Guest guest Posted November 8, 2005 Report Share Posted November 8, 2005 my lack of self aggrandizment is really resistance and denial...which I know is what I shouldn't do....yet at the same time it's healthy as it stops the ego from getting too big Reading your reply makes me forcibly face it all...even on this weird and crazy kundalini ascension path I do seem to have experiences and others don't...still can't say that I'm 'special' tho 'rare' would sit more comfortable with me. Ha! Just as I wrote that I remembered something special that happened only last night as I stood outside and looked at the stars. It felt orgasmic to me...a tantric experience I suppose, just me and God/Creator and it was love/eroticism all blended in together. I loved, honoured and craved to be physically closer to Him/Is/All that I then understood why ancient cultures built pyramids and temples on high mountains...to climb higher to get closer.. Then I came to the understanding in that I'm not special...only rare...because it's us, our society that have blocked it all out with our busy lifestyles and blinkered vision. Ancient peoples were more in touch with nature, had less busyness, less distractions. So the majority of the population on the Earth where intune and closer. It's not me thats rare.....I should be the norm....it's everyone else on the planet, (except K and awakened people/s) that are living in ignorance..they are the misfits not me... Maybe using the word misfit isn't correct but it's just the harsh reality of what has happened in my life..how hard the journey has been..I still don't feel complete gratitue for it all...the price has been too hard and too high... After my 'emergence' I went through a mourning of what I lost, what I missed out on and how it affected those around me. It's hardest when we are parents and it affects our children and loved ones...if I had the chance again I wouldn't do it...maybe my point of view will change when I have finished my mourning... This feeling is also associated with the golden halo...in some aspects it's like the crown of thorns..the sacrifice. Hope I don't sound too morbid....It's not a deep depression that I'm in...more of a meloncholy mourning...honouring my feelings and the 'Earth' part of the whole being that I am. love to you all Amaargi > Sat, 5 Nov 2005 01:47:42 -0800 (PST) > <> > Re: Luminous footprints/ Golden halo points > > White is the spiritual and the gold represents the > persons ascendancy or acquisition of the ascendant > platform. The base metal or prima materia to the > Gold or highest evolution for the physical form. As > far as the shape it takes it is that of the halo. > The inner Sun externalized. Temples should feel a > pressure on both sides. Why it is pointing outward > and not upward for you is a matter of time and the > work that you do with these gifts. Outward towards > those of your nature, upward towards God. Also the > incoming and outgoing of information and experience > is another aspect I'm getting with this for you. > > This is a custom read for you Ann as you are going > into areas that exceed most common experience. You > have a high degree of activation/awakening. Not all > will recieve your gifts so this should not be > interpreted as a standard event. Ann, your > development is perhaps of the rare quality, I'm sure > you wont feel this as it isn't your nature to self > aggrandizement and I do not do this for that > purpose. Selena may have some imput for you here as > well. I'm stating what appears for me, about you, in > a verbal and vision format. There are most certainly > going to be aspects of your experience that will > defy my humble skills. Please allow me to learn what > happens for you as you proceed with your experience. > Any help I can offer you will be given for the > asking. - love - chrism > > > __ Take your Mail with you - get Mail on your mobile http://au.mobile./mweb/index.html Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 9, 2005 Report Share Posted November 9, 2005 There are folks who have similar experiences Amaargi. On this list even. With all the electrical experience and entity involvement and feelings. One person here has and has had tremendous Halo activity and she will speak if she wishes. Its that you are surrendering and embracing and reaching with yours that makes yours wonderful and healing and unusual. As you progress all whom you touch with your words and experience will be helped a step or a light year depending on their level of surrender. - in love and consideration - chrism Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 9, 2005 Report Share Posted November 9, 2005 Dear Amaargi You like we, we are on the doorstep. The full realisation still needs to be completed we are knocking on the door waiting to adjudication to the destination of service. The thing is we feel we are not special we have only began to step into adulthood when you look behind you see the children still playing in the play pens with there toys. With worried eyes we look at the responsibility of adulthood we feel we are bit to young. though when we look ahead of the infinite glory and bliss through the true colours of love and understanding we know we are on the path and can never return and feel happy again if we choose to return. I believe we have to move forward and that you belive so as well. From the nursery thus we came, to the children we may or may not seem special though to us the children always will be special. I hope you dont mid me saying so,You are are special to me cause I feel I was aware of what you were going through The last moon also effected me I also witnessed it's effects on others It is my belief that it conjuctured with some type of group initiation Om tat sat om Jaganatha - amaargi Wednesday, November 09, 2005 6:13 PM Re: Lumnous footprints/Golden halo points my lack of self aggrandizment is really resistance and denial...which I know is what I shouldn't do....yet at the same time it's healthy as it stops the ego from getting too big Reading your reply makes me forcibly face it all...even on this weird and crazy kundalini ascension path I do seem to have experiences and others don't...still can't say that I'm 'special' tho 'rare' would sit more comfortable with me. Ha! Just as I wrote that I remembered something special that happened only last night as I stood outside and looked at the stars. It felt orgasmic to me...a tantric experience I suppose, just me and God/Creator and it was love/eroticism all blended in together. I loved, honoured and craved to be physically closer to Him/Is/All that I then understood why ancient cultures built pyramids and temples on high mountains...to climb higher to get closer.. Then I came to the understanding in that I'm not special...only rare...because it's us, our society that have blocked it all out with our busy lifestyles and blinkered vision. Ancient peoples were more in touch with nature, had less busyness, less distractions. So the majority of the population on the Earth where intune and closer. It's not me thats rare.....I should be the norm....it's everyone else on the planet, (except K and awakened people/s) that are living in ignorance..they are the misfits not me... Maybe using the word misfit isn't correct but it's just the harsh reality of what has happened in my life..how hard the journey has been..I still don't feel complete gratitue for it all...the price has been too hard and too high... After my 'emergence' I went through a mourning of what I lost, what I missed out on and how it affected those around me. It's hardest when we are parents and it affects our children and loved ones...if I had the chance again I wouldn't do it...maybe my point of view will change when I have finished my mourning... This feeling is also associated with the golden halo...in some aspects it's like the crown of thorns..the sacrifice. Hope I don't sound too morbid....It's not a deep depression that I'm in...more of a meloncholy mourning...honouring my feelings and the 'Earth' part of the whole being that I am. love to you all Amaargi > Sat, 5 Nov 2005 01:47:42 -0800 (PST) > <> > Re: Luminous footprints/ Golden halo points > > White is the spiritual and the gold represents the > persons ascendancy or acquisition of the ascendant > platform. The base metal or prima materia to the > Gold or highest evolution for the physical form. As > far as the shape it takes it is that of the halo. > The inner Sun externalized. Temples should feel a > pressure on both sides. Why it is pointing outward > and not upward for you is a matter of time and the > work that you do with these gifts. Outward towards > those of your nature, upward towards God. Also the > incoming and outgoing of information and experience > is another aspect I'm getting with this for you. > > This is a custom read for you Ann as you are going > into areas that exceed most common experience. You > have a high degree of activation/awakening. Not all > will recieve your gifts so this should not be > interpreted as a standard event. Ann, your > development is perhaps of the rare quality, I'm sure > you wont feel this as it isn't your nature to self > aggrandizement and I do not do this for that > purpose. Selena may have some imput for you here as > well. I'm stating what appears for me, about you, in > a verbal and vision format. There are most certainly > going to be aspects of your experience that will > defy my humble skills. Please allow me to learn what > happens for you as you proceed with your experience. > Any help I can offer you will be given for the > asking. - love - chrism > > > __ Take your Mail with you - get Mail on your mobile http://au.mobile./mweb/index.html Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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