dreams and reality (2)

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It started happening again while I am in the ashram. I started waking up

from my bed during the deep sleep, usually shouting on something. My

roommate Ramakrishna felt quite uncomfortable because of this behavior. He

complained to the elders in the ashram, they gave me a separate kutia to

stay. That was in Kotappakonda.

 

In the year 1999, I don't really remembered when exactly it started

happening but I started getting immense pain in my head. The headache was

so severe some times I thought my head will breakdown. One time the

headache was there for almost 2 days. I was lying on the hard rock and I

couldn't eat or take care of myself. I was alone in the entire ashram,

because the ashram was completely destroyed due to a severe cyclone.

Nothing except the board of Chinmayaranyam remained. I was staying alone in

the entire ashram planing to help rebuilding. It was a horrible time of my

life. Gradually the headache came down.

 

Later days the headache used to stay only for a few minutes. When ever I go

to bed after a headache, I used to wakeup shouting. Often I wake up and

find myself in the middle of the room, unable to grasp why I am standing in

the middle of the room. I realized that I started waking up from the sleep

again. This time it was a different situation, I could wake up in the

middle of the event, finding myself at strange places. Fortunately, for

some reason, I never went out of my kutia during that time. At least, no one

complained of any such.

 

I moved to Hyderabad. I was staying with my friend Prakash. He observed

that I wakeup some times shouting or talking. He was sympathetic. He asked

me to find out why I am behaving like that. I remembered Sri

Raghavanarayana Sastrygaru, the advise he gave me " dreams take you near to

your reality " .... I started witnessing strange things in dreams. Some

horrible events which I could not explain. Lot of events that are supposed

to happen, were witnessed by me in my dreams. I got confused. It is

horrifying to know that a nightmare could turn to reality.

 

Though I often meet saintly people, I never discuss about my personal things

with them except to my teacher. For, I believed that they know what is

happening and they will let me know if anything is required. I always felt

that there is no need to tell when they know everything! Then I was told I

have mistaken. Thanks again to Sri Mahaganapati, he advised me to go and

talk to my teacher. I moved to Bombay. I started believing that I could see

some events that are going to happen in my dreams, only in Bombay. While I

was in Hyderabad I never got a chance to validate my dreams.

 

One day, I saw that I was sitting in the back of a Silver color TataEstate

car. In the front seat Sri Murari Bapu was sitting and we were going to

some place. I heard of Murari Bapu as a saint, who gives talks on Ramayan.

I also heard that millions of people attend to listen his talks. Hence, I

know that it is an impossible thing to imagine, that too traveling in the

same car, with such a highly adored saint! But then it happened. One day,

Dr. Shah has called me and told me that he bought a brand new TataEstate

Car. I congratulated him. Then he said that he is going to visit Murari

Bapu and seek his blessings by asking him to travel in the car. He told me

that he would be more than happy if I could join them. I am always ready to

visit any saint. I felt more than happy and readily accepted the

invitation. I went to their home and Nainaamma has shown me the brand new

car. For my surprise it was in Silver Color. Now, I know what is going to

happen next. We went to Newbombay where Sri MurariBapu was giving talks on

Ramayan. It was the first time that I met him. Sri Shah has introduced me

to Bapu. Babu gave a pleasant smile, he doesn't talk before giving the

lecture. We approached him just before he was going to give lecture. Mr

Shah asked him to travel in his new car. Murari Bapu accepted. I sat in

the rear seat and Murari Bapu sat in the front seat.... That was a

pleasant dream turned reality.

 

Life has got good aspects and bad aspects. It is after all life, we have to

live through it. There are good things which happen and there are bad

things also do happen. One night I saw a horrible dream. I saw that a

white color Ambassador car approaching our Kotappakonda Ashram. Two people

descending the car and entering the ashram in the middle of the night, with

knifes and baseball bats in their hands. I saw that they were beating the

people living in the ashram and looting everybody. I also saw that one of

the brahmacharis being beaten blue. After a gap I saw that the robbers

being caught by police... I woke up horrified. In the morning I received a

call from Narasaraopet, because kotappakonda ashram was not having a phone.

It was Swamini Nirmalananda on phone. She told me that robbers have

attacked the ashram. I kept quite, but I realized how horrible it is to

know the events going to happen in future. But of course I told her that

police are going to catch the robbers in a few days. She asked me on how do

I know. I told her I that know. She kept quite.

 

I determined to get rid of these dream experiences only after the Bangalore

incident. I was working for a company which is having a branch office in

Bangalore. Since I am working as a Head Analysis, I need to be constantly

in touch with our Bangalore processing team which consists of total seven

people. They were all quite friendly. I can still recollect their names

Vina, Sonia, Chakradhar. One night I saw them going on a road in a van and

all of a sudden a big oil tanker came in front of the van and smashed the

van. The van was crippled and all the people got killed. I woke up again

with a very severe headache. After having a glass of water, I determined

that this is going to happen. And I wanted to stop that. I did not realize

that witnessing events need not necessarily give you the power of stopping

them. I called up our office to find out that our Director left to

Bangalore, early in the morning flight. I called our secretary Hemalatha.

She asked me " Madhav! kAy jhalO! " . I told her that some thing is really

bad. By afternoon we all came to know the news. That there was a horrible

accident. It was a weekend and all the Bangalore office was going for a

picnic. A drunk driver drove his oil tanker recklessly and caused the

accident. All the people in the van died.

 

I could not digest this fact and I applied for immediate leave and rushed

to find solace in the presence of my guru. I told my guru what is

happening. She reminded me the sloka of BhagawadGita 15th chapter, where

Bahagawan says " mattaH smritirjnAnaM apOhanaMca " it conveys the meaning that

Bhagawan makes people to forget. She advised me to pray the almighty to

take me off from these horrible dreams. By her grace I got out of the

problem. Dreams no more caused me pain. A true guru alone can understand

the pain that you are undergoing through sadhana. I lucky I am to have such

a guru in my life!

 

By writing all the above, I just wanted to convey that there is a reality to

the dreams that we witness. Though it doesn't stand for rational thinking,

there is something higher that we need to comprehend. Perhaps we can call it

as a missing link.

 

Hari Om, tat sat!