My first experience of Kirtan Kriya

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Dear Group,

I was pretty much a nervous wreck before I begun, it was about 6:30am, I was and

am clean of cannabis.

Within the first 5 minuites I became aware of a deep pulsing, there was a deep

dark warmth, difficult to explain, like rich, still honey inside, vibrating. In

the next 5min I felt very tender and sad, tearful, I also saw a blue dot of

light. As I progressed the deep vibration became deeper and more subtle, it was

inside and outside. Towards the end I saw a white dot of light.

Afterwards I felt like I had taken half an ecstacy tablet, waves of pleasure ran

up and down my body, my vision had more depth, and I could feel my aura moving

around like a cool breeze. I still have these feelings now, softness, relaxed.

And, I actually enjoyed doing it, and it gave me hope, that I could be like you

guys, wow, a natural way, and it made me think of the pineal gland and the pine

cone as it is represented in art.

 

Also another lovely soul from this list gave me the Ram Das meditation. That

was a little strange as it was the only med I had done that didnt seem to do

anything! I was doing 31min, but stopped as I thought this Ram Das is no good,

I said Ram Das pah! But odd things have happened in outer life that have made

me think to carry on but maybe for 11min with other kriyas. I was desparate and

rang my dealer to get some smoke (pot is my 'drug of choice'), after the initial

greetings the phone went dead. Then I rang nothing. Yesterday I spoke to her

and asked what happened, she replied that she became overwhelmed with tears and

had to put the phone down!!??

Yesterday she was supposed to come by, and just didnt bother again!? So it has

been a week now, and in moments of despair I seemed protected.

 

May I express my gratitude to Yogi Bhajan and this list and the wonderful people

here, imagine if all this didnt exist. So I just want to express my love and

genuine heartfelt gratitude.

 

The reason I 'wear my heart on my sleeve' is that maybe someone is also

struggling, maybe cannot express, and may benefit from my honesty. I also truly

beleive that in the new age 'There are no secrets'.

 

I better do some house cleaning now, in my chaos it has got a little well

chaotic!.

 

All best wishes,

Sukhnivas S