Guest guest Posted March 5, 2010 Report Share Posted March 5, 2010 I'm not too sure what to say, or what could be said in responce, but it's been over 4 years now, from the age of 16 to almost 21 that i havn't slept properly, havn't been able to cry, release any stress/emotion. have become more and more detatched and completelty worn out and exhausted, with intolerable headaches and struggeling. it makes me feel sick to see life slip by. unengaged. i've done everything i feel i can, tried every therapy, tried to get my life back on track. doctors have diagnosed it as psychosis but its a broad term. but i admit it started with psychedelic drug use, not much but a few times, (mainly one nasty trip). (aged 16) i know drug use has no place in yoga, and quickly realised yoga was what i was looking for in psychedelics anyway. and 2 years ago drinking ayahuasca, which furthered problems. i'm only really writing this, as before i use to find yoga helpful, but today i attended a class and even though i found some mild benefits, i found myself more detatched than ever, and unable to connect with anything, rythem, breathing, sensations and no concentration. the best way i can compare it is the part of you thats wants to dance when you hear music, but not begin able to move with it, and it's moving further away. i'm just worried im becoming completely swallowed by this, coming to a place i might never come back from. i havn't really said much about it for at least a year or two hoping it was just after affects of ayahuasca or that'd it'd heal itself in time. but constantly getting overwhlemed by frustration and anger. burning out and exhausted, not to mention a long list of syptoms from severe insomnia, acute distress, migraines and dissociation. i find the frustration mainly stems from lack of perspective, i'v never encountered a problem i've been completely disabled by capable of handeling or understanding what to do, it's really taking its toll on all areas of my life and my personality. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 5, 2010 Report Share Posted March 5, 2010 Where did you drink ayahuaska? Was it outside South America? Was there a ritual or you just got some and drank it? I've been through ayahuska rituals before and never had any side effects and never heard of anyone who had it as well. I hope others can help you with kundalini yoga since I'm not an instructor. I have a feeling there's something missing in your heart. Be well! Anderson from Brazil Kundaliniyoga , " lukehutton " <hutton.luke wrote: > > I'm not too sure what to say, or what could be said in responce, > > but it's been over 4 years now, from the age of 16 to almost 21 > that i havn't slept properly, havn't been able to cry, release any stress/emotion. > > have become more and more detatched and completelty worn out and exhausted, with intolerable headaches and struggeling. > > it makes me feel sick to see life slip by. unengaged. > > i've done everything i feel i can, tried every therapy, tried to get my life back on track. > > doctors have diagnosed it as psychosis but its a broad term. > > but i admit it started with psychedelic drug use, not much but a few times, (mainly one nasty trip). (aged 16) > > i know drug use has no place in yoga, and quickly realised yoga was what i was looking for in psychedelics anyway. > > and 2 years ago drinking ayahuasca, which furthered problems. > > > i'm only really writing this, as before i use to find yoga helpful, but today i attended a class and even though i found some mild benefits, i found myself more detatched than ever, and unable to connect with anything, rythem, breathing, sensations and no concentration. > > the best way i can compare it is the part of you thats wants to dance when you hear music, but not begin able to move with it, and it's moving further away. > > > i'm just worried im becoming completely swallowed by this, coming to a place i might never come back from. > > i havn't really said much about it for at least a year or two hoping it was just after affects of ayahuasca or that'd it'd heal itself in time. > > but constantly getting overwhlemed by frustration and anger. > > burning out and exhausted, not to mention a long list of syptoms from severe insomnia, acute distress, migraines and dissociation. > > i find the frustration mainly stems from lack of perspective, i'v never encountered a problem i've been completely disabled by capable of handeling or understanding what to do, it's really taking its toll on all areas of my life and my personality. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 5, 2010 Report Share Posted March 5, 2010 Hi Luke, if you do Kundalini Yoga as thought by Yogi Bhajan you are on the right way. Yogi Bhajan came in 1968 and he found many young people using psychedelics in search of higher consciousness. Yogi Bhajan has created a center in USA to help people having had bad trips. You can ask KRI (Kundalini Research Institute) for this centers or for specific KY Kriyas. Marco Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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