to Henney about sankalpafobia

[Guest guest]

Henny wrote:

I even developed a sankalpafobia for a while. But all this has taught me something about sankalpas: they are not so much something we invented for God, but something God invented for us...Like you, I believe Mother loves us all always anyway...we are not trying to manipulate Mummy into giving us things we want by showing off, but rather, because we are just doing what She asks us to do because we trust Her, we find we get everything we need and more, even when we ourselves think we have failed...

Dear Henny ~ you have been an inspiration to me from the day you first showed up on the digest. In fact, your devotion and practice were so beautiful to "see" unfold, and your questions always went straight to the heart of the matter ... as do your comments and responses to questions from Maa and Swamiji. I believe I have also had a sankalphobia due to my difficulty in keeping up. In fact, at the end of the year that we did the 9 Planet sankalpa, for reasons related to chaos in my life and because I was becoming more ill, I didn't not finish out the year. I nearly cried when I got the beautiful T-shirt from Maa. I felt I didn't deserve it, and I've never been able to wear it. But I realize now that in disowning the gift, I am, in a sense not trusting Maa's unconditional love. So guess I'll find it and put it on.

 

And I would add that perhaps it goes beyond success/failure as you indicate above, but that we were always already home. (click heels three times...) Jai Maa ~ LindaGet the scoop on last night's hottest shows and the live music scene in your area - Check out TourTracker.com!

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Dear Linda,

 

thank you for your kind words. I remember someone said here once that

the first year of practice is easy, then it gets difficult:)

Fortunately, we are all in this together and we are guided and

inspired by Maa and Swamiji no matter what.

Wear your t-shirt, think of it as the Armor of the Goddess,

 

with love,

Henny

 

 

, nierika wrote:

>

>

> Henny wrote:

>

> I even developed a sankalpafobia for a

> while. But all this has taught me something about sankalpas: they

are

> not so much something we invented for God, but something God

invented

> for us...

> Like you, I believe Mother loves us all always anyway...we are not

trying to

> manipulate Mummy into giving us things we want

> by showing off, but rather, because we are just doing what She

asks

> us to do because we trust Her, we find we get everything we need

and

> more, even when we ourselves think we have failed...

>

>

> Dear Henny ~ you have been an inspiration to me from the day you

first

> showed up on the digest. In fact, your devotion and practice were

so beautiful to

> " see " unfold, and your questions always went straight to the heart

of the

> matter ... as do your comments and responses to questions from Maa

and Swamiji.

> I believe I have also had a sankalphobia due to my difficulty in

keeping up.

> In fact, at the end of the year that we did the 9 Planet sankalpa,

for reasons

> related to chaos in my life and because I was becoming more ill, I

didn't

> not finish out the year. I nearly cried when I got the beautiful T-

shirt from

> Maa. I felt I didn't deserve it, and I've never been able to wear

it. But I

> realize now that in disowning the gift, I am, in a sense not

trusting Maa's

> unconditional love. So guess I'll find it and put it on.

>

> And I would add that perhaps it goes beyond success/failure as you

indicate

> above, but that we were always already home. (click heels three

times...) Jai

> Maa ~ Linda

>

>

>

> **************Get the scoop on last night's hottest shows and the

live music

> scene in your area - Check out TourTracker.com!

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