His Mysterious Ways By R. Subbulakshmi

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His Mysterious Ways

By R. Subbulakshmi

In December 1984, I had a problem in my uterus and underwent a major

surgery in abdomen in January 1985. After the operation, I grew weak as

I am past fifty. I needed help for everything, even to turn over or sit

up in bed. It was very discouraging. One day feeling utterly helpless. I

complained to my Sai-half, Sri R. Radhakrishnan: " Why do I keep on

living? What good am I? I am just a nuisance. I can't do anything for

anyone " .

 

He was preparing himself to go to Shirdi for participating in the Sai

Leela meet scheduled for 27th and 28th Jan, 1985. He answered with a

smile: " Oh " I don't know about it. I think there is something you can

do. You can pray to Lord Sainath for the sake of others " . What a good

medicine that was. There, flat on my back, I began to pray for my

fellow-patients, for the doctors and nurses, for Sai-bandhus, for any

one who came to mind. And as I did, I found I was moping less, and

focusing more on the world outside. Without knowing it, I was getting

out of myself, out into the world -if only in spirit. And eventually I

was there physically too.

 

In fact, my health improved, so much, so that a year later, I could

accompany my husband to Shirdi in February 1986 for the annual Gathering

of Sai Leela Contributors and later and to Vijayawada to participate in

the Akhanda Sai-Nama Saptaham. Today I am living at home, and I am able

to take care of myself, but I am still following that excellent

prescription for feeling useful.

(Source Sai Padananda)