depression

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Hello,

Pardon me that this is a long question. It has to do with depression.

I suffered from depression a long time ago (15 yrs), during a very traumatic

period in my life. I struggled my way out of it, and for a time needed

medication. I thought I had it beat. I have felt really good for a long, long

time. Part of this is due to starting to practice yoga, and more recently,

kundalini.

Now, though, I am finding that I can actually feel myself falling back into the

pattern- lack of interest in anything, self hatred, incredible sadness, no

energy, etc. I find that it almost feels like a real physical sensation in

addition to being something " emotional " . I do not want to start on meds again if

I can help it. I have a couple of questions-

1. Could my increased awareness of what is happening to me be due to yoga? It

seems to be so much more acute-

2. What can I do (in a short amount of time each day- only cause I am too sad to

make myself do much) (maybe as I feel better, I can increase time?)to make me

feel better- at least to help stop the incessant desire to cry? I have much to

be grateful for- so no real reason to be so sad- except that I can't stand

myself. short meditations, exercises, anything? I feel so badly, cause I was

doing well practicing, but now I can't force myself to even practice

breathing......

3. I dreamed last night that I could fly. I was flying all over, and I was so

happy in my dream. Does this mean anything?

4. Can kundalini help me? Please say yes.

thanks for any help/advice.

Shaun