Dismemberment and Specters/ Taras private post to

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Thank you Chris, Let me first say that I have not felt such a connection and

a respect as I do on this list with other lists or teachers. The shadow side

and ego on some other lists is very blatant and I find myself wanting more

heart in those transactions. There have been some jealousy and competition

that I have sensed with others, and though I trust they have been K awakened,

being K awake and being egoless are not one in the same. That is not to say I

am egoless, not in the least! I just have the intention to lead with my heart

and I feel you aspire to do the same. As far as dismemberment goes, I

want it on some level because I know it is time and I need to go through it,

but I am frightened. I have not really wanted to " see " because I am fearful

of what I will experience. The entities around me know this and are waiting

for me to want to go to the next level. I want to and I don't. It's like

jumping off the cliff -- am I ready? Is

the Goddess Tara ready for the next phase? It is safe here, to experience

the pleasant physical manifestations and the familiar emotional turmoil. I

wish to be opened to a richer and more multifaceted connection to Spirit, yet

part of me, as you know, clings to my comforting narrow beliefs. I know you

can help initiate this next phase of my development, and yes I want that. Yet

I need to be available for my life, school, my children. I am a single

mother and need a strong foundation. I cannot be writhing on my living room

floor or getting caught in Samadhi visions for hours. I have done my share

of writhing, and my daughters are used to it. I am a very practical

Capricorn! And yes I want to Grow, more than anything. With all that said,

Show me. Tara

 

 

tara_tuttare <tara_tuttare wrote: Perhaps would post the

message I sent to him personally. Would you? This subject

has been on my mind continually for the last few days. I have been looking up

information

on the internet and in books I have to help prepare me. I have given much

thought to

where I would go to allow this to take place in safety and privacy.

 

Thank you Barbara for sharing your experience. It makes it more real and less

frightening

for me. Nothing is happening out of the ordinary for me at the moment, other

than I have

been dreaming alot about riding bicycles, ha ha. Brett, you are probably closer

to this

than I am right now. They are knocking on your door! Go in courage brother.

 

I want to share a passage I got from a book on Taditional Symbols by J.C.

Cooper:

 

Dismemberment: The death and rebirth symbolism of initiation; the necessity of

the death

of the self before reintegration and rebirth; the two complementary phases of

disentegration and reintegration. It also represents unity giving way to

fragmentation,

multiplicity and disintegration of creation, the many rising out of the One.

Dismemberment is closely connected with sacrifice. Gods, such as Osiris,

Zagreus,

Dionysos, dismembered and scattered and reintegrated, represent the mulitplicity

of the

manifest world in creation and the final restoration of primordial unity.

Mystic

dismemberment can be a feature of the initiation of a Shaman.

 

But we already knew this didn't we? El Collie wrote about it in her website as

an inevitable

part of the kundalini journey. May we all face our own initiation with bravery

and trust.

 

Tara