His Mysterious Ways By R. Subbulakshmi

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His Mysterious Ways

By R. Subbulakshmi

In

December 1984, I had a problem in my uterus and underwent a major surgery in

abdomen in January 1985. After the operation, I grew weak as I am past fifty. I

needed help for everything, even to turn over or sit up in bed. It was very

discouraging. One day feeling utterly helpless. I complained to my Sai-half, Sri R. Radhakrishnan:

" Why do I keep on living? What good am I? I am just a nuisance. I can't do

anything for anyone " .

 

He was

preparing himself to go to Shirdi for participating

in the Sai Leela meet

scheduled for 27th and 28th Jan, 1985. He answered with a smile: " Oh " I

don't know about it. I think there is something you can do. You can pray to Lord

Sainath for the sake of others " . What a good

medicine that was. There, flat on my back, I began to pray for my

fellow-patients, for the doctors and nurses, for Sai-bandhus,

for any one who came to mind. And as I did, I found I was moping less, and focusing

more on the world outside. Without knowing it, I was getting out of myself, out

into the world -if only in spirit. And eventually I was there physically too.

 

In

fact, my health improved, so much, so that a year later, I could accompany my

husband to Shirdi in February 1986 for the annual

Gathering of Sai Leela

Contributors and later and to Vijayawada to participate in the Akhanda

Sai-Nama Saptaham. Today I

am living at home, and I am able to take care of myself, but I am still

following that excellent prescription for feeling useful.

(Source Sai

Padananda)