Guest guest Posted August 3, 2005 Report Share Posted August 3, 2005 Hello All, My name is Cheryl and I got my activation from Chris in March of this year. We just had the Kundalini Awakening Seminar workshop this past weekend, and my energy movements have been more consistent. What does that mean? Well, it means my third eye throbs, tingles or feels pressure. Sometimes when I meditate, and then sometimes just because. My heart and solar plexus have been aching these past few days, and I figure this is the response to my prayer to release the blockages in my third chakra area (can you say, " Cheryl needs to deal with her fear issues " ?). And last but not least, my tailbone has been tingling and slightly burning fairly regularly, too. So, I feel that things are moving along nicely here. I've found that during my commute, I can raise my hand and beam healing energy to those in front of me. I soften my heart an drop my awareness behind my heart, and it seems to increase that loving flow. I'd appreciate learning how any of you have dealt with your fear, as this appears to be my big lesson right now. Blessings to all! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 10, 2009 Report Share Posted August 10, 2009 Hi Cheryl, what I found with fear was 1) to identify with what I am afraid of, finding that within me 2)when fear arises, there is a strong impulse to want to avoid the present by taking some kind of action... thats when I found thats its most important to avoid the inner recoil from the self that is the beginning of suffering, and stay present, bretahing it into the heart, bretahing out release.. and not getting caught up in any of the minds stories... and as the resolution of the fear gets closer, the urgency to avoid the present will intensify... love Bruce > > I'd appreciate learning how any of you have dealt with your fear, > as this appears to be my big lesson right now. > > Blessings to all! > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 10, 2009 Report Share Posted August 10, 2009 ooh, bruce, that's such good advice... I willl strive to keep it in mind. but the mind's so strong, when it's in fear mode, it just pulls up more and more stories, the harder I try to stay away from them.. it turns the very effort of trying to, against me. that is what gets me, every time I give in to fear. I say it, but it's me, my consciousness, a part of it, that likes to identify with and belive those stories and when something triggers fear and anger reactions, the mind just jumps in and supplies me with more and more stories. I sometimes feel these days that I am doing some kind of physiotherapy.. it feels like my mind is a muscle that is used to working, or not working, in a certain pattern of reactions and mecanisms, and trying to introduce new working modes feels like tring to wiggle one toe and keep the others still... or hitting my head and rubbing my tummy at the same time. I just cant get it and then suddenly there I have it and then, I lost it again... <<and as the resolution of the fear gets closer, the urgency to avoid the present will intensify...<< could that be why the ups and downs seem to get more and more extreme, the harder I try? I am at piece with a certain issue and and then when l fall down again, wow, it's intense and so blinding. but it seems to last much less time, so that's good! by 'resolution of the fear' you mean the place where that fear finally dissolves? I will have to remember to practice the inner joy more when I'm on that edje again. it works sometimes, when I do it! just start laghing in the middle of it. lucia --- Lun 10/8/09, bruce_oom <bruce_oom ha scritto: Da: bruce_oom <bruce_oom Oggetto: Re: Hello and Update from Cheryl A: Data: Lunedì 10 agosto 2009, 18:25 2)when fear arises, there is a strong impulse to want to avoid the present by taking some kind of action... thats when I found thats its most important to avoid the inner recoil from the self that is the beginning of suffering, and stay present, bretahing it into the heart, bretahing out release.. and not getting caught up in any of the minds stories... and as the resolution of the fear gets closer, the urgency to avoid the present will intensify... love Bruce > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 11, 2009 Report Share Posted August 11, 2009 namaste, Hi Cheryl, yep, the advice is easier to give than to live.. and its a tough battle, bringing awareness to the stories and resisting their powerful and incessant pull.... those moments are the trenches where the battle is won or lost.. and sometimes its too strong at times.. > I sometimes feel these days that I am doing some kind of physiotherapy.. it feels like my mind is a muscle that is used to working, or not working, in a certain pattern of reactions and mecanisms, and trying to introduce new working modes feels like tring to wiggle one toe and keep the others still... or hitting my head and rubbing my tummy at the same time. I just cant get it and then suddenly there I have it and then, I lost it again... > Yep, I found it was often hard physical work, as their is such strong emotion connected to the mental stories that it gets exhausting resisting the pull and not succumbing to habitual gravity.. thats where strength and endurance and perseverance are needed... sometimes the struggle is long and will take everything as the sense of self that is identified with those stories eventually collapses or is broken.. and to have compassion for that which is breaking inside is helpful... I found that it was difficult to introduce new working modes while fear and other egoicially contracted emotions were being transformed.. it took all my energy to stay present to what was happen so it could be transformed... yet you know what is best for you... just keep offering whatever is happening to the higher self... > could that be why the ups and downs seem to get more and more extreme, the harder I try? I am at piece with a certain issue and and then when l fall down again, wow, it's intense and so blinding. but it seems to last much less time, so that's good! yep.. I went backward and forwards a lot, up and down a lot.. just keep working with what arises, and notice any tendancy to think " now I have got it and I have arrived " .. and surrender that too > by 'resolution of the fear' you mean the place where that fear finally dissolves? yep.. for me there was usually some deeply held tension supporting teh fear, surrounded by walls of resistance, repression and mental stories.. and when that was finally released (often with some kind of insight) then the source of that fear would dissolve and not return, or if it did, in a much milder and workable form.. and yep. laughter is good love and transformation bruce Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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