The becoming

October 21, 2005

This is an early account of the " becoming " aspect of the Kundalini. The is

typically reached after holding the K for a period of time in surrender and

allowing the changes to take place. Even though the intensity and difficulty

inside the trasnformation can be hard...here is what can happen and is happening

to another Kundalini friend, now in this realtime.......

Hi Chris..everyone..

I'm only just back on today and trying to catch up

with the emails.

There's so much that I want to share with you

all...I'm really hoping this is the ending of the

process....I'm awakening as a healer...

The other night I had visions of snakes particularly

at the bottom of my feet where it all started for me

with the energy..then rising from there to my sexual

chakra..

I spent a long long time 'shedding' the skin....the

new me emerging from it..

The kidney area is thudding and seems to be associated

with the child inside that is disolving...the new me

is an adult..all grown up. Appears to me the childish

ego is disolving...

Shiva is in a beautiful egg...like a Fabrege egg...all

diamonds and gold...very handsome too.. *smile* Saw

An elephant with a beautiful headress all diamonds and

gold....magnificent!..

I have a 'magical' child...glittering in beautiful

soft shades of blue, soft lavender and

pink....fairies, toadstools, all the fairy stories of

cinderella, sleeping beauty.....the jealous queen is

there too...a part of me..

Soooo much....I'll have to write more later..

For now I've just picked out this email to respond to

because as I was reading it I received a beautiful

soft healing energy from it which eased the thumping

in the kidneys....thank you Chris..

Before I came on I had a couple of hours contemplating

and as I did I kept feeling the desire to serve...'in

loving service'...the christ consciousness there,

smiling at me from above..

It's a soft thread of thought and feeling so I kept still and quiet and

followed the gentle thread...

I could see I'm meant to serve 'in loving

service'...and didn't know which way to go...how to do

this...then I read the emails about sending healing

through the list and I opened the emails of John and

Chris giving permission to heal...

and I felt this enormous gratitude well up inside of

me that I started crying....in humbleness...and

gratitude that you will allow me this...a gift that

you have given to me by giving permission..

It's hard to explain....I'm not doing anything to or

for you....you are doing something for me by allowing

me to send healing..

It's so mixed up the feelings are confused...but I

expect it's because its all so new to me....

still trying to hold on the the fragile thread as the

ego is still disolving and protesting about it a

little...

I haven't sent healing, tho this appears obvious it's

something I'm meant to do..I need to think about it

more...not knowing how to go about it correctly yet..

Two or maybe three nights ago..not sure exactly...the

enrgy in my hands spread throught my whole body and my

whole body became a 'healing' thing/object? I

experimented when I had a pain in my right shin I lay

my left leg over it and I felt the healing flow

through.

This mornings contemplation helped me realise and have

the feeling that if any one came near me now..even to

sit in my aura they would be healed. Don't know if

this will stay this way or fade back inside of me...

My dog keeps jumping on my knee and blisses

out.....lol..

I'm sobbing in gratitude and laughing with

happiness...

Will write again when the emotions are settled....but

if I keep reading your emails and feeling your

beautiful energy then it's going to start them off

again *smile* *sob*...hehe...

The 'family' feeling here is strong too....ohh

gawd...I'm a mess...

God bless you all..

October 25, 2005

Hi chris, everyone...

I just joined the list with the intention of skimming through the

posts for a quick read without needing to post.

As soon as I started I felt my heart open with love so I allowed it

to happen, not sure if anyone will feel it as they read..

Then the most amazing thing happened....I opened this email about my

account of what's been happening to me.....and I felt *my* energy of

healing and love flow towards me from my own email.

I immediately understood that this was a special little gift for me

to feel and sense how it will feel to others as they receive it from

me.

It was very light and a little fragile..and it also had a sense of

newness to it....it brought tears to my eyes...thankfully I didn't

start crying as thats all I do lately...still crying in gratitude and

humbleness...

The most special thing about it is that it felt like a newborn

baby....a brand new energy in the Universe...so special.....welcomed

by everyone in the higher dimensions....as we all would welcome a

brand new baby into a family...

This is still so new to me....is this what it feels like for

everyone?...it's just not what I expected from kundalini...I was

expecting to feel deep inner peace, divine connectedness etc...then

to get on with my everyday life....'chop wood, fetch water'..

Also, since the post below....it all culminated in one night I lay in

bed and every cell in my body became Love. I was one complete being

of Love....thats all I was....I can't even remember the thoughts and

feelings..maybe there wasn't any....just Love - thats IT - full stop.

Next I remember waking up in the morning feeling a bit more normal as

the feeling gradually subsided inside of me somewhere...

I'm so happy to be here on the list and to share in all of your

wonderful energy..

with love

Amaargi

(Anne)

, chrism

wrote:

>

> This is an early account of the " becoming " aspect of the Kundalini.

The is typically reached after holding the K for a period of time in

surrender and allowing the changes to take place. Even though the

intensity and difficulty inside the trasnformation can be hard...here

is what can happen and is happening to another Kundalini friend, now

in this realtime.......

> Hi Chris..everyone..

>

> I'm only just back on today and trying to catch up

> with the emails.

>

> There's so much that I want to share with you

> all...I'm really hoping this is the ending of the

> process....I'm awakening as a healer...

>

> The other night I had visions of snakes particularly

> at the bottom of my feet where it all started for me

> with the energy..then rising from there to my sexual

> chakra..

>

> I spent a long long time 'shedding' the skin....the

> new me emerging from it..

>

> The kidney area is thudding and seems to be associated

> with the child inside that is disolving...the new me

> is an adult..all grown up. Appears to me the childish

> ego is disolving...

>

> Shiva is in a beautiful egg...like a Fabrege egg...all

> diamonds and gold...very handsome too.. *smile* Saw

> An elephant with a beautiful headress all diamonds and

> gold....magnificent!..

>

> I have a 'magical' child...glittering in beautiful

> soft shades of blue, soft lavender and

> pink....fairies, toadstools, all the fairy stories of

> cinderella, sleeping beauty.....the jealous queen is

> there too...a part of me..

>

> Soooo much....I'll have to write more later..

>

> For now I've just picked out this email to respond to

> because as I was reading it I received a beautiful

> soft healing energy from it which eased the thumping

> in the kidneys....thank you Chris..

>

> Before I came on I had a couple of hours contemplating

> and as I did I kept feeling the desire to serve...'in

> loving service'...the christ consciousness there,

> smiling at me from above..

> It's a soft thread of thought and feeling so I kept still and quiet

and

> followed the gentle thread...

>

> I could see I'm meant to serve 'in loving

> service'...and didn't know which way to go...how to do

> this...then I read the emails about sending healing

> through the list and I opened the emails of John and

> Chris giving permission to heal...

>

> and I felt this enormous gratitude well up inside of

> me that I started crying....in humbleness...and

> gratitude that you will allow me this...a gift that

> you have given to me by giving permission..

>

> It's hard to explain....I'm not doing anything to or

> for you....you are doing something for me by allowing

> me to send healing..

>

> It's so mixed up the feelings are confused...but I

> expect it's because its all so new to me....

>

> still trying to hold on the the fragile thread as the

> ego is still disolving and protesting about it a

> little...

>

> I haven't sent healing, tho this appears obvious it's

> something I'm meant to do..I need to think about it

> more...not knowing how to go about it correctly yet..

>

> Two or maybe three nights ago..not sure exactly...the

> enrgy in my hands spread throught my whole body and my

> whole body became a 'healing' thing/object? I

> experimented when I had a pain in my right shin I lay

> my left leg over it and I felt the healing flow

> through.

>

> This mornings contemplation helped me realise and have

> the feeling that if any one came near me now..even to

> sit in my aura they would be healed. Don't know if

> this will stay this way or fade back inside of me...

>

> My dog keeps jumping on my knee and blisses

> out.....lol..

>

> I'm sobbing in gratitude and laughing with

> happiness...

>

> Will write again when the emotions are settled....but

> if I keep reading your emails and feeling your

> beautiful energy then it's going to start them off

> again *smile* *sob*...hehe...

>

> The 'family' feeling here is strong too....ohh

> gawd...I'm a mess...

>

> God bless you all..

>

October 25, 2005

Hi Anne

Good on you yes I am here as well.:-)

All the best

John Mathieson

-

ama_ar_gi

Tuesday, October 25, 2005 10:14 PM

Re: The becoming