receiving blood products - was :darkfield live blood cell analysis

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Jenny -I

have a condition called Hereditary Angio Edema, which involves a shortage of an

enzyme called C1esterase inhibitor. Symptoms of the condition involve severe

painful (intracellular) swelling throughout my body, but most dangerously in my

throat. When my throat swells I have to receive an infusion of fresh frozen

blood plasma, which provides the enzyme I am missing, and brings the swelling

down within half an hour, preventing the closure of my throat, or the need for a

tracheotomy. Over the years I have had fifty some such infusions, 2 units each

time, so potentially blood products from up to a hundred different donors.

Each time, I go through a journey with emotional " essence " is the only way i can

describe it, that is not mine. It sometimes triggers old or unrecognized stuff

of mine that needs to be addressed, and gets addressed in that way - I've tried

to make use of this invasive but necessary experience in whatever ways I can.

However, it is extremely unsettling to find yourself feeling and thinking and

even seeming to " remember " things that are not within your own experience or

being. Other people with my condition have had similar experiences. When I

actively process, emotively, the content that arises, feeling through what seems

true to my being and what does not, intently " releasing " what does not,

eventually I begin to come back to a sense of familiarity, to come home to a

deeper sense of myself through the journey. You are definately not alone in

your experience with receiving blood products. There have also been a few

books written about people having similar experiences with organ transplants.

Joy

Anyone else experienced this?