Exploring my truth in a world of endless change.

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A friend of mine and I started a social networking site for kundalini yoga

enthusiasts called aquarianpilgrims.ning.com last year after solstice and since

then one thing has been assured: endless change..I have not written a blog for

a while because I have been going through a phase of spiritual introspection and

questioning the validity of the structure of my belief system and the systems of

wisdom that I participate in.. I have been standing back and observing many

things in life to see what my intentions and motivations are and to see what the

value of my efforts are. For example, I currently believe that to participate in

some practices, like a prosperity meditation, roots one deeper in to the

material plane, maya, illusion and further perpetuates suffering and cycles of

death and re-birth. If done with the conscious realization that I am

participating in life on this level, then I suppose there is no harm in that...

There is no us and them, good and bad after all. It is clear to me at this time,

that to participate in yogic practices that intentionally cultivate spiritual

powers (Sidis) can be seen as a big obstacle on the path towards awakening. Then

again, is there actually any thing wrong with big obstacles? They are after all

the biggest opportunities for growth. This is a " householders " path which seems

to have the underlying current of creating happy yogic warriors/householders. It

does not necessarily direct everyone directly towards G.O.D. consciousness.

Although I suppose it is not everyones time to participate in G.O.D.

consciousness. KY does contain practices for many varying levels of spiritual

growth, which makes KY easily adaptable for the masses. So I step back to

observe, what is it about Yogi Bhajan that inspired him to lead people down this

winding path towards goals of spiritual growth and also towards self

gratification (prosperity meditations) and magical (sidis) powers. I guess an

answer might be spiritual and personal growth not necessarily attainment of

God consciousness directly. So, What is it about my current state that draws my

interest to this path I ask my self? For one thing It helped me heal from self

destructive addictive behavior and I am choosing not to dictate the course of my

path, I allow G.O.D. to guide my steps, and here I am. The practice of kundalini

yoga has brought me and many like me, to a point where I realize that some of

this technology was misunderstood by me and was taking me down a direction I

will choose not to go. From my current perspective to do a meditation with the

intention of " getting something " is the metaphorical equivalent of tying a stick

to my back with a carrot dangling in front of my face and projecting what I

already am out in to the ethers somewhere where it is conceptual intangible and

not actual and present in awareness. I learned that the act of striving for

" presence " actually prevents me from simply being what I already am. I question

my intention with telling you this. My answer is to inspire you to think about

how you are spending your time and to what end.That being said I am very

grateful for Yogi Bhajan for creating/passing down a system of yoga in which

even I, a western thinking American person can grab ahold of one of these

meditations that involve chanting, mudras, focal points and praanayam, without

which I would have never had the one pointed focus to sit down for two minutes

and actually meditate. Above all I thank God (the bright light within you) who

has been guiding me down this path all along who has allowed me to pass through

these obstacles, taken me by the hand and shown me how to decipher truth from

illusion. Dont listen to me though, perhaps it is better to plug along in blind

faith never questioning the path that you are on? Ignorance is bliss, right? So

what does this all mean for my practice and teaching? I keep doing Sadhana

because it is the glue that holds my life together. (Sadhana being spiritual

practice) With the intention of cultivating Prana and learning to focus my

energy in ways that are helpful and productive, to keep my body fit and

glandular system functioning optimally etc. Do I do it to realize G.O.D. in my

self? Not any more, because I think that the act of striving prevents me from

simply being what I already am. Will I still teach? Yes I will, but only the

techniques that take some one to a higher experience of them selves. No more

prosperity kriyas and techniques to gain Sidis. I will teach techniques that

expand ones awareness of the unlimited soul. So what am I doing now? Sadhana

(kundalini yoga/meditation etc.) with a healthy dose of yoga Nidra for icing on

my meditative cake, which Im sure like everything else will change ....

Saaaaaaaaaaaaat Nam

 

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