Smoking Cessation...

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I want real one on one hypnosis. I stopped for five years...yeah, like an idiot

I smoked ONE to 'scare' my spouse and his brother to quit smoking in my house

because I could smell it and it stunk... so....*now use your imaginations and

have that dramatic music score used in movies*......so I took a ciggie from the

pack and they both looked horrified which = power and drama to me.....then I lit

it, *more music and faster pace it now) and they said 'NOOOOOOOO.......DON'T DO

IT, WE'RE SORRY....' and I had heard that before so I continued to take a nice

drag and inhaled and they were completely in shock and shame, the point was to

say 'I'm getting your smoke and if I wanted it I'd smoke myself'....and I got as

light headed as ever....what a buzz that was!......and I said to myself 'you

aren't a smoker anymore so just do this until like about 5 pm to get your point

across.......and 5 pm came and I said 'well, I

can wait till bedtime' and then the next morning  I did rationalize I could

have a 'few' and before you know it, it's 25 years later and I still smoke.

 

I am not proud of that btw. I won't look at my own mirror image walking into a

store with a cigarette.......I judge that 'woman' on the spot and then it hits

me that she is ME.....yeah.

 

I sure would like to try genuine hypnosis. Where I live I made the mistake of

asking a neurolgist for a hypnosis clinic or person so I could use that for pain

reduction in place of meds and to stop smoking and I sat thru an hour of

preaching from a doc not of my denomination that I was opening myself to demons.

 

I have disputed his bill, he has turned it over for collections, I didn't go for

a sermon I sought help.......I do want to quit.

 

The new chantix worked on my husband who is a chain smoker and when our daughter

became ill, he had not been smoking, the med works. He has absolutely no will

power . And, his mustache keeps him from noticing the smell of residual

smoke.....so perhaps I can try that as well as aroma therapy. Before I package a

soap or whatever I've made, I won't smoke around my stuff but I will wipe things

down with alcohol, shrinkwrap and then put into a thick box with a lid....and I

don't want to do that anymore because I like how my house smells when there are

soaps curing and my daughter who is about to be shipped over seas associates the

smell of my home with the various scents of soaps and oils and to her, that

smells like 'mom' and 'home' and I don't want to disappoint her.

 

She will be here on Oct.3rd and then off to South Korea and it will be several

years before I see her again.

 

So its walls and windows for me this month and I want to let my soaps just sit

on those pretty shelves my husband bought for me and let them scent my

home........

 

If you quit, don't ever go back. I'm ashamed. The spouse tossed the chantix when

we were told our middle daughter would not live and went back to it.. Now he

smokes more than ever knowing that a med will work for him, so smoking and

nicotine and whatever else they add to it functions in a multi faceted way.

Psychologically I believe some people do it as a literal death wish.

 

Oddly, if we buy native american tobacco, they don't have the additives and you

can smoke those but not be satisfied.....so whats in other brands.....just might

hook you faster.

 

I'd go for aversion therapy. If they could plant that seed 'if you smoke you

will throw up' I could do it quickly. Patches are dangerous for me, because for

some reason I actually want a smoke more!

 

Oh to be smoke free again...and lets not count in how much a smoker spends per

month. sad.

 

But I'll cheer anyone on this board when they feel weak . I'm a great example of

what not to do and if for nothing but that , if that helps anyone who is

quitting......email me.

 

Evie.