Search without searching

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Jnanaguru Yogaswami said, " Search without searching. " By this he meant

that as long as we are searching for God in meditation, there are two--God

and the seeker. He did not mean that we should stop looking for God,

stop meditating or stop striving and live an ordinary life or give up

sadhana. He was saying that to deepen your meditation, while seated

in the lotus position, doing pranayama, to deepen this state, stop

looking and begin to realize that you are That which you are looking

for. As long as there is searching, Parasiva has not been found, for

searching is two, and It is one. But you must keep searching until It

is found. How to attain That? Satguru Yogaswami said, " Stop looking,

and just be. " Give up consciousness which is seeing and registering

that which has been seen. Become the sound, nada, just be and merge into

the Ultimate Quiet. When the disciple is on the brink of the Absolute,

the timeless Parasiva, twoness disappears in the overpowering presence of

Siva, and consciousness is absorbed and annihilated in His transcendental

Being, which is nondifferent from the disciple's. However, if the disciple

continues looking for this experience and thus, in the act of his search,

solidifies himself and the sought-after experience as two different

things, he becomes the obstacle and the problem to be eliminated. In the

end, the Great Mystery is known as one, as two, as neither one nor two.