What is the most anyone has lost while fasting?

March 24, 2005

In Preperation for a fast, raw foods can help one to minimize the obsession with common addictive cooked foods which predominate our environments:

Last night i strut into the "Big Save" Market, always a sale on Ice cream and potato chips, lane after lane after lane of colorful packaged foods... I made a beeline for the produce, some of it older than perhaps is ideal... I grabbed what attracted me, albeit all but the carrots, were not organic by any means or stretch of the imagination, brocoli, half pound, a green pepper (the yellow and orange ones were about half a million dollars per pound... ok, I'm kidding, but they are a considerable investment in a veggie! at over $6 per pound), several loose pieces of precious celery, a pound of organic carrots, a cucumber, a bosc pear, a commercial (redundant I know...) suspiciously perfectly orange and flawless looking orange (it was on sale), and a luscious fuji apple which was bad inside so i returned it for a refund, oh and a bag of mung bean sprouts which the aisans use in their cooked dishes which i wanted to try out because they are cheap and easy to come by in all the markets

in the islands, which were not easy for me to enjoy and these ended up being returned as inedible for me.. ok, so i chowed last night like a rebel, the way we used to do it back in the day when I felt at war with the cooked masses, the hysteria created over cooked foods, fast foods, corrupted, burned, cut and manipulated death in a colorful package with a salivating lunatic on the cover of the package whom I am supposed to admire or at least, relate to... Ah, the american commercialization of food! so attractive, so juvinile, so foriegn to sensability and self respect.

so, i eat until i feel sick.. practically sick, stomach hurts... can't eat more. this was the theory back then just eat raw, anything raw in any combination eat as much as necessary so one cannot even dream of eating some corrupted cooked food like donuts and capuccinos... as soon as the mind starts to entertain the thought of an addictive cooked food, stuff the mouth full of raw foodstuffs... whatever it may be, as long as it's raw... this is what to do in the begining while the mind is still tending to think a lot about and be attracted to the old addictions that one wishes to over come, to no longer be obsessed or addicted to things that are not in service to one's healthy desires to LIVE and LOVE and KNOW the truth and live the truth and be happy and successful in one's endevors, etc......

ok so i make it to morning and i am in bad shape in stomach, full of fiber of course! I drink half a cup of corrupted addictive disgusting coffee and wammo i immediately feel better and have a bowel movement which relieves the stomach cramps entirely. Ok, I am free again and return to the raw foods bag from the market. I am on the beach under a coconut tree and have just finished a one hour meditation. People, children, retired people, visitors, locals, life gaurds, all are milling about settling in for the morning revving up for a late morning sun soak... I begin another feeding of the veggies and fruits... eat my fill, get up and go for a swim... i am alive... strength is felt in the body. the suicidal feelings i had while drinking diet soda are not so strong, even gone at times. The food i am dreaming of is brocoli and celery... eternal earth's bounty... foods that are like the earth, like a tree... i emerge from the swim and sit in the sun, hands feeling the sand, it's

simplicity... I am not so dead, not so dieing...can i really stay raw? it is a mind war for sure... i feed again until i am done. That is under $7 worth of produce stuffing me for an evening and a morning. less than the cost of a pizza hut buffet (DON'T ASK how I know!!!). Later I drive from the beach en rout to use the internet and buy a few red bananas from a fruit stand (i heard they are less GMOed than the yellow ones) but i have a terrible reaction to them and i conclude i cannot eat bananas at least not for now as they do not work for me. So much for my day.Hawaii Vipassana PO BOX 2166 Kapaa, HI 96746Kauai: (808) 822-7985 fax # (801) 401-7385info International Website:http://www.dhamma.org 2005 courses 10 day, Kauai:April 13-24th, 2005Sept. 14-25th, 2005Online registration: http://www.dhamma.org/nonctrw.en.shtml#hi.us1 day, Oahu: May 1, 7:30am-4:30pm Registration:

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