To usha about FW: An exact translation of the Kathamrita

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Usha wrote:

What will it avail to have scholarship and to give lectures if you do nothavediscrimination and dispassion. God is truth and all else is unreal. He aloneis the substance andall else is nothing. This is discrimination...

Dear Usha ~ thank you for posting this. At first, when I saw it was so long, I wasn't going to read it, as today, well ... blah, blah, blah ... I am sick. But I'm glad I did. It made me realize what I have to get back to, even if only in my heart. And the story about wife who threatened to kill herself was especially pertinent, not that the exact situation applies to me. But I received an email today from my ex partner, who was very abusive to me and also in essence used up a lot of my inheritance. He became so addicted to a computer game that he gave up his job so he could play it. Now he has visited everyone he thinks he can stay with, and ultimately all, even his own sister and mother, have thrown him out. In his email he asked me for money ... he will be on the street, etc., etc. The last time he asked for help, I gave it, even though I had a feeling that it was not the right thing to do. This time I am not giving him any more money.

 

And for any of my Devi Mandir friends who are of a romantic bent, I have gotten back together will my true husband. David and I parted many years ago, though, God/dess threw our paths together every so often, I thiink to remind us that, whatever else was going on in our lives, we still loved each other. Still ... we were stubborn, and we were always with someone else. Yet in the nearly 30 years we were apart, our love never ceased, and we never got a legal divorce. So on the one hand, I guess that makes me an adulterous wife. But the joy is that now we have finally let God/dess lead us back together. And we are very happy. To be with someone like David, my true husband, when I am so sick, is a blessing because he is very laid back, funny (makes me laugh a lot), and also he makes me feel closer to God/dess. And not sending money to the other one, I believe, shows that I have let go of any attachment I felt toward him, and all of this is a cause for great rejoicing.

 

I will be leaving NM. David is taking me back to the east coast. We'll be in Massachusetts. And it will be so much easier to see my daughter. Being parted from her for so long and unable to travel, I felt like I was in the hell bardo. We will stop and stay with her a few days on our way to MA.

 

So I will be coming and going in the group for awhile as I get settled, find new doctors, etc. Then I hope to be able to participate again. Jai Maa , Jai Swamiji ~ P.S. As I was sorting through stuff while packing, I came across a beautiful picture of Shree Maa, and one of the little cards with Swamiji on the front and a mantra on the back. So they are in my medicine folder and will be making the trip with me. Get a sneak peek of the all-new AOL.com.

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Dear Linda,

 

Don't see things as happy coincidences merely; Mother is hard at work

in your life.

 

Sending Love for your new future,

 

Tanmaya

 

, nierika wrote:

>

>

> Usha wrote:

>

> What will it avail to have scholarship and to give lectures if you

do not

> have

>

> discrimination and dispassion. God is truth and all else is unreal.

He alone

> is the substance and

>

> all else is nothing. This is discrimination...

>

>

> Dear Usha ~ thank you for posting this. At first, when I saw it was

so long,

> I wasn't going to read it, as today, well ... blah, blah, blah ... I

am

> sick. But I'm glad I did. It made me realize what I have to get back

to, even if

> only in my heart. And the story about wife who threatened to kill

herself was

> especially pertinent, not that the exact situation applies to me. But I

> received an email today from my ex partner, who was very abusive to

me and also in

> essence used up a lot of my inheritance. He became so addicted to a

computer

> game that he gave up his job so he could play it. Now he has visited

> everyone he thinks he can stay with, and ultimately all, even his

own sister and

> mother, have thrown him out. In his email he asked me for money ...

he will be

> on the street, etc., etc. The last time he asked for help, I gave

it, even

> though I had a feeling that it was not the right thing to do. This

time I am

> not giving him any more money.

>

> And for any of my Devi Mandir friends who are of a romantic bent, I

have

> gotten back together will my true husband. David and I parted many

years ago,

> though, God/dess threw our paths together every so often, I thiink

to remind us

> that, whatever else was going on in our lives, we still loved each

other.

> Still ... we were stubborn, and we were always with someone else.

Yet in the

> nearly 30 years we were apart, our love never ceased, and we never

got a legal

> divorce. So on the one hand, I guess that makes me an adulterous

wife. But

> the joy is that now we have finally let God/dess lead us back

together. And we

> are very happy. To be with someone like David, my true husband, when

I am so

> sick, is a blessing because he is very laid back, funny (makes me

laugh a

> lot), and also he makes me feel closer to God/dess. And not sending

money to the

> other one, I believe, shows that I have let go of any attachment I felt

> toward him, and all of this is a cause for great rejoicing.

>

> I will be leaving NM. David is taking me back to the east coast.

We'll be in

> Massachusetts. And it will be so much easier to see my daughter.

Being parted

> from her for so long and unable to travel, I felt like I was in the

hell

> bardo. We will stop and stay with her a few days on our way to MA.

>

> So I will be coming and going in the group for awhile as I get

settled, find

> new doctors, etc. Then I hope to be able to participate again. Jai

Maa , Jai

> Swamiji ~ P.S. As I was sorting through stuff while packing, I

came

> across a beautiful picture of Shree Maa, and one of the little

cards with Swamiji

> on the front and a mantra on the back. So they are in my medicine

folder and

> will be making the trip with me.

>

>

>

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