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I'm ok thank you. I am going to visit my friend Patti in Columbus Ohio this weekend. She is in her 60s and a writer, a retired social worker. She contracted polio in the 50s at the age of 12 and is a quadriplegic woman. She can only move two pinky fingers and her head. I love her so much. There is nobody like her on earth. I'm looking forward to spring. I forget where everyone lives except Miss Renee. I live in NW Pa. and the snow coats the ground white forwhat seems to be six months. It's awful. It may be one of the reasons my panic attacks have come back. I'm glad Sherry joined because that allows me to feel more comfortable telling people I do take zoloft. It is my wish to get off of it. And currently the only way I can think to do that is with diet, exercise, meditation... and healing my sick spirit. A psychiatrist once told me that I have a sick spirit, and I should paint. I am an artist. This is how I got through my troubled childhood - by drawing and writing poetry. I

don't like to use it like a crutch, but I feel like me when I do those things.Anyway, hope everyone has a good day. Wish me luck this weekend. I am scared to go to a hotel while I'm having panic attacks at night. I do have Lorazepam but haven't taken it yet. Take care, Kelhypnoc <hypnoc wrote: Hi Sherry and to the new members, wanted to welcome you too, and sorry to hear about your brother, you will have a great support here, we all are friends. I love this nest Thanks to Kel and the rest. By the way how are you kel?? Doreen belsamm <belsamm wrote: Hi kelly and thanks for your welcome to the group. Yes it is Elavil and he was on huge dosages prescribed by the doctor. A little bit of his history, He would have been 38 next month, has had a really troubled life in general. He was my youngest brother and 8 years yonger than me. My mother started searching for help for him when he was 5. He was born in 1968. At that time she was told that the biggest problem she had was that she was 35 when she had him and that meant she was too old to handle an active child. Things went on in his life that I wont bore you with at this point that ended up with him

being in jail several times for drug related issues. When he got out this last time about 2.5 yeras ago he was under medical care having been diagnosed with agoraphobia, severe anxiety disorder, paranoid schizophrenia and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. He was fairly well regulated and while very stressed about being outside he was determined to get better and do what he needed to do to function. At that time he was able to stay with our grandfather who was 90 and in failing health with Lou Gerighs Disease, to care for him. After he had to be placed in a nursing home my brother moved in with my parents and was helping our dad with part of his business that didnt involve bieng around people so much. He was able to help me some in our other retail business and things were really looking up. During this time his medical doctor and his psychiatrist kept changing his medications around

and changing dosages and over the last 4 months or so we saw him slipping dramatically. My mother had been to the doctor with him and told them of the symptoms he was having. They kept either just blaming it on the PTSD or saying hsis meds werent strong enough and upping dosages. By the end he was on Seroquel, Xyprexa, Elivil, Klonopin, Clonadine, and with drs permission benadryl for allergy symptoms he was having and the last week of his life they added in Depakote. No they did not take him OFF of anything or reduce the other dosages. I dont exactally remember dosages of the others but the Elivil he was on 300 mg a day dosage, what I Know NOW is a toxic dosage and was not having any blood level monitoring of any of his meds more often than every 3-4 months if he rememberd to suggest they should do it. So as to the question was it suicide? That is what is listed on his death certificate

because from the resaearch I Have done that is the general conclusion in this but it was not. He and my mom had been to the doctor just that week to discribe his symptoms and the doc told him to take more. Now, as to the rest of the reason I chose this group to join. My other brother and I have both been taking elvil as well, in my case for a very stressful life that isnt going to change any time soon. My dosage however has been 25 mg once a day to sleep. After some of the things I have learned in the last week and a half.. I am no longer taking it. Went off cold turkey which probably wasnt the best idea but I havent had any in the last week so regardless of the way I feel at the moment.. dont want to take any more just to feel better if that makes any sense. So support in my endevor to find natural ways of dealing with life and health is what I am here for. Hope you all can

help.Hope this wasnt too long or boring. Sherry , "Kelly W." <kellykebby wrote:>> > We have a new member who just lost a brother. the> cause of death on his death certificate is listed as Amitryptiline> intoxication (poisoning). This is Elavil? an antidepressant.> I am so sorry that your brother died from this. I wonder how much > he was taking or if it built up and remained in his system, or if > it was a suicide? > > Welcome to the group. This is a great bunch of people.> > Kel>I hope this email finds you well... Doreen C. Cohanim MM, C.Ht, HBCEHypnoBirthing Childbirth Educatorwww.EnterYourMind.comhypnoc818-326-2623Not: Any solicitations are not allowed by phone! This electronic mail message -- and any attachments --

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