Guest guest Posted April 30, 2008 Report Share Posted April 30, 2008 Vishweshwarji, Thank you so much for your willingness to share the intimacies of your own personal battle. Letting go is the very basis of this work, and it requires a complete dedication to witness every thought, and then to sacrifice each thought, each urge, each conditioned idea and desire to the sacred homa fire that burns eternally within us. To really let go, requires much strength and determination, as well as Grace. I find that there is a real choice at every moment, whether to react, or to let go..react or let go...react or let go. My ego and conditioning always wants to choose to react (being of Italian descent doesn't help much either.. I try to always remember to make myself a big zero, as our Beloved Shree Maa says. I meet with a lot of failure, and have had to also cultivate compassion for my own process, so that I can stand back up, dust myself off and continue ahead. This whole process requires that we unlearn all that we have been taught about ourselves. It is one big process of " undoing " , is it not? We must completely demolish the existing structure, brick by brick, in order to experience the limitless sky which lies behind it. We must become really good at recognizing resistance! Kali! Kali! KaliMaa! Jai Maa!!!! May our resistance melt away, like Ghee at the Homa Fire. May our offered resistance be the fuel for the Divine Fire that transmutes it all! May we all find victory and join in the Eternal Celebration of Light and Love! With Much Love and Peace, Sanatani -------------- Original message ---------------------- " inspectionconnection108 " <inspectionconnection108 > Namaste: tonight in Chandi class, Swami spoke about the goal of > chanting: to witness thoughts and simply observe them as impulses of > nature, and know the reality of Aim Hrim Klim, that it is the nature > of nature to constantly change: change She will and change She must. > But, we, as the Supreme Observer, Shiva, can remain uninvolved as the > thoughts dance on the stage. > As I listened to Swami speak of this supreme goal, a thought arose > which I had been holding onto for the past 24 hours. Due to an error > of judgment on my part, I had caused Swami hardship and he had > corrected me. I could not accept the correction, and tried to > " defend " myself with logic and reason, even though I was wrong. Still > trying to " win " 24 hours later, I suddenly knew that there was > absolutely no reason or need to " win " , and that I was holding > unhealthy energy which was clogging and stifling me. And, I was > keeping Swami at a distance. > In that moment of clarity and Grace, Maa Chandi's shakti chopped the > head off of this major thought, and I was instantly free. Instead of > darkness, clear soothing healing light flowed through me and my heart > opened wide. > Of what use was " winning " if I had to suffer. Why " win " if I kept > Swami from my heart. > Thanks to the healing power of divine love, and the intellectual > understanding of this divine technology of Grace. > > Thanks Maa and Swami, for the thousandath time, for your love, > support, and guidance. > > love > > Jai Ma Jai Swami > > vishweshwar > > Namaste: tonight in Chandi class, Swami spoke about the goal of chanting: to witness thoughts and simply observe them as impulses of nature, and know the reality of Aim Hrim Klim, that it is the nature of nature to constantly change: change She will and change She must. But, we, as the Supreme Observer, Shiva, can remain uninvolved as the thoughts dance on the stage. As I listened to Swami speak of this supreme goal, a thought arose which I had been holding onto for the past 24 hours. Due to an error of judgment on my part, I had caused Swami hardship and he had corrected me. I could not accept the correction, and tried to " defend " myself with logic and reason, even though I was wrong. Still trying to " win " 24 hours later, I suddenly knew that there was absolutely no reason or need to " win " , and that I was holding unhealthy energy which was clogging and stifling me. And, I was keeping Swami at a distance. In that moment of clarity and Grace, Maa Chandi's shakti chopped the head off of this major thought, and I was instantly free. Instead of darkness, clear soothing healing light flowed through me and my heart opened wide. Of what use was " winning " if I had to suffer. Why " win " if I kept Swami from my heart. Thanks to the healing power of divine love, and the intellectual understanding of this divine technology of Grace. Thanks Maa and Swami, for the thousandath time, for your love, support, and guidance. love Jai Ma Jai Swami vishweshwar Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 1, 2008 Report Share Posted May 1, 2008 Namaste' Vish... Thank you for sharing this bit of your personal process with us. It allowed me to think of all the ways I've tried to " win " when it comes to justifying my actions and/or prooving myself in some way. When the truth is that all I really want is to experience love. This is a big lesson that I learned from my son. Once someone was in his heart they were fully entrenched and with no possibility of escape. He was able to nonjudgementally hold them no matter what they did. In using this as a model for my life I have tried to hold this same love and acceptance. The one I find it the biggest challenge to hold in this way is always myself. Perhaps that is really who who are trying to " win " against, that fickle, haughty nature which is always saying me, me, I... Our anger and disappointment we project onto others is really a self-defence mechanism which we are using to protect the Ego and keep us from baring our throats to Maa. Thank Goddess we have this path to understanding so that we are able to recognize these truths about ourselves and achieve the willingness to offer our heads, our lives, and all that we have deluded ourselves into believing we are, to Her sword. JAI MAA OM Shanti Morningsong , " inspectionconnection108 " <inspectionconnection108 wrote: > > Namaste: tonight in Chandi class, Swami spoke about the goal of > chanting: to witness thoughts and simply observe them as impulses of > nature, and know the reality of Aim Hrim Klim, that it is the nature > of nature to constantly change: change She will and change She must. > But, we, as the Supreme Observer, Shiva, can remain uninvolved as the > thoughts dance on the stage. > As I listened to Swami speak of this supreme goal, a thought arose > which I had been holding onto for the past 24 hours. Due to an error > of judgment on my part, I had caused Swami hardship and he had > corrected me. I could not accept the correction, and tried to > " defend " myself with logic and reason, even though I was wrong. Still > trying to " win " 24 hours later, I suddenly knew that there was > absolutely no reason or need to " win " , and that I was holding > unhealthy energy which was clogging and stifling me. And, I was > keeping Swami at a distance. > In that moment of clarity and Grace, Maa Chandi's shakti chopped the > head off of this major thought, and I was instantly free. Instead of > darkness, clear soothing healing light flowed through me and my heart > opened wide. > Of what use was " winning " if I had to suffer. Why " win " if I kept > Swami from my heart. > Thanks to the healing power of divine love, and the intellectual > understanding of this divine technology of Grace. > > Thanks Maa and Swami, for the thousandath time, for your love, > support, and guidance. > > love > > Jai Ma Jai Swami > > vishweshwar > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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