to Vishweshwar- To Henny

[Guest guest]

Namaste Vish,

 

the ego is tricky indeed, and it will say anything to save itself. It

is only now that I realize the enormity of the lies. Anyway, when I

first started reciting the Chandi, I felt the Song Seeking Forgiveness

at the end a bit much; I do no longer think so. Actually I am

beginning to get an idea of what is meant when Swamiji says the Chandi

is about what is going on within all the time. And now it becomes very

interesting....

 

I am so blessed to know you and all our loving family,

Jai Maa, Jai Swamiji,

 

Henny

 

 

 

, " inspectionconnection108 "

<inspectionconnection108 wrote:

>

> Namaste Henny: I too feel to " hide out " sometimes. But, everytime

the

> thought comes up, the next thought arises: " where to go? There is

no

> place to hide. "

> The ego is so crafty and tricky. Every chance it gets,it will try

to

> break up the wholeness and introduce duality. Everytime. Thanks

> goodness for the mantras. One for every occasion, for every problem

> and difficulty.

> Our magical family here brings me comfort and joy day after day.

> Thanks for hanging out with us.

>

> Jai Ma Jai Swami

>

> vishweshwar

>

>

>

>

>

> -- In , " Chris Kirner "

> <chriskirner1956@> wrote:

> >

> > I'm glad you couldn't go, Henny.

> >

> > The Lone Ranger reference just means feeling alone, ie. " Don't

feel

> > alone " . I was suggesting that more than a few of us, it seems,

have

> > been having similar experiences lately.

> >

> > I'm holding (being held) on too...

> >

> > Jai Maa!

> > Chris

> >

> >

> >

> > , " henny_v_i " <henny_v_i@>

wrote:

> > >

> > > Namaste Chris,

> > >

> > > thanks, dear friend, for your encouragement! O yes, I am holding

on.

> > > In fact the hem seems to have the magical quality of holding

onto me

> > > instead of me holding onto it. Even when I tried, I could not

let go,

> > > and the sari seems to be made of the most wonderful material,

with

> all

> > > the stars of heaven, all the flowers and birds, all people, in

fact,

> > > everything that is, all woven into it, difficulties and all:).

> > > I don't know the Lone Ranger well enough to know how he is

feeling,

> > > but in any case, I will not be riding off alone, never to be

heard

> > > from again:) I may have to camp out by myself in the desert once

in a

> > > while, though,

> > >

> > > with love,

> > > Henny

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > > -- In , " Chris Kirner "

<chriskirner1956@

> > > > wrote:

> > > >

> > > > Hi Henny!

> > > >

> > > > So glad to hear from you!

> > > >

> > > > I'm sorry you find yourself in a difficult time (but don't

feel like

> > > > the Lone Ranger).

> > > >

> > > > I'm just glad you're sticking with what is clearly the deepest

> > > > yearning of your heart despite the obstacles you are

experiencing.

> > > > Divine Mother is certainly compassionate and faithful and will

not

> > > let

> > > > you go as long as you hold onto the hem of Her sari.

> > > >

> > > > Jai Maa!

> > > > Chris

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > , " henny_v_i " <henny_v_i@>

wrote:

> > > > >

> > > > > " Oh Beloved, You're throwing us in the nectar

> > > > > and You're making us dance.

> > > > > You give us the bhava and

> > > > > You take away the bhava.

> > > > > Why are you doing this?

> > > > > This isn't our fault, it's Yours!

> > > > > You gave us our minds and

> > > > > then You make them wander.

> > > > > Oh Mother, You've given us the creation

> > > > > and you've given us this perception.

> > > > > All the sweet has been burned.

> > > > > We've forgotten Her maya

> > > > > and in this way we become worldly.

> > > > > Ramprasad says, " You've given us this mind,

> > > > > Where else are you taking it? "

> > > > >

> > > > > Dear family,

> > > > >

> > > > > these words have taken on special meaning for me these last

> months

> > > as

> > > > > I found myself wandering away. In the process I burnt my

fingers,

> > > > > banged my head against many walls, scraped my knees,

swallowed my

> > > > > tears, closed my heart, straightened my back, and told

myself I

> > > could

> > > > > very well walk alone. I broke my promises, ate my words,

lost my

> > > > > tongue, nearly choked and wondered what happened. But then

> Swamiji

> > > > > started the Kali Puja class and Kali Maa drew me to Her. It

> was as

> > > if

> > > > > She gently tugged the strings with which She had tied me to

> Her in

> > > > > order to keep me from wandering too far. And I realized I

could

> > > not

> > > > > get away from Her no matter how hard I tried. Swamiji talked

> about

> > > how

> > > > > many of us recoil when we are confronted with the need to

let go,

> > > to

> > > > > surrender because we are afraid of what will happen to our

little

> > > > > 'me'. Indeed I recoiled, or more accurately I ran as fast as

my

> > > legs

> > > > > would carry me in any direction that would strengthen the

ideas I

> > > had

> > > > > of what 'me' consisted of. But when I ran out of steam and

> sort of

> > > > > collapsed, I found I had been running in circles round Her

all

> the

> > > > > time. She must have been smiling seeing me run.

> > > > > From the bottom of my heart I thank Shree Maa and Swamiji

for

> > > > > continuing to share their wisdom and inspiration. And I

thank

> them

> > > for

> > > > > empowering us and for showing us we are free, free to create

the

> > > most

> > > > > beautiful pujas we can imagine, free to be priests and

> priestesses

> > > in

> > > > > our own home, free to dance and free to live....while all

the

> > > while

> > > > > they gently hold the strings woven of love and appreciation

which

> > > tie

> > > > > this divine family together. I thank all of you for being

here.

> > > > > I am looking forward very much to the next Kali Puja

classes; She

> > > who

> > > > > takes away the Darkness has become very dear to my heart,

> > > > >

> > > > > with love,

> > > > > Henny

> > > > >

> > > >

> > >

> >

>