My Experiences With My Beloved Lord Sri SAI - By Dr.Roja Dsuza

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My Experiences With My Beloved Lord SAI I offer this little innocent writing of mine along with my humble salutations and love at His divine Lotus feet in order to transform myself into divine being and spread His message of Love to the world with His grace. Trusting Him with no trace of doubt is the only boon of my life. My Lord! I now understood the process of moving from darkness to Light; changing from immorality to Immortality; shedding untruth only to lead to Truth. A heart when filled with the perfume of transformation, experiences the great feeling of reaching the peak of the mountain. I now have the same feeling of achieving my life’s goal in the process of making my life

worthy at your Lotus feet. Let your feet crush my ego; let your heart soften my rock-strewn heart and let your words transform my mind. I am a little instrument in your hand of Divinity spreading your love to the world.OM SAI RAMKnowing who Sathya Sai Baba is but not realizing He is God, proves one has not yet stepped on to the path of Ultimate spiritual Goal of Universal Divine Love. Narrating experiences of Sai which lead this little life on to the path of reality and spirituality are all that this effort is about. These episodes relate the transformation from the stage of a ‘Non believer’ to a stage of ‘Blind, unwavering Faith.’ I took it as a challenge not out of devotion but out of a feeling that I should not lose and that I should acquire a seat in that college as said by my brother-in-law. I immediately asked Baba to give me a seat if I needed to believe him as the incarnation of God. I filled in and sent the

application to Prashanti nilayam, Puttaparthi. After a few days, I received a Call letter from the institute stating that I should attend the entrance exam (admission test) on a particular date. I felt little relieved as I felt half the job was done. As if not to let me in peace for long, my intermediate exams were postponed due to some political issues in Andhra Pradesh. The dates of my intermediate exams and that of the admission test were clashing as if it was all pre-planned. I was so upset and so mailed a letter to the authorities in Prashanthi Nilayam informing them the above situation. But I surely lost all my hopes. I again received a letter from Prashantinilayam stating that the admission test was also postponed due to the above reason and that I could attend the test which was rescheduled. I was overjoyed as my +2 exams would be finished by then.The day of my entrance exam was approaching and my intensified prayers to Baba were

rising to the peak thus-“Baba, if you are really God, you will know how much I yearn for a seat in your Institute. If you are all knowing, you will make it happen. I don’t know how you are going to make it, but please do it. If I don’t get a seat there, it means I need not believe you to be all knowing.†I prepared for the entrance exam not having sufficient time for preparation after completion of my +2 exams. The precious day had arrived leading me to the divine land of Puttaparthy which I didn’t then realize. I went to Puttaparthi for the first time in my life with my brother Ramesh and sister-in-law. Baba wasn’t there. He was in Brindavan(Bangalore). The night just before the admission test, I happened to know that the question pattern I was preparing was quite different from the actual pattern. I met one of the students in the motel I was staying who was also attending the same entrance exam. I was perplexed, ashamed and

didn’t know what to do. I had absolutely no time to give a new start of preparation at that hour of previous night. That night, I slept without sleep; I was dumb without any peace or stillness at heart. The Sun arose as if it was threatening me to face the consequences. I had nothing to do except to pray to Baba to give His blessings before I gave the test. I stepped out of my motel and then came across a small boy with some pictures in hand. He was actually selling them and he came right in front of me. I suddenly stopped and the picture he showed me to sell was one of Baba’s pictures. The top most picture was Baba’s blessing picture and the bottom lines read thus-“WHY FEAR WHEN I AM HERE?†I was thrilled and overjoyed that a first drop of tear of joy for Baba ran down my cheek. I felt Baba was in fact blessing me. Assuming it to be a good omen, I started off for the entrance test with lots of confidence at heart

though not at mind. The test was conducted at Baba’s Primary school. It was a divine environment which I never imagined it to be. It was as if I was stepping on to the land of an ancient Ashram.As I imagined it to be, the question pattern was completely different and somehow I managed to complete my exam. I did well in all the chosen subjects except one of the papers. The Interview for the students who succeeded in the entrance exam was conducted the next day and I was the last victim to become THE focus in the interview room.That was my first ever interview in my life and I was really tensed when I went in. There were so many people against my imagination. They were really cool and didn’t let me off the place any time though they had that necessity. I prepared well for the interview, especially updated myself with the political side. When I was asked who the President of India was, it was then I realized my mind just went blank with

no answer for a well prepared and the most common sense question. I was ashamed but not them. They asked me many more as I was the last one to be interviewed and I could answer all the questions to my heart’s content and theirs too but I had the guilt of not answering the foremost question. They were also shocked as to why the answer didn’t strike me while the answer for the then current Election commissioner struck me so well. I was even asked as to why I wanted to join in that Institute and one of my answers was student-teacher relationship being good. They gave me a pleasant smile and asked me to wait for the results.I was so eager that I couldn’t wait any longer till I got my results. I was going on begging Baba not to disappoint me but rather bless me with a seat. The night before my result was announced, I for the first time dreamt of Baba where he was overtaking me in His red car. I didn’t know what it meant but I took it as His

blessing. May be it meant he overtook my doubts, suspicions, my negativity and knowledge. I woke up in the morning and my heart was filled with a ‘never felt before feeling’ which was very divine. My brother kept teasing me for fun from the day of my interview saying, “come on, pack your things, we can go home†meaning I wouldn’t get seat there as I couldn’t answer such an easy and common sense question. I had my breakfast and came out where in I found a big crowd at the wall of the canteen looking for their results.I realized my fate was hung at the wall and I was tensed and anxious to check out mine. I was there at last eagerly staring at the board. That very moment changed my whole life. I was really amazed to see my name and number on the result page. I was overjoyed and let me tell you, I was not shouting like we do in normal excited situations. When the heart is full, the tongue gets tightened. So was I. I was literally in

tears of joy and success and thanked Baba for proving His divinity to this little ignorant creature. With thankfulness, excitement and tears of joy, I was walking forward and my brother was coming in the opposite direction after his break-fast. Seeing tears in my eyes he thought his joke proved to be a reality. He was worried a bit and asked, “didn’t you get a seat?†I then answered in the affirmative and I let all of my tears easily roll down with no breaks. I packed my luggage. I didn’t know we had to wear saris and so went to Puttaparthi unprepared. So I had to buy Saris immediately as they (Indian traditional outfit ) were to be worn by the college girl students of Anantapur campus. We did shop a little and started off in a bus to Anantapur where the ‘Sathya Sai Institute of Higher Learning’ for women was located and which was approximately 3 hours away from Puttaparthi.My next episode on 'My journey from Shirdi

To Puttaparthi"Thanks a lot to all Sai RamAs Sri.Swamy Mahadevanji - one of the Senior Members of Sri Sathya Sai Central Trust, Puttaparthi requested me to quote my experiences as Sathya Sai's student, and also requested to me to join the divine temple, today on this precious day being Vishu & Tamil New Year Day, I started off on my sojourn of narrating my life as a Sai student in this /forum Site & also Group and Sai Groups in thro Sri.Swamy MahadevanjiI hope readers will have a positive heart and mind to accept this humble offering of mine. I offer my humble salutations at the divine feet of my Beloved Lord Sri Sathya Sai Baba Sai RamDr.Pooja DsuzaPuttaparthi - 515

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