To Henny

[Guest guest]

Namaste Henny: I too feel to " hide out " sometimes. But, everytime the

thought comes up, the next thought arises: " where to go? There is no

place to hide. "

The ego is so crafty and tricky. Every chance it gets,it will try to

break up the wholeness and introduce duality. Everytime. Thanks

goodness for the mantras. One for every occasion, for every problem

and difficulty.

Our magical family here brings me comfort and joy day after day.

Thanks for hanging out with us.

 

Jai Ma Jai Swami

 

vishweshwar

 

 

 

 

 

-- In , " Chris Kirner "

<chriskirner1956 wrote:

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> I'm glad you couldn't go, Henny.

>

> The Lone Ranger reference just means feeling alone, ie. " Don't feel

> alone " . I was suggesting that more than a few of us, it seems, have

> been having similar experiences lately.

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> I'm holding (being held) on too...

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> Jai Maa!

> Chris

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> , " henny_v_i " <henny_v_i@> wrote:

> >

> > Namaste Chris,

> >

> > thanks, dear friend, for your encouragement! O yes, I am holding on.

> > In fact the hem seems to have the magical quality of holding onto me

> > instead of me holding onto it. Even when I tried, I could not let go,

> > and the sari seems to be made of the most wonderful material, with

all

> > the stars of heaven, all the flowers and birds, all people, in fact,

> > everything that is, all woven into it, difficulties and all:).

> > I don't know the Lone Ranger well enough to know how he is feeling,

> > but in any case, I will not be riding off alone, never to be heard

> > from again:) I may have to camp out by myself in the desert once in a

> > while, though,

> >

> > with love,

> > Henny

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> > -- In , " Chris Kirner " <chriskirner1956@

> > > wrote:

> > >

> > > Hi Henny!

> > >

> > > So glad to hear from you!

> > >

> > > I'm sorry you find yourself in a difficult time (but don't feel like

> > > the Lone Ranger).

> > >

> > > I'm just glad you're sticking with what is clearly the deepest

> > > yearning of your heart despite the obstacles you are experiencing.

> > > Divine Mother is certainly compassionate and faithful and will not

> > let

> > > you go as long as you hold onto the hem of Her sari.

> > >

> > > Jai Maa!

> > > Chris

> > >

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> > >

> > > , " henny_v_i " <henny_v_i@> wrote:

> > > >

> > > > " Oh Beloved, You're throwing us in the nectar

> > > > and You're making us dance.

> > > > You give us the bhava and

> > > > You take away the bhava.

> > > > Why are you doing this?

> > > > This isn't our fault, it's Yours!

> > > > You gave us our minds and

> > > > then You make them wander.

> > > > Oh Mother, You've given us the creation

> > > > and you've given us this perception.

> > > > All the sweet has been burned.

> > > > We've forgotten Her maya

> > > > and in this way we become worldly.

> > > > Ramprasad says, " You've given us this mind,

> > > > Where else are you taking it? "

> > > >

> > > > Dear family,

> > > >

> > > > these words have taken on special meaning for me these last

months

> > as

> > > > I found myself wandering away. In the process I burnt my fingers,

> > > > banged my head against many walls, scraped my knees, swallowed my

> > > > tears, closed my heart, straightened my back, and told myself I

> > could

> > > > very well walk alone. I broke my promises, ate my words, lost my

> > > > tongue, nearly choked and wondered what happened. But then

Swamiji

> > > > started the Kali Puja class and Kali Maa drew me to Her. It

was as

> > if

> > > > She gently tugged the strings with which She had tied me to

Her in

> > > > order to keep me from wandering too far. And I realized I could

> > not

> > > > get away from Her no matter how hard I tried. Swamiji talked

about

> > how

> > > > many of us recoil when we are confronted with the need to let go,

> > to

> > > > surrender because we are afraid of what will happen to our little

> > > > 'me'. Indeed I recoiled, or more accurately I ran as fast as my

> > legs

> > > > would carry me in any direction that would strengthen the ideas I

> > had

> > > > of what 'me' consisted of. But when I ran out of steam and

sort of

> > > > collapsed, I found I had been running in circles round Her all

the

> > > > time. She must have been smiling seeing me run.

> > > > From the bottom of my heart I thank Shree Maa and Swamiji for

> > > > continuing to share their wisdom and inspiration. And I thank

them

> > for

> > > > empowering us and for showing us we are free, free to create the

> > most

> > > > beautiful pujas we can imagine, free to be priests and

priestesses

> > in

> > > > our own home, free to dance and free to live....while all the

> > while

> > > > they gently hold the strings woven of love and appreciation which

> > tie

> > > > this divine family together. I thank all of you for being here.

> > > > I am looking forward very much to the next Kali Puja classes; She

> > who

> > > > takes away the Darkness has become very dear to my heart,

> > > >

> > > > with love,

> > > > Henny

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