Suggestions for a set for shame and Subagh Kriya

[Guest guest]

I suffer from long bouts of shame. Not just the type that starts the

mind going on self deprecating thoughts, but the type which causes a

hopeless outlook and a change of belief systems as well as blocking

the energy to act. If you have not experienced this, then it's hard

to understand. I've heard that shame is a mediator which causes us

to control our anger. That is true, but that is being ashamed about

our actions, what I'm talking about is being ashamed for my

existence.

 

Please respond privately with your experiences and suggestions if you

have experienced this type of shame.

 

The good news is that

I've had a two day reprieve from a spell of it which has lasted for

years, during which I've been unable to work effectively and for the

most part unable to look for work.

 

I attribute this reprieve directly to the Subagh Kriya.

 

I had been desparately wishing that I could have the belief that I

could accomplish tasks and hold a job as I remember that I once did

and as I see in others. On Friday, I practiced the Subagh Kriya for

the minium time. Late that night I got a call from someone begging

off of a duty, asking me to take it. This meant that I would chair a

meeting the next morning which I was dreading, but I took the

assignment and showed up. I found that despite the dread, and

beliefs that I was incompetent, I conducted the meeting in a good

fashion. I won a few battles and I lost a few, but result was a

lifting of the shame.

 

Today, I have energy and desire to look for a job, and the belief

that I can do one and what ever comes my way, provided I rely on the

guru within.