New to Group - Healing childhood effects

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Hello, All. My name is Rose, I'm 60, I live in rural upstate New York.

 

I'm primarily interested in healing modalities that can address the effects of childhood abuse, and any other longstanding and invasive emotional/psychological scars.

 

I've done a good deal of inner work over these past two decades and have dealt with depression without drugs to some minor success. Some things have changed, but mostly I just know the why's and how's of why I am the way I am. Biologically, the "clinical" part of clinical depression is gone, but the scars still remain. I'm just smarter, but no healthier.

 

Now, I want to heal myself. Understanding is great and it's a great first step, but DOING something to actually HEAL myself would be the next step for me. And quite frankly, there's a part of me that doesn't want to heal. Maybe it's the fear of change, maybe I've already identified myself with my abusive childhood. In any event, if I don't heal myself of the effects of these traumas, I'll go to my grave a half-person.

 

I know that sounds all melodramatic and I don't mean for it to be so.

 

Thanks for any help.

 

Rose