Founder Of Sri Ramana Kendram,Hyderabad Share His Experiences

[Guest guest]

Dr. K. Subrahmanian (1928-1998)

 

Dr. K. Subrahmanian's genuine love and devotion, insight, compassion and

selflessness formed a vortex that drew hundreds of devotees from Andhra

Pradesh into the shining presence of Sri Ramana Maharshi. In 1979, he

founded Sri Ramana Kendram in Hyderabad and continued to nurture it until

his final day in January of 1998.

 

The following is an extract from " Dr. K. Subrahmanian (1928-1998), A

Tribute " , a book publish by the Hyderabad Kendram in his memory. Dr. K.

Subrahmanian relates in his own words about his early years and how he was

naturally drawn to the Maharshi, and also some anecdotes from his uncle's

life.

 

Coming into the Ramana Fold

 

Presentation Convent, the school that my father worked for, used to prepare

children for taking the Cambridge University examination. The school was run

by Irish nuns and almost all the children were European girls. My father was

the only male teacher for a number of years. In the 50s, one more male

teacher was appointed to teach Hindi.

 

As the winter vacation was during Dec-Jan every year, my parents would go

from Kodaikanal to Tiruvannamalai to attend the Jayanti function. My father

used to take English vegetables grown in Kodaikanal to the Ashram for the

Jayanti celebrations. After attending the Jayanti, my parents would go to my

father's village, Melvayalamoor, which is about 20 miles from

Tiruvannamalai. I was taken to Sri Bhagavan when I was two years old. My two

younger sisters and I used to be taken almost every year to Sri Ramanasramam

for the Jayanti celebrations. In our case we could say we were seen by Sri

Bhagavan first. We were conscious of seeing him much later.

 

My uncle, who looked after our lands in Melva-yalamoor, was also a great

devotee of Sri Bhagavan and Nayana [Kavyakanta Ganapati Muni]. Both in my

house and in my uncle's house there was always a picture of Sri Bhagavan in

the puja room. If not every day, almost every week, there used to be some

discussion or the other about the life and teachings of Sri Bhagavan. From

childhood I was brought up in a Bhagavan-charged atmosphere.

 

Viswanatha Swami visited our house and stayed with us for several days

together on numerous occasions. Later, when I was teaching at Madras

Christian College, he stayed with me a couple of times. He used to spend

much of his time talking about the glory and grandeur of Sri Bhagavan and

Nayana. He taught us a number of devotional songs. He had a melodious voice

and could sing beautifully.

 

Hearing from my father, uncle and Viswanatha Swami that Sri Bhagavan used to

read the letters written by devotees to him, as a boy I used to write to him

occasionally, seeking his blessings. As there was no high school in

Kodaikanal, my father sent me to study at Sir P.S.Sivaswami Iyer High

School, Tirukattupally. I studied there for four years between 1941-45, from

III Form to VI Form, and stayed in the hostel attached to it.

 

 

 

Talking to Sri Bhagavan

 

In 1941, I was taken by my uncle to Sri Ramanasramam. We had bought some

mangoes and my uncle said that I should put them on the small stool near Sri

Bhagavan's sofa. I went into the old meditation hall along with my uncle and

put the mangoes on the floor and prostrated before Sri Bhagavan and sat near

the window that now overlooks Sri Bhagavan's samadhi. My uncle sat next to

me. When I was looking at Sri Bhagavan, Sri Bhagavan asked my uncle, " Who is

this? " My uncle said, " He is my brother's son. He is studying in III Form. "

Then Sri Bhagavan said, turning to me, " So you are the person writing

letters to me. " I had a strange feeling of awe, coupled with great joy. I

said in a low voice, " Yes. " Sri Bhagavan said, " Does your father send money

to you so that you can write letters to me? " and laughed. I wasn't quite

sure whether Sri Bhagavan was being sarcastic or made the remark in a light

vein. I sweated for a while, continuing to look at him. As it was early in

the morning, there were only two or three devotees in the hall. When we came

out of the hall after some time, my uncle, who had been a frequent visitor

to the Ashram for several years, said, " You must consider yourself very

lucky. Sri Bhagavan usually does not ask `Who is he?' It is a rare thing. "

 

 

 

Observing Sri Bhagavan

 

Till 1950, I used to visit the Ashram a couple of times every year; the

frequency however increased between 1948 and 1950. I attended the

Kumbhabhishekam of the Mathrubhuteswara Temple. It was an elaborate, solemn

affair. After the Kumbhabhishekam was performed, in the evening arati was

offered to the deity in the temple and was brought to Sri Bhagavan by

Chinnaswami, Viswanatha Swami and President Venkataraman. I was sitting very

close to Sri Bhagavan in the meditation hall attached to the temple. It was

a moving sight when Sri Bhagavan extended his hands and touched the arati

with great reverence, closing his eyes.

 

Soon after each operation was performed on Sri Bhagavan's cancer, I used to

visit him. Sometimes I used to cry uncontrollably looking at Sri Bhagavan

from a distance. As far as Sri Bhagavan was concerned, he was ever the same

serene, blissful Self. He behaved as if the cancer belonged to somebody

else.

 

The last time I saw Sri Bhagavan was on 7th April, 1950, exactly one week

before his nirvana. When I heard the news of Sri Bhagavan's nirvana at

Kodaikanal, on 14th April, 1950, I did not break down, nor did I feel

depressed. I felt a peace—a peace that was totally unexpected. Viswanatha

Swami, whom I met a month later, also said that he enjoyed an indescribable

peace at the time of Sri Bhagavan's nirvana. He was one of the few who were

inside the room at the time Sri Bhagavan merged with Arunachala.

 

I was taken to Sri Bhagavan as a small boy and I visited him many times

later on, but I never put even a single question to him. I listened to

others asking questions and Sri Bhagavan's replies to them, but I never felt

inclined to ask a question even once. The only thing I used to do was to sit

close to him and take leave of him after prostrating to him. Most often he

would nod his head or say in Tamil, " sari, sari " (O.K, O.K.).

 

Occasionally I used to think that it would be good to read Sri Bhagavan's

works in his presence. I tried a couple of times but I could not read

anything in his presence. I was either looking at him or meditating.

 

Close Encounters with Sri Bhagavan

 

Sometime in 1949, when Sri Bhagavan was still in the meditation hall, I sat

at the entrance looking at Sri Bhagavan from outside. His shoulder was

bandaged because of cancer. I thought to myself: " I have been coming to the

Ashram so often. But I have had no experience of real meditation. Sri

Bhagavan has not granted me this experience. " Thinking along these lines, I

kept looking at Sri Bhagavan for a considerable time and then closed my

eyes. I do not know how long I was in that state. When I opened my eyes I

found that the meditation hall was empty. Sri Bhagavan was not there on the

stone couch in the meditation hall. Sri Bhagavan and the devotees must have

gone past me as I was sitting at the entrance. When I realised that I had

been sitting when Sri Bhagavan went past me, I was horrified. I felt how

disrespectful I was. But suddenly, I realised that Sri Bhagavan, out of his

unbounded grace, granted me an experience whereby I was completely oblivious

of my surroundings.

 

Even today, I am unhappy that I did not get up when Sri Bhagavan and his

devotees went past me. Sri Bhagavan gives us rare experiences when we least

expect them.

 

On another occasion, when I was an 18-year-old student, around noon or so, I

was walking towards the meditation hall. The new meditation hall was not

there then; the whole place was an open ground. I was thinking of something

and walking with my head down. When I neared the well, I looked up and saw

Sri Bhagavan standing at a short distance and talking to a devotee. I was

taken unawares as I did not expect Sri Bhagavan to be there. Sri Bhagavan

who was talking to the other person, looked at me sideways. I stood still,

as I did not want to disturb Sri Bhagavan in any way. When he looked at me

that way, I felt a powerful light penetrate me and engulf me. I experienced

a bliss that I had not experienced before. I was in that state for about

twenty days.

 

My uncle, V. S. Srinivas Iyer, did his Intermediate at Voorhese College,

Vellore and became village Munsiff of Vailamoor village and worked in that

capacity for over forty years. He saw Sri Bhagavan even as a student. In the

early days, there used to be very few visitors to the Ashram, which was then

just a thatched shed. Before he met Sri Bhagavan, my uncle had come under

the influence of Kavyakanta and had taken upadesa from him. This fact is

mentioned in the Sanskrit biography of Kavyakanta, Vasishta Vaibhavam,

written by Kapali Sastry.

 

The first question that my uncle put to Sri Bhagavan as a young man was, " Is

it true that Ravana had ten heads. " Sri Bhagavan replied, " How does it help

you to know whether he had ten heads or not? " My uncle said, " Nayana says it

is all false. " Sri Bhagavan replied, " Nayana has studied a lot and has come

to certain conclusions. What do I know? " On another occasion my uncle asked

Sri Bhagavan when he was going round the Hill, " Bhagavan, Nayana did tapas

for the freedom of this country. Do you think we will get freedom? " Sri

Bhagavan said, " Why do you ask me? Am I an astrologer? " After some time, Sri

Bhagavan turned to my uncle and said, " Why do you worry? There is a Supreme

Power which carries the whole burden. Our job is to do our work and submit

to it. "

 

Once an Ashram deer was attacked by some animal and the wounds turned from

bad to worse. Sri Bhagavan sat near the deer and held its face in his hands,

looking at its tearful eyes. Sri Bhagavan sat like that for a couple of

hours. Chinnaswami asked my uncle who was standing close to look after the

deer and relieve Sri Bhagavan. Sri Bhagavan heard this but did not make any

response. Sri Bhagavan sat there till the deer breathed its last. That was

the compassion that Sri Bhagavan had for that deer. Soon after, Sri Bhagavan

went to the hall. There is a Samadhi for the deer in the Ashram.

 

When the Mathrubhuteswara Temple was being constructed, Sri Bhagavan used to

help the construction workers by lifting the bricks and offering them to the

mason. When my uncle saw Sri Bhagavan doing this type of work he was

astonished. Sri Bhagavan said to my uncle, " I am doing construction work. "

 

He Said, " It is not for the sake of the husband, my dear, that he is loved,

but for one's own sake that he is loved. It is not for the sake of the wife,

my dear, that she is loved, but for one's own sake that she is loved. It is

not for the sake of the sons, my dear, that they are loved, but for one's

own sake that they are loved.... It is not for the sake of all, my dear,

that all is loved, but for one's own sake that it is loved. The Self, my

dear Maitrey, should be realized, should be heard of, reflected on and

meditated upon. When the Self, my dear, is realized by being heard of,

reflected on and meditated upon, all this is known. " — Brhadaranyaka

Upanishad, Chapt. IV, verse 6

 

Source: http://www.arunachala.org/newsletters/1999/?pg=nov-dec

 

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