Thanks

[Guest guest]

Thanks to both Joel and Penny for those supportive words. I feel much better

having read them.

 

I'm working really hard on my healing at the moment. ANy time I feel angry I

channel it towards building a new life for myself and promising that I'll be

independent once more very soon. I know that is true.

 

I have returned to religion, the Catholic church and at the moment it's of great

comfort to me. There is something profound about being in a church full of

people praying particularly on a weekday morning when it's full of retired

people and people who work from home. THat gave me great strength this morning.

 

One thing all of this has made me realise is that I'm a very forgiving person. I

did attend the wedding of my mother to my abuser and subsequently spent two

months sleeping on the sitting room floor in the house where I was abused.

Lately I spent three nights staying in the hotel where my mother and stepfather

got married to ensure that I would bury that ghost without delay. I've forgiven

all I can for the moment. I have forgiven my abuser but I can't forgive the

abuse. That is not within my power to do. I'll leave that to the Higher Power,

God or whatever other name we call it.

 

Thanks again you guys, just knowing you are there supporting me helps me get

through the day.

 

Caoimhe

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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