To Connie in regards her BREAK

[Guest guest]

Hi Connie,

Gracious me does your accident bring back memories! I'm Mary, mostly a lurker

from NC. Two years ago as I was hurriedly taking a bushel of beans for drying up

to a deck at my B & B, meanwhile I was feeling overwhelmed and much put upon. It

was the height of the busy season at the Inn, my family (grown children) was

demanding my advice and attention and I was in the midst of putting by veggies

for the upcoming Y2K! ;o) As I climbed the stairs I clearly remember muttering

to myself, " I need a break! " . I set down one bushel of the beans and was on my

way to get the other one. I took 4 steps down and for absolutely no good reason

my foot turned and " pop, pop, pop " broke all the way through. Guess what? I got

a break!!!I

 

I could say and rightly so " be careful what you ask for. " but for me this break

was probably one of the best things that ever happened. In addition to the above

statement I was truly shown what wonderful friends and family I have. I learned

to receive more easily and with gratitude and I've have learned that the world

DOES NOT stop just because I do!

 

The years since have been a time of many increased awarnesses. First to listen

to myself and my body. Also to detach from the outcome of my children's and in

fact anyone else's life. Lastly and probably most importantly I have learned not

to take on more than I can handle in order to have everyone marvel at my

" accomplishments " . In other words I've been greatly healed of my " Disease to

Please " .

 

I don't know dear one what your " opportunities " will be from this break. I

encourage you to greet them as friends (they are!). I pray for you the fastest

and most perfect healing of your body, mind and spirit and I'm sending you

healing energy right now.......

 

In love and light,

Mary

 

Message: 3

Sun, 20 May 2001 09:34:25 -0400

tink-im <tink-im

Re: Medical research (cont.)

 

dear arjuna:

please excuse by typing as I fell yesterday and broke my foot and tore

ligaments in my right arm. I sat in the er last night wondering how I was

<snip>

trying to find a better thought form for ultimate peace of mind, because

this healing process needs nothing more than time.

love,

connie

 

(I love everybody, and YOUR NEXT!)

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Mary:

 

What a story! I think we all may have something like this in our lives, that

looked at from the '20-20' of hindsight, was a bigger lesson than we might have

realized at the time.

 

My 'break' was a matter of self-fulfilling prophecy; I believe I've told this

story before, which means I'm getting old, because I'm going to tell it again

:-)

 

When I was nearly 20 I was engaged to be married, but knew with every fiber of

my

being that it was not what I needed to do... both families were supportive, even

encouraging, but I knew that my fiancé was duplicitous, unfaithful and, well,

let's face it, a pathological liar. I visualized long years of being alone

while

he 'did his thing', and feeling the noose getting tighter around my neck, I

pulled

a Julia Roberts... I sold my wedding dress and ran away from my mother's house

to

an apartment of my own.

 

Now, there hadn't been a woman in our family, ever, who had moved out from home

without being married, and my family (as well as my now-ex-fiance's family) were

certain I would be dead in a ditch within months. I was given the message,

regularly, that I could not stand alone, that I was foolish to try it, and that

what I had done was just flat out unacceptable, not to mention thoughtless. To

give up a rich husband and security to live alone in a low rent apartment didn't

seem very sensible to them. And it was hard for me, harder because there was no

forthcoming support from my family to help me through my changes.

 

I moved out after the winter holidays, and one day in February, while walking to

my beat up old car from my apartment, I fell and broke both my ankles,

effectively

incapacitating myself for two months and forcing me to move back home. In what

was one of my body's biggest protests to the conflict, I also broke out in a

serious case of hives, and plastered myself with so much calamine and corn

starch

I looked like something out of " Quest for Fire " <LOL>

 

Luckily, I had been away from home just long enough to have a little perspective

on the pathologies perpetuated in my birth home, and was able to see the

hypocrisy

of the mixed messages I had gotten all my life... told how intelligent and

gifted

I was as a child, that I could do anything... then told that I couldn't function

alone and was unattractive and clumsy. I can be glad, it retrospect, that it

was

my ankles, and not my mind, that broke.

 

I was able to carve out my own identity with my family after a few years. They

simply didn't have a word for what I was, didn't know how to respond to me.

Their

ignorance made them afraid, for me and for their comfortable status quo.

Eventually I realized that I was not clumsy, I was just marching to a different

drummer.

 

I still have a plate in my ankle that reminds me of its presence periodically;

it

gave me an excuse to stop wearing high heels :-) It is interesting to me how a

similar injury can emerge from common issues (needing a break) and yet also from

other issues we aren't consciously in touch with (fear of standing on my own two

feet)

 

mary b wrote:

<snip>

 

> As I climbed the stairs I clearly remember muttering to myself, " I need a

> break! " . I set down one bushel of the beans and was on my way to get the other

> one. I took 4 steps down and for absolutely no good reason my foot turned and

> " pop, pop, pop " broke all the way through. Guess what? I got a break!!!I

> I could say and rightly so " be careful what you ask for. " but for me this

break

> was probably one of the best things that ever happened. <snip>

> The years since have been a time of many increased awarnesses. First to listen

> to myself and my body. Also to detach from the outcome of my children's and in

> fact anyone else's life. Lastly and probably most importantly I have learned

not

> to take on more than I can handle in order to have everyone marvel at my

> " accomplishments " . In other words I've been greatly healed of my " Disease to

> Please " .

 

--

Blessings,

Crow

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[Guest guest]

Dear Folks, thanks for the stories about breaks, it gives me tons more

things to think about. I want to mention also, that I dreamed last night of

recieving healing energy from my computor (I think my mind meant people on

the net sending energy), and woke this morning much much improved. To the

senders, I'm grateful beyond words.

love

connie

[Guest guest]

Connie:

 

LOL... maybe somebody attuned your monitor while you weren't looking ;-)

 

I am glad you are much improved; I can usually tell that I am improving by how

grouchy and piteous I get... isn't that funny? When I have a raging fever or

pain

I am very brave and tough, but when I start feeling better I get with the

grousing. It's the second day of a 24 hour bug that I like to languish in bed,

because then I can really enjoy the tea and sympathy ;-)

 

Hey, Florie, maybe that's what is up with your neighbor, eh?

 

Blessings,

Crow

 

tink-im wrote:

 

> Dear Folks, thanks for the stories about breaks, it gives me tons more things

to

> think about. I want to mention also, that I dreamed last night of

> recieving healing energy from my computor (I think my mind meant people on the

> net sending energy), and woke this morning much much improved. To the

senders,

> I'm grateful beyond words.

> love

> connie

[Guest guest]

Dear Crow,

LOL, wouldn't that be great? healing energy from a computor? We gotta

invent that.

I can tell I'm getting better when I'm willing to go to the mall even on

crutches. LOL

If I don't want to shop, watch out, I'm really sick.

Hey, went to the mall today, hubby bought me a pretty bracelet. cool huh?

advice, if your going to milk it for jewlery, do it before they start

sending the emergency room bills. LOL

love

connie

 

 

> Caroline Abreu <carocrow

>

> Mon, 21 May 2001 19:28:29 -0400

>

> Re: To Connie in regards her BREAK

>

> Connie:

>

> LOL... maybe somebody attuned your monitor while you weren't looking ;-)

>

> I am glad you are much improved; I can usually tell that I am improving by how

> grouchy and piteous I get... isn't that funny? When I have a raging fever or

> pain

> I am very brave and tough, but when I start feeling better I get with the

> grousing. It's the second day of a 24 hour bug that I like to languish in bed,

> because then I can really enjoy the tea and sympathy ;-)

>

> Hey, Florie, maybe that's what is up with your neighbor, eh?

>

> Blessings,

> Crow

>

> tink-im wrote:

>

>> Dear Folks, thanks for the stories about breaks, it gives me tons more things

>> to

>> think about. I want to mention also, that I dreamed last night of

>> recieving healing energy from my computor (I think my mind meant people on

>> the

>> net sending energy), and woke this morning much much improved. To the

>> senders,

>> I'm grateful beyond words.

>> love

>> connie

>

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[Guest guest]

> dear arjuna:

> please excuse by typing as I fell yesterday and broke my foot and

tore

> ligaments in my right arm. I sat in the er last night wondering

how I was

> <snip>

> trying to find a better thought form for ultimate peace of mind,

because

> this healing process needs nothing more than time.

> love,

> connie

>

> (I love everybody, and YOUR NEXT!)

>

> Hi Connie,

I'm sure you'll make the best of this situation but my sympathy for

your pain and suffering in the meantime. Taking time out without

a " good reason " has to be one of the most difficult things to do in

our hectic world, what with its support of " doing " and " achieving "

and its dismissal of " being " .

Get better soon

Arjuna

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

<<LOL, wouldn't that be great? healing energy from a computor? We gotta

invent that. >>

Not as silly as it sounds, Connie. I have received reiki attunement upon

opening email..

I think reiki guides take over sometimes. Perhaps as we read and send

emails on the list we could give a thought and a prayer for anyone who

needs it?

Love and Light, Ninox

[Guest guest]

> Dear Arjuna:

Thankyou so much for your very kind words and thoughts. I'm feeling much

today, and I'm sure it's due to all the kind thoughts sent my way.

I'm terrible at taking time off, to such an extent that the few times I do

get sick or hurt, I always manage to do it on my days off. LOL.

Thanks again.

love

connie

>> Hi Connie,

> I'm sure you'll make the best of this situation but my sympathy for

> your pain and suffering in the meantime. Taking time out without

> a " good reason " has to be one of the most difficult things to do in

> our hectic world, what with its support of " doing " and " achieving "

> and its dismissal of " being " .

> Get better soon

> Arjuna

>>

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