i think iam mad&need psychadrist(part2)&readers never loose hope

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It's not the language but the speaker we want to understand.

Soul covered with layers of materialistic desires searches for

happiness in the outside world. Whereas it itself is the true source

of happiness . One who is headed in the right direction in the course

of spiritual knowledge acquires true knowledge through the cycles of

kal [death/rebirth] and these layers gets peeled off one by one.

A stone thrown in a sea would only sink due to its weight or self

ego.

By what you wrote it seems that sometimes you become subject , object

and action. You see all these in yourelf. This is a state when you

are far away from any kind of self desire , ego or selfishness.

More you are closer to the true self more you are away from the

clutches of maya or karmic desires [sankalpas] .

 

, " ashishjen_9635 "

<ashishjen_9635 wrote:

>

>

> thank u vmuch & many people answered the query on basis of their

> knowledge.i wanna cum to the pt.bt before that i wanna make a thing

> clear that the girl i see in dreams......i have never had any sex

or

> any stupid thought for her.in dreams wen i used to see her i was

> prevented from wet dreams & i in dreams only recived a shaktipaat

> kinda thing,i felt that fragrance & peace which she gave & used to get

> up that v moment & peace & frragrance remaind wth me for many hours

after

> then.whoever she may b bt she took me out of hell & animal

> existence.the toughest times of opposition & hatred were spent in her

> peace.l one day became so overwhelmed that i said 2 myself about

> her " world does not knows u dear thats why theres so much pain,so

much

> hatred ,so much lust,vasana ,trishna......for whoever you r-you are

> nothing bt light.thanks.... " the divine dates r-1.i dint note them

> down seriously bt whatever i know its here 1.in jan 2006,2.14 feb

> 2006,3. & 4 2 times b/w6-10 maRch2006.5.8april2006,6.22april2006

7.24

> apr,8.28 apr,9.6 jun,10 & 11-2times b/wsept.to decembr.2006 12.27

> jan2007,13.25 march2007

> boost up ur spirits:

> i never in my life chanted any mantra,wth this home environment no

1

> can.

> u all wanna know my sadhana sanagri:it was radio

> tv,shampoos,soaps,perfumes,cold drinks,cell phone,every sound in my

> surrounding.i still remember how i used to do so tough meditation

> that wen i used to get on my study table 4 studying i 1 day cried

so

> much because after meditation wen i decided 2study i was so tired

& my

> back was paining so much that i couldnt even sit.it was not only

that

> day bt every day there was the same story,earlier i used to stop

> myself becuseof my ego bt from that day i often cry wen i knew how

> good is tantra [from my own experiences]i feel myself to be a fool

> studying these worldly studies!!i wanna be like lord buddha & be

> recluse or sanyasi.i hav no guide & wth such parents & their friends

of

> high class or middle class i cant tell u how its tough to keep

urself

> enlighten.there worldly talks would often disturb me bt still i

kept

> on .even while rting iam feeling so helpless & emotional.bt these

> things have made me strong everytime,now ther r other things i must

> write bt it will b to tough for me to bear.my parents are so much

> caring that even single wish wasnt left undone bt provided that i

> should move acc to them & becone worldly.this isnt my story bt of

every

> house.every guy talks so much religion bt on the inside he is full

of

> rubbish & garbage.now read what i did :radio-through it i used to

> meditate for 5-6 hrs in 1 go wth 2 breaks of 20 mins each.every

tune

> is regarded as a special beejmantra. shampoos-i used to create raja

> shakti. after all that fragrant stuff happend i thought that

> fragrances play a great role.wat i once smelled i used to repeat

that

> smell in deep meditation.tv-wth help of tv i got that bent of mind

by

> which i could make seperate worlds.this is a topic of parralel

worlds

> & it ll take me at least whole day to write.i now could make my own

> vedios of songs i heard.the voices e.g.a womans voice was used to

> create raja shakti,while heavy mans voice for vigour.when ever the

> songs used to get over i felt cold sensation even in the smallest

> pore of my body wth on back sides of my neck,wth palms feeling

warm,i

> couldnt stand 4 more than 10 mins.i call it as apsara sadhanas

while

> i used my inner creativity.this particular knowledge was used by

mein

> exams wherethe good fragrance got me good luck & in these days where

> thers less time to sleep & even my sleeplessness were cured.one

canfeel

> the particular good luck by strange confidence he feels within & the

> great cooling sensation.now regarding shampoos they can be rubbed

on

> hand & smelled for half an hour on daily basis wth diff brands.hot

> water-always bathing wth hot water creats skin diseasesbt wth

special

> techniques it can be bathed wrh any time of tha yr.without any side

> effects.hot water helps alot to increase the fragrant

> capacity & increases the sharpness,sicerity & quitness of mind.also

every

> sound around me was distinguished as hreem kleem or aim.one finds

> hreem sunds most of the timeeg sound of shrilling wen 2 rough

> surfaces rub against each other.this meditation is toughest 1 & can

be

> done in any situation .it requirs being egoless & silence whole

day.now

> there are many other things & discoveries bt mail is too long & so dont

> lose hope i hav provd to myself & to believrs of this mail that where

> thers will thers a way.Now there are other loads of things that

can

> be written bt the mail is now too long.take care & god bless u all.do

> answer.-ashish kaushik

>