To hold on or let go?

[Guest guest]

Namaste: tonight in Chandi class, Swami spoke about the goal of

chanting: to witness thoughts and simply observe them as impulses of

nature, and know the reality of Aim Hrim Klim, that it is the nature

of nature to constantly change: change She will and change She must.

But, we, as the Supreme Observer, Shiva, can remain uninvolved as the

thoughts dance on the stage.

As I listened to Swami speak of this supreme goal, a thought arose

which I had been holding onto for the past 24 hours. Due to an error

of judgment on my part, I had caused Swami hardship and he had

corrected me. I could not accept the correction, and tried to

" defend " myself with logic and reason, even though I was wrong. Still

trying to " win " 24 hours later, I suddenly knew that there was

absolutely no reason or need to " win " , and that I was holding

unhealthy energy which was clogging and stifling me. And, I was

keeping Swami at a distance.

In that moment of clarity and Grace, Maa Chandi's shakti chopped the

head off of this major thought, and I was instantly free. Instead of

darkness, clear soothing healing light flowed through me and my heart

opened wide.

Of what use was " winning " if I had to suffer. Why " win " if I kept

Swami from my heart.

Thanks to the healing power of divine love, and the intellectual

understanding of this divine technology of Grace.

 

Thanks Maa and Swami, for the thousandath time, for your love,

support, and guidance.

 

love

 

Jai Ma Jai Swami

 

vishweshwar