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dear crow

 

again, accurate words you sent me to describe the situation as it is.

you ARE very perceptive. Thank you for understanding. That is a GIFT for

me.

to be understood till the unconscious,,,, with the language barrier .

it's hard enough to express inner feelings in Hebrew...

 

your last ideas (keeping the healthy bounderies... reflecting back... show

empath in a neutral way ) reflect the very philosophy of rabbits/cats in

their relationship with other people.

I have a tendency to open without boundries,,,, then i close all of the

sudden

quit the game, - and the other person in the game feels abandoned and

offended.

 

I am very much aware to my faults in this game,,, i even enjoy delving into

the others mind psychic ,,,, in this story i just came to buy airlline

tickes from an anonymous lady and found myself

very much tuned to her problems . the catch was her extraordinary

intelligence:

which usually is a strong magnet. however i remember leaving her office

telling my husband : " this is a sample how not to live , so much

intelligence which is not applied in daily life, i do not want to resemble

her (probably she mirrored traits i want to improve in myself) "

 

then a week later she called me and i felt she was needy... in a crisis ...

she asked for help (asking me to write a positive letter to her boss) and

i immediately agreed.

but again some wrong feeling entered after closing the phone

 

As a tiger (born on the year of the tiger) i have to learn from rabbits (the

sign ahead!)how to keep boundries and disconnect the buttons in time. thank

you for the good advice, if you know some tools and techniques how to apply

this- please share

 

I decided to cut the connection with her though i am attracted to her

company, her ideas, her wisdom etc. at this point i feel not strong enough

to handle the fight of constant boundries guardian....

 

I do not think she is an energy vampire or at least not a seen one. I feel

that i learn from her too. but something inside is warning me, I am not qui

te after any interaction with her.

 

separations are difficult (and i know her 2 weeks only) but I decided to cut

the connection (she said she wants to be my friend for the spirit)

otherwise it would be disrespect to the inner voice.... even if there is a

chance i am just imagining all this and that i am acting out of pure

paranoia.

 

Thank you for the good vibes, you are a true gem

 

Anat

 

 

Ps

 

just wanted to share with you two sinchronities i had regarding the hit in

the eye.

 

1. a day before the hit, some one called me and offered a laser treatment to

improve sight,,, she spoke about the benefiets of this operation etc etc. i

objected and said i am not ready to take risks on my eyes. i feel pretty

good with my glasses.

---- the hit made my sight dizzy, (should we close and not pick up phone

calls?)

 

 

2. a second before i entered the circle to join the fight (custom of

capoiera)

i thought: i have to show my shy daughter (10) who is attending the class

too

how to enter society as a " tiger " , to teach her confidence,,,, to teach

her how not to be so timid and humble....to show her a sample ;-)

then i entered quickly the circle in some " Chuzpa " (pride)and at the very

same moment I recieved the hit which was very strong and painful and

paralizing.

it was an instant answer.

Isn't it amazing what G-d wanted to show me?

that i have to learn from my daughters' behavior more than i have to teach

her,

I always urge her to be more dominant, more confident, to enter the circle

more frequently... to be more though,,, so she can meet life more

prepared...

so this is the humorous answer.

the hit was a horrible experience, what eases the pain is being aware that

G-d is guiding me .... in his humourus way. everthing is holy.

 

Anat