Help with Energy please

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Sat Nam!

 

My family did something severely unconscious and painful to me last

week end and I have spent the three day weekend doing extensive healing

work to weather it. I used other modalities (inner work, homeopathy,

flower essences, chanting, counseling, shoveling, etc) but not a lot of

KY. Because of KY, however, I was in a strong place spiritually to

help myself during the weekend.

 

My whole world view of my family is under review as a result of their

actions. My inner being is deeply upset and I am riding that out.

 

The reason I'm writing is my core physical energy has bottomed out,

flattened out, had gone missing. My mind finally cleared but my

energy for basic initiative like cooking for myself, working at my

desk, doing any yoga or meditations is unavailable. What a shocker!

I'm just not drawn to anything and that is so unlike me.

 

I know I'm in a major grief cycle. I'm just wondering if anyone knows

of ANYTHING simple and brief for starters that I could do to help my

body find my amazing core life energy as I go through this integration

process.. I just hate grief and how long, long, long it takes to

bounce back from big hits.

 

I had no idea that my birth family's behavior would upset me so

(denial!) and, my personality just wants to say, this isn't what I

wanted on my March calender!

 

Thanks for this caring community.

 

Sat Nam,

 

Lakhbir Kaur

Turners Falls, MA

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Sat Nam,

Your message really touched me, it hurts when the family of origin

causes pain. The only thing I can say is that when we are working on

ourselves and trying to take a better more spiritual path, sometimes

our family of origin wants us to go back or stay in the misery. I am

just guessing here. But you mentioned not being able to find your

energy. The grief is draining you. I haven't got a simple solution

but I have struggled with depression in the past and Kundalini yoga

halps me so much that I no longer take antidepressants. I find taking

a cold shower in the morning- much as I sometimes hate to jump in-

really helps. Yogi Bhajan said a cold shower builds courage, and it

sounds like you need courage to face your day. If you're already

taking cold showers then I guess just Keeping Up, forcing yourself to

go to the yoga mat and do a kriya and meditation, allowing yourself

the time for shavasana, deep relaxation, and moving on to the

computer or desk or whatever you have to do. Keep up and be kept up.

It's hard to do sometimes and maybe you just have to allow yourself

the grief to an extent. At least you have the awareness! How much

farther ahead than many people you are because of that!

 

Sat Nam and blessings,

Ananda Kaur

Plymouth MA