Surrendering to Maa's Will

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Namaste: Since the beginning of the 3 year Chandi Homa January 2005

at the Mandir, I focused my life around 3 spheres: Mandir / Maa, home,

and work. I kept this tight focus on my awareness in order to be of

maximum service to Maa. When an impulse would arise to go to San

Franscisco to see a concernt, etc., I would dispassionately analyze

the impulse, and weigh whether it would benefit Maa or me. If it did

not benefit Maa and the Chandi Homa, I gave it to Maa to remove. And

She would.

So, to my surprise, prior to the start of Navaratri, I became enamored

of the world for 10 days or so. My wife and I went to the ocean for

several days and I frolicked in the waves. Then we went out to dinner

and to several concerts. I suddenly felt that the outside world was

pretty interesting. Yet, after each event, each experience, I desired

another. Nothing satisfied me, because I evaluated every event

against my experience with Maa and the Mandir family. Thus, each

event lacked the shakti and effervescence I experience at the Mandir.

Yet, even though I realized that these experiences were not taking me

towards my goal, Oneness with Maa, I continued to look forward to the

next event.

I was stuck. The ego was winning. My mind rationalized that I

deserved to play and enjoy the world. I had worked hard, and now it

was time to play.

Well brothers and sisters, you can imagine what happened next. I was

at a concert, and " I " felt totally overwhelmed. Instead of listening

to the music, I began to chant Shiva's name, over and over and over.

My wife began to feel ill and said we had to leave right away. That

saved us. We left and gathered ourselves together in the car and

drove home.

Next day at the Mandir, Maa asked if I had completed some task She had

asked me to perform. I said no, and added rather meekly that I had

become overshadowed in the world and could not stay focused on the

task She had given me.

As quick as can be, She turned away from me, and as She walked away

She said: " I cannot accept that from my devotee, I will not accept

that from my devotee. "

Well, you can imagine that I was shocked into TOTAL ATTENTION. I knew

without a doubt that She loved me so much She HAD to tell me the

TRUTH. She had to WAKE ME UP. And Her TRUTH has so much power and

shakti that it removed the egoistic impulse, and re-enlivened the MAA

principle.

She reminded me that there is only one TRUE course of action for a

devotee: SURRENDER TO THE MASTER. And as my Guru, she was not about

to left me get away with any action which took me away from Her.

So, I vowed to get back on the straight and narrow path. Since then,

I have been focused and attentive to Maa and the observance of

Navatri. And I have felt a deep peace.

Tonight, after satsung, as Maa left the Temple, She said to me:

" Isn't it nice to be a good devotee again? "

Dear reader, I just smiled at Her and said: " yes Maa. "

 

Jai Maa Jai Swami

 

love

 

vishweshwar

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Dear Vish,Namaste . Happy Navaratri. Great Post.The key to what you have written is "each event lacked the shakti and effervescence I experience at the Mandir."While I too enjoy a lot of activities in the world, more and more I find them relevant and meaningful only in the context of Maa. I dont know how else to phrase it. Swamiji once said "We tend to gravitate towards where we are nourished". I think that is what happens in my case. The lure of the world is strong, but the pull of Maa is stronger and THANK HEAVEN FOR THAT.LoveNanda

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Vishweshwar,

 

IMHO, this is your finest post to date. Thank you for being so candid with your feelings, obstacles, and challenges. It says a great deal about your true spiritual inclination and drive. It is easy to share the "good" stuff openly, but few are brave enough to share any darkness that may creep in for fear of the ego. But whenever someone does, it generally comes out in a very beautiful way that inspires others.

 

JAI MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

 

Surya

 

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Tuesday, October 16, 2007 11:58 PM

[www.ShreeMaa.org] Surrendering to Maa's Will

 

 

Namaste: Since the beginning of the 3 year Chandi Homa January 2005at the Mandir, I focused my life around 3 spheres: Mandir / Maa, home,and work. I kept this tight focus on my awareness in order to be ofmaximum service to Maa. When an impulse would arise to go to SanFranscisco to see a concernt, etc., I would dispassionately analyzethe impulse, and weigh whether it would benefit Maa or me. If it didnot benefit Maa and the Chandi Homa, I gave it to Maa to remove. AndShe would.So, to my surprise, prior to the start of Navaratri, I became enamoredof the world for 10 days or so. My wife and I went to the ocean forseveral days and I frolicked in the waves. Then we went out to dinnerand to several concerts. I suddenly felt that the outside world waspretty interesting. Yet, after each event, each experience, I desiredanother. Nothing satisfied me, because I evaluated every eventagainst my experience with Maa and the Mandir family. Thus, eachevent lacked the shakti and effervescence I experience at the Mandir.Yet, even though I realized that these experiences were not taking metowards my goal, Oneness with Maa, I continued to look forward to thenext event. I was stuck. The ego was winning. My mind rationalized that Ideserved to play and enjoy the world. I had worked hard, and now itwas time to play. Well brothers and sisters, you can imagine what happened next. I wasat a concert, and "I" felt totally overwhelmed. Instead of listeningto the music, I began to chant Shiva's name, over and over and over. My wife began to feel ill and said we had to leave right away. Thatsaved us. We left and gathered ourselves together in the car anddrove home.Next day at the Mandir, Maa asked if I had completed some task She hadasked me to perform. I said no, and added rather meekly that I hadbecome overshadowed in the world and could not stay focused on thetask She had given me.As quick as can be, She turned away from me, and as She walked awayShe said: "I cannot accept that from my devotee, I will not acceptthat from my devotee."Well, you can imagine that I was shocked into TOTAL ATTENTION. I knewwithout a doubt that She loved me so much She HAD to tell me theTRUTH. She had to WAKE ME UP. And Her TRUTH has so much power andshakti that it removed the egoistic impulse, and re-enlivened the MAAprinciple. She reminded me that there is only one TRUE course of action for adevotee: SURRENDER TO THE MASTER. And as my Guru, she was not aboutto left me get away with any action which took me away from Her. So, I vowed to get back on the straight and narrow path. Since then,I have been focused and attentive to Maa and the observance ofNavatri. And I have felt a deep peace.Tonight, after satsung, as Maa left the Temple, She said to me: "Isn't it nice to be a good devotee again?"Dear reader, I just smiled at Her and said: "yes Maa."Jai Maa Jai Swamilovevishweshwar

 

 

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This is very beautiful, Vish.... I am very happy for you !Jai Maa !inspectionconnection108 <inspectionconnection108 wrote: Namaste: Since the beginning of the 3 year Chandi Homa January 2005 at the Mandir, I focused my life around 3 spheres: Mandir / Maa, home, and work. I kept this tight focus on my awareness in order to be of maximum service to Maa. When an impulse would arise to go to San Franscisco to see a concernt, etc., I would dispassionately analyze the impulse, and weigh whether it would benefit Maa or me. If it did not benefit Maa and the Chandi Homa, I gave it to Maa to remove. And She would. So, to my surprise, prior to the start of Navaratri, I became enamored of the world for 10 days or so. My wife and I went to the ocean for several days and I frolicked in the waves. Then we went out to dinner and to several concerts. I suddenly felt that the outside world was pretty interesting. Yet, after each event, each experience, I desired another. Nothing satisfied me, because I evaluated every event against my experience with Maa and the Mandir family. Thus, each event lacked the shakti and effervescence I experience at the Mandir. Yet, even though I realized that these experiences were not taking me towards my goal, Oneness with Maa, I continued to look forward to the next event. I was stuck. The ego was winning. My mind rationalized that I deserved to play and enjoy the world. I had worked hard, and now

it was time to play. Well brothers and sisters, you can imagine what happened next. I was at a concert, and "I" felt totally overwhelmed. Instead of listening to the music, I began to chant Shiva's name, over and over and over. My wife began to feel ill and said we had to leave right away. That saved us. We left and gathered ourselves together in the car and drove home. Next day at the Mandir, Maa asked if I had completed some task She had asked me to perform. I said no, and added rather meekly that I had become overshadowed in the world and could not stay focused on the task She had given me. As quick as can be, She turned away from me, and as She walked away She said: "I cannot accept that from my devotee, I will not accept that from my devotee." Well, you can imagine that I was shocked into TOTAL ATTENTION. I knew without a doubt that She loved me so much She HAD to tell me the TRUTH. She had to

WAKE ME UP. And Her TRUTH has so much power and shakti that it removed the egoistic impulse, and re-enlivened the MAA principle. She reminded me that there is only one TRUE course of action for a devotee: SURRENDER TO THE MASTER. And as my Guru, she was not about to left me get away with any action which took me away from Her. So, I vowed to get back on the straight and narrow path. Since then, I have been focused and attentive to Maa and the observance of Navatri. And I have felt a deep peace. Tonight, after satsung, as Maa left the Temple, She said to me: "Isn't it nice to be a good devotee again?" Dear reader, I just smiled at Her and said: "yes Maa." Jai Maa Jai Swami love vishweshwar

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Dear Vishveshwar,

Thank you for this wonderful posting. I am bogged down by the external

world as well and am getting too involved in it. With Maa's grace, may

my illusion break and my devotion awaken and come to the fore.

 

Thank you once again for this beautiful posting,

 

Jai Maa Jai Swamiji,

 

Prathibha

 

, " inspectionconnection108 "

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>

> Namaste: Since the beginning of the 3 year Chandi Homa January 2005

> at the Mandir, I focused my life around 3 spheres: Mandir / Maa, home,

> and work. I kept this tight focus on my awareness in order to be of

> maximum service to Maa. When an impulse would arise to go to San

> Franscisco to see a concernt, etc., I would dispassionately analyze

> the impulse, and weigh whether it would benefit Maa or me. If it did

> not benefit Maa and the Chandi Homa, I gave it to Maa to remove. And

> She would.

> So, to my surprise, prior to the start of Navaratri, I became enamored

> of the world for 10 days or so. My wife and I went to the ocean for

> several days and I frolicked in the waves. Then we went out to dinner

> and to several concerts. I suddenly felt that the outside world was

> pretty interesting. Yet, after each event, each experience, I desired

> another. Nothing satisfied me, because I evaluated every event

> against my experience with Maa and the Mandir family. Thus, each

> event lacked the shakti and effervescence I experience at the Mandir.

> Yet, even though I realized that these experiences were not taking me

> towards my goal, Oneness with Maa, I continued to look forward to the

> next event.

> I was stuck. The ego was winning. My mind rationalized that I

> deserved to play and enjoy the world. I had worked hard, and now it

> was time to play.

> Well brothers and sisters, you can imagine what happened next. I was

> at a concert, and " I " felt totally overwhelmed. Instead of listening

> to the music, I began to chant Shiva's name, over and over and over.

> My wife began to feel ill and said we had to leave right away. That

> saved us. We left and gathered ourselves together in the car and

> drove home.

> Next day at the Mandir, Maa asked if I had completed some task She had

> asked me to perform. I said no, and added rather meekly that I had

> become overshadowed in the world and could not stay focused on the

> task She had given me.

> As quick as can be, She turned away from me, and as She walked away

> She said: " I cannot accept that from my devotee, I will not accept

> that from my devotee. "

> Well, you can imagine that I was shocked into TOTAL ATTENTION. I knew

> without a doubt that She loved me so much She HAD to tell me the

> TRUTH. She had to WAKE ME UP. And Her TRUTH has so much power and

> shakti that it removed the egoistic impulse, and re-enlivened the MAA

> principle.

> She reminded me that there is only one TRUE course of action for a

> devotee: SURRENDER TO THE MASTER. And as my Guru, she was not about

> to left me get away with any action which took me away from Her.

> So, I vowed to get back on the straight and narrow path. Since then,

> I have been focused and attentive to Maa and the observance of

> Navatri. And I have felt a deep peace.

> Tonight, after satsung, as Maa left the Temple, She said to me:

> " Isn't it nice to be a good devotee again? "

> Dear reader, I just smiled at Her and said: " yes Maa. "

>

> Jai Maa Jai Swami

>

> love

>

> vishweshwar

>