To share and find support

[Guest guest]

I began seeing a therapist last week which was a huge decision to begin. I do

not think I began in the right foot...

 

But as she shared her story on " taking some time off to be with her boys " ... It

wasn't until a few days later that jealousy and anger began welling up in me. It

has been difficult for me to find friends which I can share this journey and

worries that have been coming up in my life while doing KY which is why I

decided to turn to therapy again to maybe help in reconciling deep wounds or

feel comforted sharing..

 

Her short story tapped into my longing and grief over not being able to start a

family at this time after many years of working on my self...and then losing the

timing, and then now feeling like I may be beginning the process over again.

 

I didn't realize how it trigger my pain - her happiness. Since I started to feel

it as an obstacle speaking to her again, I needed to share somewhere and thought

maybe I can hopefully do it here since it has been my journey practicing KY that

has made me more aware then ever of some of my deeper wounds/trauma coming up.

 

I had been feeling horrible about this and several days of extreme anxiety and

panic since it's already taken me some time to address some fears going back to

therapy.

 

I am still being jogged with other painful memories/images, some crying spells

as some more feelings and trauma are surfacing again.

 

I just wanted to share this with the sangat...hoping as I move forward I might

hear some advice and maybe others stories so I might not be so frightened as I

re-enter therapy or begin sharing my stories with someone/others...

 

Thank you for listening. Sat Nam

 

Peace and Light

MB Finding Peace

[Guest guest]

Sat nam,

I recently went through a bit of a growth spurt, in which some intense emotions

were stirred up in my current life that I realized related to a time period in

my childhood with similar emotions but at that time in my childhood I had gone

numb instead of allowing myself to feel the difficult and conflicting feelings.

I noticed the correlation by noticing where in my body I was feeling it.

Anyway, this time, determeined to be as in my body as possible, I rode the

roller coaster of emotions, allowing them to come up, allowing myself to

cry/greive, be mad, or whatever. And then I came out the other side. and it

wasn't so bad after all. I have a feeling a lot of people are being met with

similar opportunities for growth. Perhaps this jealousy youspeak of and the

other emotions are coming up for another opportunity to be lceared. I am glad I

let myself feel what I did, because I think I won't be needing to meet another

person that will bring up the same issue for me anymore. Now I can create from

a space of nothing and quiet.

Guru Beant Kaur

 

Bridget Kamke, LMT

Kundalini Yoga Teacher

Licensed Massage Therapist

Children's Book Author

www.infinipede.com

 

 

__________

Get Free Email with Video Mail & Video Chat!

http://www.juno.com/freeemail?refcd=JUTAGOUT1FREM0210

[Guest guest]

When you wrote:

But as she shared her story on " taking some time off to be with her boys " ... It

wasn't until a few days later that jealousy and anger began welling up in me.

 

Who is she? Is 'she' the therapist?

 

All the feelings that emerge when meditating,doing yoga,during, after are there

because more 'awareness' is there. Now those feelings however are not who you

are. You are waking up and the ego is wanting to define you as jealous,etc. You

are a beautiful, vibrant soul possessing love and all the virtues, not vices. We

do KY and meditate, etc to remember we are the light, love, goodness, not all

the negative. Keep doing the yoga...

 

We belong to Love. It helps to connect to others who belong to love. How do you

do that? Be the love and vibrate the love, and when negative thoughts try to

claim your soul, say, " that is not me! I belong to love. "

 

Hari Atma Kaur

 

Kundalini-Yoga , " finding.peace " <finding.peace

wrote:

>

> I began seeing a therapist last week which was a huge decision to begin. I do

not think I began in the right foot...

>

> But as she shared her story on " taking some time off to be with her boys " ...

It wasn't until a few days later that jealousy and anger began welling up in me.

It has been difficult for me to find friends which I can share this journey and

worries that have been coming up in my life while doing KY which is why I

decided to turn to therapy again to maybe help in reconciling deep wounds or

feel comforted sharing..

>

> Her short story tapped into my longing and grief over not being able to start

a family at this time after many years of working on my self...and then losing

the timing, and then now feeling like I may be beginning the process over again.

>

> I didn't realize how it trigger my pain - her happiness. Since I started to

feel it as an obstacle speaking to her again, I needed to share somewhere and

thought maybe I can hopefully do it here since it has been my journey practicing

KY that has made me more aware then ever of some of my deeper wounds/trauma

coming up.

>

> I had been feeling horrible about this and several days of extreme anxiety and

panic since it's already taken me some time to address some fears going back to

therapy.

>

> I am still being jogged with other painful memories/images, some crying spells

as some more feelings and trauma are surfacing again.

>

> I just wanted to share this with the sangat...hoping as I move forward I might

hear some advice and maybe others stories so I might not be so frightened as I

re-enter therapy or begin sharing my stories with someone/others...

>

> Thank you for listening. Sat Nam

>

> Peace and Light

> MB Finding Peace

>