Urgent prayer request from Kamala in Amritapuri

[Guest guest]

Dearest AnniJi:

 

Sweetest flower of the universe we are all praying for you,loving you, holding

you, cleansing you in the loveing light of our Mother Amma. Anni...your poem is

beautiful beyond compare. We as your family in LOVE know you are safe in

Mother's healing presence. We all feel sincere gratitude to Sri Mata

Amritananda. The blissfullness is washing over you, cleansing you, bringing you

peace we know only love brings. Anni we pray, chant and hold you deep inside of

our hearts.

 

Namaha Anni, Namaha Anni, Namaha Anni

 

Shanti Shanti Shanti Kamala Dear

 

Aum Namah Shivaya

Prem Prem Prem Anni

vaishnavi

 

Mike Montoya <dustygain wrote:

This message just reached me forwarded from Gunavati:

 

Dearest dearest beloved friends and family.

 

I don't know how to say this. We need your prayers and light for

our beautiful Anni. It's a long story, I can't make it short, but I

have to. That's why I'm forwarding this to all of you at once. We

urgently need all of you to hold Anni in your minds and hearts, and

KNOW that she is perfectly well. Please pray for Her.

 

Now the story. Anni has not been well for some time. We noticed it,

and thought it was due to numerous things. Why was she getting so skinny?

Drink your milk, Anni! Eat more! Her colds didn't go away. She

didn't want to help so much with things, Was tired. Why are you so

unwilling?

Dammit! Then in Dec. her back went out. She was so pale. Eat iron,

Anni, more Iron, Dammit! Take vitamins! She tried Yoga. Just keep

up the yoga.

If you stop it will hurt, Why aren't you doing the Yoga! Then Her

lungs began to hurt. We started tests for TB. It was at this point,

that I let myself know there was something really wrong with Her.

No TB was found, it seemed there was a plurile infection. Then, it

didn't respond to all the medication. The lung pain came back in one

day. Then, we went again, finally to the Dr. who wanted her to go to

AIMS for TB tests. We went to get Amma's blessing, I said, She is

sick. Amma said test her for TB and pneumonia, make sure they did a

new chest xray at AIMS.

 

We went up to AIMS on feb. 18. 19th, registration. X rays. Blood

tests. A very astute Dr. Darshana, saw nodules in her lungs and with

sagacity, said, to me that she was sure it was TB, but wanted a CT

scan of her Chest.

We scurried around doing that, Anni not feeling well. Then the Dr,

found a growth in Her upper abdomen. At this point, it was 5:30 PM ,

we had been rushing around from 8AM from one counter, lab, etc.

 

The Dr. looked at me in a way that chilled my heart and bones. Said

there was a growth on Her kidney that had spread into her lungs, that

I should go to urology, and meet Dr. Sanjay Bhatt. She called him.

we got there, Dr. Sanjay, another, very nice and helpful person, also

looked at me dead serious, and said, Didn't Dr. Darshana tell you what

is happening?

There is a tumor on her kidney, it has spread to Her lungs. He wanted

us to take CT Scan on Abdomen. She had to drink litres of horrible

liquids…and bone scan. This we did on 20th. People were very nice,

but, if we didn't have a paid receipt, no test would be done.

Thankfully, my bank, one of the few compurterized smaller banks, has

a branch there. Thankfully, it was open for withdrawals at each

juncture. The bone scan was horrible.

She was injected with Gamma radiation. Had to drink a lot and was told

not to let her urine touch her skin. At then end of Feb. 20th, she

looked like a tire with multiple punctures.

 

At the end of that day the 20th, everybody looking dead serious at

us, we had a meeting with Dr. Sanjay. I can't go through the whole

meeting here. Anni has a horrible cancer that has already metastasis

- I don't know what word is, means it has spread into all her bones,

her lungs are full also. There is a nasty tumor. They said it was on

top of the kidney.

My mind didn't understand until yesterday that on top doesn't mean

sitting on top. It made itself out of her right or is it left, I'm

totally confused from the pictures…blasted ugly thing it is…its made

her kidney blood vessels almost as big as her aorta, its taking so

much blood….

 

The only solution they had was to take out her entire kidney and

begin immuno and chemo, but, the Dr. told us to think about it first.

 

In the midst of all this, on 19th night, our magical Amma called us

at the hospital. Amma was crying. She called my name, Kamala,

Kamala Kamala…. She said to Anni, After calling her name, Anni, Anni,

Anni….So your sick…. That we should listen carefully to what the Dr.

was saying…

 

So, I heard, actually what the Dr.'s are saying. They do not think

from their standpoint, that there is much hope at all. They basically

said, there is nothing they can do at this point,,,,the operations

would be heroic measures in what they see as an already gone case,

its already through her skeleton…In a way, I felt massively relieved.

For this means that we are only on the Grace of God through Amma,

which for us is the safest place to be. If we can learn. We came back

to the ashram. Everybody at the hospital was exceptionally kind to

us. The director, Dr. Prem Nair met me, and said, there is not much

we can do here, but Amma's grace is there for you…he arranged a

comfortable car for the long drive back to the ashram. In

the car, about ½ hour before reaching the ashram late at night,

somehow, it entered my skull, a story Amma had told in satsang a week

ago, where A man had been diagnosed with cancer, and two months to

live, and came back to his house…knowing he only had two months, he

began to love everybody and poured love out on everything. In two

months his cancer was completely gone. This idea filled me. We have

to become positive. My small family has nursed some grievances and

hurts. We haven't let go of these things, we have held onto

them…freezing the water between us… the swami's and our hurts from

their behaviors to us, the people who have hit us, insulted or hurt

us…so many little antagonisms after so many years…never mind the stuff

before with the divorce, family, etc., etc., etc. I find I knew only

how to make a narrow prison of my heart, not an ocean of love…

 

Amma has repeatedly said, love can heal anything…She has said the lost

balance in nature will be automatically and spontaneiously restored if

the vast majority of people can acknowledge and love their Maker in

each other and all creation.

 

We have nothing left. We have to try. I invite you with my whole and

full heart to join us in loving us, being loved by us, in knowing our

precious and beautiful Anni is healed in that love

 

We went to Amma, and as, ever, the things deepest in the heart came

out. She was very sad, and hugged Anni for long, weeping lots…I could

only cry and cry – Change us! Change us! Change us! Change us!

Change us! Change me! Make us become Love! Make us your true disciples!

 

Well, its just amazing. Yesterday was an amazing and awesome day.

The word that Anni is having this terrible cancer spread like

wildfire…we told people coming to the room that we wanted all those

who we have had hurts with to come…Amritatmananda came, ( years ago,

remember the emails of anger about him?) Bombay Acchan who we have

had tremendous Dog fights with – people who had hit Lincoln in the

mobbing…so many people….we welcomed them all, with great love and joy

and foregiveness. Anni sat up on her cushions looking radiant and

full of light…so much community healing took place…people everywhere

are praying for Her, doing archanas for her, there are events going on

all over for Her health and healing…yesterday there was a non stop

stream of people till 10PM coming and loving….We have all ladies put

their hands on her, with her head and back aches, She wants to be

petted and stroked a lot...….I want her to get all the positive loving

energy from everyone….The ashram has literally become turned around.

Everyone is being more loving to everyone…everyone is united in

wanting to see Anni healed and well…and its thousands of people…

 

Last night I `saw' . the top layers of the big tumor being burnt off

in a firery red light of love…

 

We have far to go. We have to burst all the petty boundaries of our

hearts, embracing all with love, and we need your love, deepest heart

felt love for Anni, for us to continue this transformative and blessed

change…we need to change and become love. AT this time, I see that

all the principles I have been studying with Gandhi and Amma now need

to come into practice deeply…

 

Anni has made a sweet song, I hope we will be able to record it, and

send it out as a sound file to you – the first verse:

 

Green grass, Blue sky, in this beautiful world

One Lord, one Love has created it so

Can't we love each other

Fill this place with harmony

One time, everywhere

Lets try! may it happen today!

Green grass, Blue sky…..

 

Please hold Anni in your hearts. Pray however you pray to our Maker,

to make her body clean and clear…to transform us into the conciousness

of Love, forgiveness, intense love for all…

 

Nothing else matters, that we all become this, I know that it is

true….Death is always our greatest teacher…I remember when my father

was passing…the last few days, he called me, and the only thing that

mattered for him or me, was that the flow of love between us should be

unblocked, free, full….nothing else mattered…we forgave ourselves

everything…..It is unfortunate that it takes such a tremendous crisis

for us all to wfor us, we are striving to do three things: to think

of Amma in every step we take.

To seek to please Amma in all our thoughts and actions, to bow down

in our minds to every thing and everyone, the plate of food we eat

from the shower we bathe in, the clothes we wear, each other, the

ground we walk on, the pen we use, the computer, the screen - Amma

has said that by doing so, the question will arise in the mind, to

whom, to what am I bowing, and the answer will be felt within us…we

need your prayers to transform ourselves totally and entirely…

 

For a mother, her children are always God….

 

Please give us your love, and let us love you…If we have every hurt or

offended you in anyway, please forgive us…let us all become love

together, by Her Divine Grace…..

 

In Love, Kamala Anni and Link

 

 

 

 

 

 

Whatever merit is acquired by one, through pilgrimmages and from bathing in the

Sacred Waters extending to the seven seas, cannot be equal to even one

thousandth part of the merit derived from partaking the water with the Guru's

Feet are washed.

 

Guru Gita

Verses 157, 87

 

At Her Perfect Lotus Feet

Vaishnavi

 

 

 

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May Amma's grace continue to shower on Anni.

 

Ammachi , " Mike Montoya " <dustygain wrote:

>

> This message just reached me forwarded from Gunavati:

>

> Dearest dearest beloved friends and family.

>

> I don't know how to say this. We need your prayers and light for

> our beautiful Anni. It's a long story, I can't make it short,

but I

> have to. That's why I'm forwarding this to all of you at once. We

> urgently need all of you to hold Anni in your minds and hearts, and

> KNOW that she is perfectly well. Please pray for Her.

>

> Now the story. Anni has not been well for some time. We noticed

it,

> and thought it was due to numerous things. Why was she getting so

skinny?

> Drink your milk, Anni! Eat more! Her colds didn't go away. She

> didn't want to help so much with things, Was tired. Why are you

so

> unwilling?

> Dammit! Then in Dec. her back went out. She was so pale. Eat

iron,

> Anni, more Iron, Dammit! Take vitamins! She tried Yoga. Just

keep

> up the yoga.

> If you stop it will hurt, Why aren't you doing the Yoga! Then Her

> lungs began to hurt. We started tests for TB. It was at this

point,

> that I let myself know there was something really wrong with

Her.

> No TB was found, it seemed there was a plurile infection. Then, it

> didn't respond to all the medication. The lung pain came back in

one

> day. Then, we went again, finally to the Dr. who wanted her to go

to

> AIMS for TB tests. We went to get Amma's blessing, I said, She

is

> sick. Amma said test her for TB and pneumonia, make sure they did a

> new chest xray at AIMS.

>

> We went up to AIMS on feb. 18. 19th, registration. X rays.

Blood

> tests. A very astute Dr. Darshana, saw nodules in her lungs and

with

> sagacity, said, to me that she was sure it was TB, but wanted a CT

> scan of her Chest.

> We scurried around doing that, Anni not feeling well. Then the

Dr,

> found a growth in Her upper abdomen. At this point, it was 5:30

PM ,

> we had been rushing around from 8AM from one counter, lab, etc.

>

> The Dr. looked at me in a way that chilled my heart and bones.

Said

> there was a growth on Her kidney that had spread into her lungs,

that

> I should go to urology, and meet Dr. Sanjay Bhatt. She called

him.

> we got there, Dr. Sanjay, another, very nice and helpful person,

also

> looked at me dead serious, and said, Didn't Dr. Darshana tell you

what

> is happening?

> There is a tumor on her kidney, it has spread to Her lungs. He

wanted

> us to take CT Scan on Abdomen. She had to drink litres of

horrible

> liquids…and bone scan. This we did on 20th. People were very

nice,

> but, if we didn't have a paid receipt, no test would be done.

> Thankfully, my bank, one of the few compurterized smaller banks,

has

> a branch there. Thankfully, it was open for withdrawals at each

> juncture. The bone scan was horrible.

> She was injected with Gamma radiation. Had to drink a lot and was

told

> not to let her urine touch her skin. At then end of Feb. 20th, she

> looked like a tire with multiple punctures.

>

> At the end of that day the 20th, everybody looking dead serious at

> us, we had a meeting with Dr. Sanjay. I can't go through the

whole

> meeting here. Anni has a horrible cancer that has already

metastasis

> - I don't know what word is, means it has spread into all her

bones,

> her lungs are full also. There is a nasty tumor. They said it

was on

> top of the kidney.

> My mind didn't understand until yesterday that on top doesn't mean

> sitting on top. It made itself out of her right or is it left, I'm

> totally confused from the pictures…blasted ugly thing it is…its

made

> her kidney blood vessels almost as big as her aorta, its taking so

> much blood….

>

> The only solution they had was to take out her entire kidney and

> begin immuno and chemo, but, the Dr. told us to think about it

first.

>

> In the midst of all this, on 19th night, our magical Amma called us

> at the hospital. Amma was crying. She called my name, Kamala,

> Kamala Kamala…. She said to Anni, After calling her name, Anni,

Anni,

> Anni….So your sick…. That we should listen carefully to what the

Dr.

> was saying…

>

> So, I heard, actually what the Dr.'s are saying. They do not

think

> from their standpoint, that there is much hope at all. They

basically

> said, there is nothing they can do at this point,,,,the operations

> would be heroic measures in what they see as an already gone case,

> its already through her skeleton…In a way, I felt massively

relieved.

> For this means that we are only on the Grace of God through Amma,

> which for us is the safest place to be. If we can learn. We came

back

> to the ashram. Everybody at the hospital was exceptionally kind

to

> us. The director, Dr. Prem Nair met me, and said, there is not

much

> we can do here, but Amma's grace is there for you…he arranged a

> comfortable car for the long drive back to the ashram. In

> the car, about ½ hour before reaching the ashram late at night,

> somehow, it entered my skull, a story Amma had told in satsang a

week

> ago, where A man had been diagnosed with cancer, and two months to

> live, and came back to his house…knowing he only had two months, he

> began to love everybody and poured love out on everything. In two

> months his cancer was completely gone. This idea filled me. We

have

> to become positive. My small family has nursed some grievances and

> hurts. We haven't let go of these things, we have held onto

> them…freezing the water between us… the swami's and our hurts from

> their behaviors to us, the people who have hit us, insulted or

hurt

> us…so many little antagonisms after so many years…never mind the

stuff

> before with the divorce, family, etc., etc., etc. I find I knew

only

> how to make a narrow prison of my heart, not an ocean of love…

>

> Amma has repeatedly said, love can heal anything…She has said the

lost

> balance in nature will be automatically and spontaneiously

restored if

> the vast majority of people can acknowledge and love their Maker in

> each other and all creation.

>

> We have nothing left. We have to try. I invite you with my whole

and

> full heart to join us in loving us, being loved by us, in knowing

our

> precious and beautiful Anni is healed in that love

>

> We went to Amma, and as, ever, the things deepest in the heart came

> out. She was very sad, and hugged Anni for long, weeping lots…I

could

> only cry and cry – Change us! Change us! Change us! Change us!

> Change us! Change me! Make us become Love! Make us your true

disciples!

>

> Well, its just amazing. Yesterday was an amazing and awesome day.

> The word that Anni is having this terrible cancer spread like

> wildfire…we told people coming to the room that we wanted all those

> who we have had hurts with to come…Amritatmananda came, ( years

ago,

> remember the emails of anger about him?) Bombay Acchan who we have

> had tremendous Dog fights with – people who had hit Lincoln in the

> mobbing…so many people….we welcomed them all, with great love and

joy

> and foregiveness. Anni sat up on her cushions looking radiant and

> full of light…so much community healing took place…people

everywhere

> are praying for Her, doing archanas for her, there are events

going on

> all over for Her health and healing…yesterday there was a non stop

> stream of people till 10PM coming and loving….We have all ladies

put

> their hands on her, with her head and back aches, She wants to be

> petted and stroked a lot...….I want her to get all the positive

loving

> energy from everyone….The ashram has literally become turned

around.

> Everyone is being more loving to everyone…everyone is united in

> wanting to see Anni healed and well…and its thousands of people…

>

> Last night I `saw' . the top layers of the big tumor being burnt

off

> in a firery red light of love…

>

> We have far to go. We have to burst all the petty boundaries of

our

> hearts, embracing all with love, and we need your love, deepest

heart

> felt love for Anni, for us to continue this transformative and

blessed

> change…we need to change and become love. AT this time, I see

that

> all the principles I have been studying with Gandhi and Amma now

need

> to come into practice deeply…

>

> Anni has made a sweet song, I hope we will be able to record it,

and

> send it out as a sound file to you – the first verse:

>

> Green grass, Blue sky, in this beautiful world

> One Lord, one Love has created it so

> Can't we love each other

> Fill this place with harmony

> One time, everywhere

> Lets try! may it happen today!

> Green grass, Blue sky…..

>

> Please hold Anni in your hearts. Pray however you pray to our

Maker,

> to make her body clean and clear…to transform us into the

conciousness

> of Love, forgiveness, intense love for all…

>

> Nothing else matters, that we all become this, I know that it is

> true….Death is always our greatest teacher…I remember when my

father

> was passing…the last few days, he called me, and the only thing

that

> mattered for him or me, was that the flow of love between us

should be

> unblocked, free, full….nothing else mattered…we forgave ourselves

> everything…..It is unfortunate that it takes such a tremendous

crisis

> for us all to wfor us, we are striving to do three things: to

think

> of Amma in every step we take.

> To seek to please Amma in all our thoughts and actions, to bow

down

> in our minds to every thing and everyone, the plate of food we eat

> from the shower we bathe in, the clothes we wear, each other, the

> ground we walk on, the pen we use, the computer, the screen - Amma

> has said that by doing so, the question will arise in the mind, to

> whom, to what am I bowing, and the answer will be felt within us…we

> need your prayers to transform ourselves totally and entirely…

>

> For a mother, her children are always God….

>

> Please give us your love, and let us love you…If we have every

hurt or

> offended you in anyway, please forgive us…let us all become love

> together, by Her Divine Grace…..

>

> In Love, Kamala Anni and Link

>