for Audrey

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To Audrey, you said:

I know its my thoughts that result in my feelings.

-----I really want to tell you how I got past this. First, the thoughts that

are going into your head/mind, that make you feel so bad! WOULD YOU CHOOSE to

listen to those thoughts? Would you SAY those things to yourself, to make

yourself feel bad, or be 'down' or depressed? IF the answer is NO, then

where do they come from? This is not a religious message. This is mind

control! (As a christian, I would say the deceiver is working on you, as

he/it would want you down, wouldn't he?) The point! You can listen to your

mind 'clutter' as I call it! IF, you would NOT CHOOSE to listen to that

'stuff',--simply (it takes constant practice) say, out loud, " get out of

here', and every time those bad thoughts re-appear, verbally demand them gone!

I am writting from 'experience'! The one who wants to BE God, and is NOT

will do whatever possible, whetever they/he/it can get away with. I went

through a very STRONG Spiritual Search, in 80-'82.....I learned TONS, as I

dedicated myself to it! WE DO have the ability to 'manage' our minds! ONLY

let in, what you CHOOSE to!

I MEAN it!

 

And part of the problem is definitely trust; myself, the universe.

----IF, you don't KNOW that you can do as I suggested, of course you wouldn't

trust yourself! You don't know any better, --right? So, take CHARGE! NOW!

 

If I'm so low that I think I should not exist,

-----THIS 'IS' the job of the DECEIVER! TO STOP ANYONE, --that could DO

ANYTHING for the GOOD of mankind, KNOW, that GOOD people are PRIME TARGETS

of the ones that do NOT want to see you succeed!

 

how can I trust me?

-----EDUCATION, as I stated above! I HAVE experienced just as you have

mentioned. I was very close to suicide, several times. THEN, 'knowing' what

I know, I jolted back to reality, and consciously, slapped myself to sanity!

I KNOW/knew that it was NOT what I would have chosen! So, I just made that

next CHOICE! " GET OUT OF HERE " . and my mind 'cleared!

 

Likewise, why would I trust me? Or the universe?

-----Because, YOU are a very Special, PRECIOUS 'child of God, and the

Universe! There is NON OTHER like 'you'. I personally believe that ALL of

God 's children are Precious! I also believe that God goes, --eney meany,

miney and moe!--To Choose those who WILL definately have the toughest tasks,

in this life... For THIS, you must be strong! VERY Strong! Would a bad

person/being want YOU to win whatever would be your PRIZE for accomplishing

the 'Difficult?' NO!

-----PLEASE accept this as a possibility, that you may be a 'chosen' child of

God. The only way you will know it, --pure difficulties! Until Gos steps

in. And, ---He WILL! YES, YOU CAN TRUST. I believe this with ALL MY

HEART! Rose

PS, ---NEVER GIVE UP! Even on knowing that the 'Universe' has somethng

'miraculous' waiting for us. ----I haven't! I am NOT finished,

--apparently! God just won't let me quit! He does NOT want YOU to quit, Or

he wouldn't have prodded ME to write this! Hang in there! It get's better!