His Mysterious Ways By R. Subbulakshmi

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His Mysterious Ways

 

By R. Subbulakshmi

 

In December 1984, I had a problem in my uterus and underwent a major surgery

in abdomen in January 1985. After the operation, I grew weak as I am past

fifty. I needed help for everything, even to turn over or sit up in bed. It

was very discouraging. One day feeling utterly helpless. I complained to my

Sai-half, Sri R. Radhakrishnan: " Why do I keep on living? What good am I? I

am just a nuisance. I can't do anything for anyone " .

 

He was preparing himself to go to Shirdi for participating in the Sai Leela

meet scheduled for 27th and 28th Jan, 1985. He answered with a smile: " Oh " I

don't know about it. I think there is something you can do. You can pray to

Lord Sainath for the sake of others " . What a good medicine that was. There,

flat on my back, I began to pray for my fellow-patients, for the doctors and

nurses, for Sai-bandhus, for any one who came to mind. And as I did, I found

I was moping less, and focusing more on the world outside. Without knowing

it, I was getting out of myself, out into the world -if only in spirit. And

eventually I was there physically too.

 

In fact, my health improved, so much, so that a year later, I could

accompany my husband to Shirdi in February 1986 for the annual Gathering of

Sai Leela Contributors and later and to Vijayawada to participate in the

Akhanda Sai-Nama Saptaham. Today I am living at home, and I am able to take

care of myself, but I am still following that excellent prescription for

feeling useful.

 

 

Source

http://www.saileelas.org/magazines/saipadananda/july1988.htm