came back.

 

Blessings,

Awtar Singh