Dream

[Guest guest]

Thank you for sharing your dream. It has alot of wisdom in it. I found

it helpful for issues of my own that need healing.

 

Celeste

[Guest guest]

The other night I had a dream which was portentious for me. In it, one of my

" old

faithful " guides, an elderly Native shaman, was walking along with me, listening

to me process my issues surrounding my abusive Grandmother. He has heard it

before, ad nauseum. I have tried all sorts of things to " let go " . I am feeling

stuck with it, and becoming frustrated with myself. He is uncharacteristically

quiet.

 

So, he walks off for a moment, and comes back with the child me; standing behind

her with his hands on her shoulders, he thrusts her forward at me and says, " You

tell her. You tell her that she must live her life enslaved to anger and

resentment. "

 

I looked down into my own eyes, and I found that I wanted more than anything

else

to keep the desperate hope living there... I couldn't speak.

 

After talking to my husband Mani about the dream, I have mulled it deeply and

have

decided that the best way I can let go of this is to stop dwelling on my

perpetrator, and focus more on healing this child; after all, who deserves the

lion's share of the energy? I have been sending little packets of love, peace

and

patience back to myself, and sending them forward to the self I am becoming. If

all time is now, then the woman I am now can support and profit from both the

innocence of my inner girl and the wisdom of my inner elder.

 

As I grow older and creeping issues with motherhood become twisted with the

flowers of my desires to have children of my own, I am glad that we are capable,

if we are willing, to weed out the intruders and replant ourselves when we

become

rootbound in the pots we were planted in as children. What is it the 12 Steppers

say? " It's never too late to have a happy childhood " ?

 

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Blessings,

Crow

" Look for Rainbows in the Darkness "

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