The day I saw myself

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The day I saw Myself

 

Oh what a day: it started with me flying in from Tenerife at 5.30 in the

morning. It was a nice sunny day with the birds singing and the wind in the

trees. I had to drive to Machynlleth, Wales, UK for a court hearing on

sorting a grant payment out from the sale of our organic farm. This seemed

to represent the last ten years of my life and most of my physical

possessions, which have all been lost through the foot and mouth outbreak in

February 2001.

 

The court case was quite emotional, as I had to relive that ten-year period

and had to recall the circumstances that lead up to loosing everything that

I thought was my life. The judge was very nice and supportive and even the

Government representative was being as helpful as possible.

 

I left the court quite hopeful, that the grant that had been reclaimed, my

be returned to the family and allow us to start to rebuild our life.

 

The real magic of the day started when I went to church that evening. As

always the love that was in the room at the Bangor Independent Spiritualist

Church shone through and had a supportive effect on all present. The medium

gave a lovely philosophy and had moved on to the section of mediumship.

As always, while the medium is giving messages, I look within myself with my

eyes closes. A little like meditating and just open my eyes when he

finished each message, just in case he may want to come to me next.

 

The chairman called the medium to time and it was decided to give one more

message. The medium came to me: " you have a lovely energy surrounding you

and a quite unique way of coming out of your body and looking back on

yourself " . I do have the experience of astral travelling a lot and could

relate to what he was saying. He then went on to describe all the angels

that were surrounding me and how they help and guided me. Again, I could

relate to this, as I feel the presence of spirit around me like cobwebs or

angles wing's brushing against my body.

 

I think he seemed to be referring to an event that happened the night before

while I was in Tenerife. A couple visited my wife's house wanting healing.

The man was suffering from Hepatitis C and had a failing Liver problem with

the doctors only giving him six months to live. When they arrived Nick was

looking stoney faced and as though he was carrying all the problems of his

life and the world on his shoulders.

 

I thought the best way to proceed was to try to relieve some of the tension

first before giving the healing. I suggested that we do a visualisation

meditation and balance the energies in the aura and energy bodies that

surround the physical body. We started the meditation, and as I usually do,

started with taking the attention inwards. First by becoming aware of the

feet on the ground and checking for tension in the muscles, then working

through the rest of the body relieving tension and relaxing the muscles.

 

I then got them to become aware of their breathing and noticing the life

energy coming in with each in breath and the stale energy leaving the body

with each out breath. By this time the silence had descended on the room

and the room was fill with love and light. I brought their attention to

this silence and described some of its qualities. I got them to try to find

the boundaries of this silence, was it just inside the body or did it extend

beyond? I brought to their attention to the fact that although this

silence, is silent, it seems to have a liveliness to it, a kind of grain.

We played about with this love and light, which we each could feel in our

hearts.

 

I then took their attention back to their feet and started to grow roots out

of their feet to connect their energy field to the centre of the earth. I

then open each of the energy centres in the body. The seven chakras and

washed the aura through with each colour light in turn.

 

By this time the energies where really starting to build up. I moved on to

describe my understanding of how the body worked. I got them to visualise

what was the process by which life started to grow. An egg or cell in the

mothers which is fertilised. The egg dividing and dividing and producing

lots of cells from within itself. As the number of cells increases, seeing

them start to specialise in all the various components of the body. Some

forming the skin, some the bone, some the organs of the body.

 

I then drew an analogy between a piece of paper with iron filling on it and

the cells in the body. The iron fillings are all random until a magnet is

brought underneath. Then the life force of the magnet holds all the iron

fillings in place in a balanced and harmonious way. In the same way the

life force in that growing baby hold and co-ordinates all the cells to grow

in a balanced and harmonious way.

 

It is only the stress of living life that upsets the natural balance of the

human system. In the case of Nick he seemed to be carrying more than his

fair share of life's problems with him. So I got him to forgive all those

people, that had wrong him in his life. I got him also to forgive himself

for all the people he had wronged and allow all that stale energy to go down

the roots into the earth.

 

We washed again the aura with the light from the chakras and visualise the

auras of each energy body being repaired. All the tears, all the scares

being repaired by the light. The energy bodies being left in perfect

balance and perfect harmony one inside the other. In this way forming the

energy field that holds every cell in the body in perfect harmony and

perfect balance performing its natural duty in an effortless natural way.

 

The real magic of this visualisation meditation came when I started to focus

in on his physical problem of the liver. As soon as I mentioned the word

liver there was such a presence in the room. Every cell of my body started

to tingle and I felt that we had some very powerful healing helper come in

from the spirit world to help in this process of healing Nick's liver.

 

We started the healing in the meditation by thanking all the cells in Nick's

body for all the hard work that they have done over the years in keeping the

body going and maintaining the peace and harmony that existed within him.

We focused down on the liver itself and thanked all the healthy cells for

all the extra hard work they were doing to keep the liver functioning. You

could almost hear the waves of appreciation received back from them for this

loving thought.

 

With the energy field repaired and the help of all the healthy cells in

Nick's liver, I then asked for all the cells that were not healthy to leave

and be replaced with health normal one. I asked for some of the cells to be

sent out as scouts to try to find spare material in the body to carry out

the repairs needed.

 

I then started to close the chakras and continue balancing the energy fields

in the body. I then slowly got them to be aware of they're surrounding

again and slowly become fully conscious of their physical body and their

surroundings.

 

We then went on to do the physical hands on healing and channel the

universal energy in the normal way.

 

On the way home from church, I was passing along a particularly lovely

wooded bit of road. It was late evening on almost mid summer's day. The

trees and grass looked so full of life energy. In my mind, I contrasted

this with the same seen in winter and realised what I was looking at, was

life itself.

 

The flow of energy, love and light that is the spirit of creation itself. I

then remembered the court case and seeing all my possessions of the last ten

years, leaving me. But these possessions are now dead energy like the trees

in winter, dead or dormant. Life is that that is living that which flows

from your heart. That, which is in the here and now, life itself, like me

driving the car along this wooded road the flow of energy.

 

That realisation took away the pain of the loss of my past 10 years of life

and it's possessions. I was shown what is important, that life energy that

flow from the heart, that lets me live my life and experience all who I meet

in the present moment of here and now.

 

What a realisation this is for me. To see the love of creation in all

things within me and around me and in reality of me to, as there is only one

of us in the hole of the universe. Only one life force, only one creator

that which is god itself, experiencing itself in its many diverse ways. Let

love and life flow on.