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Peace,

 

I am a 43-year-old woman living in Denmark. (I will be 44 tomorrow.) I have

worked on myself for a long time now - but have also had extreme bagage to deal

with.... I was raped at 14 (a virgin) and have suffered from anorexia,

migraines, suicide-attempts, abusive relationships, depressions... whatever; you

name it....

 

I have done various forms of therapy (psychologist/psychiatrist) and the last

10-15 years I have been much better - but I am still dealing with 'having a

body' which is somewhat hard for me. I have an 'addictive' nature - but as it is

of now I have cut off most addictions - I have stopped smoking cigarettes and

coffee is gone too. My problem now is that I would like to lose some weight

(about 40 pounds) and get a better diet. (So are my migraines.) I am working on

getting back to a vegetarian diet that I used to be on - the last couple of

years I have been eating some meat and dairy products (2003 was a

year-long-depression - the worst I have ever had - I was even medicated for the

first time in my life - oxapax - bensodiaspin-family (danish words; don't know

in English) - for about 5 month - stopped medication April this year.) I am

feeling much better in many ways and have started doing a few yoga positions and

some meditation in the morning - I focus on breathing in through my

solar plexus chakra (for healing my selfesteem) but as I have never practised

officially anywhere I am not sure if this is where my focus should be.

 

I have never like people touching my body much - I have never liked having a

body much and still don't - I do not like undressing and even though I have

gotten to a point where I can enjoy sex - even if I still only have had it with

men who didn't love me (I have been without sex for 2 years now) - but I have

met a very special man on line and I think there is a possibility that we have a

real future together. He is already helping me heal in many ways. (Helping me

see patterns through my life; why I repeated bad relations a.s.o. - at the

moment we are talking about the fact that I have a hard time forgiving myself

for getting into so many selfdestructive situations....)

 

Anyway - any advice would be very appreciated.

 

OneLove Anne

 

 

 

 

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