Guest guest Posted January 8, 2006 Report Share Posted January 8, 2006 Hi, Let me preface these experiences by saying I came close to death 3 times, was asked if I wanted to stay or leave but if I stayed, the agreement was to go into whatever was presented of spiritual learning and to trust it would be in my best interest. I choose to stay and learn and surrender to whatever comes, be it logical in my life or not. These things came after the origional K event. So my experience was a bit different than what has been discribed in the dismemberment writings. I was meditating, went out into the familure black endless void, saw a golden sort of grid or cage form around my body and then my body slowly disappeared and my beingness was sort of hanging within this golden cage in the vastness. I was very scared as my " mind " though that " I " should fall and I felt the emormity of the space all around and underneath me but I went through the terror and began to understand there was nothing of substance to " fall " nor was there gravity. Eventually with the terror more or less under control the cage also disappeard and I was just out there, comfortable unless I thought about it and blended into the oneness. And in total bliss and amazement. I was told by guides long before that to practice putting more " space " between the atoms of my body and I had no idea what that meant but found I was able to do it if I did not think about it. And I put more and more space (dissolved more and more until I wondered if I was invisable) between the matter and was able to hold it and experience the sensation for longer periods. I would go to the point of when I got really scared about actually disappearing and then just a bit more and then sort of hold it and experience what that felt like. But I did not know why I was asked to do this. And before that I saw, several times, everything turn into moving granular bits, usually sort of shining. So I could still operate in the world pretty well (or as well as one can when ones mind is in total amazement and my mouth was probaby agape with wonder too!) but everything was in bits, shining and moving sort of like a TV screen without a picture but in color. Lovley! Bye, Sherri Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 8, 2006 Report Share Posted January 8, 2006 Hey Sherri- What wonderful experiences, thanks for sharing. These topics are fascinating for me. Thanks Tara for the quote - " It also represents unity giving way to fragmentation, multiplicity and disintegration of creation, the many rising out of the One. " This seems more accurate of my overall experience of the K. Day one I felt fractured as I was being directed to draw in a way which left my intellect completely on the wayside, (which really pissed it off.) Then I had experiences of multiplicity of identity, which I really can't explain now them being rather fleeting although strong at the time. I find often in my experiences that my attention goes to the particulars rather than the unity, the interaction of disparate parts over the vision of the whole. I did a painting which included leaf debris in the thick paint mixture. The only colors were brighter orange in the background with an orange tint in front. This image had an incredible presence (which unfortunately decreased when the tint color dried darker than when wet.) In contemplating the image and its presence the more fully the presence came forward the more the image would break up in all the textual detail. It was very dynamic to see this presence forming at the same time as it was braking up into many pieces. It wasn't an ecstatic type experience but the great contrast was very provocative. I called it " The Culmination of Dissolvement. " In reinterpreting the words I heard the other night. " Don't let the big one bite or the bits will die in your sleep " , I get a more consistent meaning to these other notions. The bite of the big one is the pull to seeing the unity. The bits die in a sleep that a perception of unity puts on them. That is: if unity (the big one) grabs your attention (bites) then the bits disappear (die) from a lack of conscious attention (sleep.) That the phrase also has a boogey man and dismemberment feel to me just makes it more complex and tasty. Oh and Sherri, many years ago I also had a vastness experience while walking down the street. Even though my feet were on the ground it was still a long way down in every direction. Spooky but fun!! Thanks to everyone for helping me see something more- Bret On Jan 8, 2006, at 11:29 AM, kindkalie wrote: > Hi, > > Let me preface these experiences by saying I came close to death 3 > times, was asked if I wanted to stay or leave but if I stayed, the > agreement was to go into whatever was presented of spiritual learning > and to trust it would be in my best interest. I choose to stay and > learn and surrender to whatever comes, be it logical in my life or > not. These things came after the origional K event. > > So my experience was a bit different than what has been discribed in > the dismemberment writings. I was meditating, went out into > the familure black endless void, saw a golden sort of grid or cage > form around my body and then my body slowly disappeared and my > beingness was sort of hanging within this golden cage in the vastness. > I was very scared as my " mind " though that " I " should fall and I felt > the emormity of the space all around and underneath me but I went > through the terror and began to understand there was nothing of > substance to " fall " nor was there gravity. Eventually with the terror > more or less under control the cage also disappeard and I was just out > there, comfortable unless I thought about it and blended into the > oneness. And in total bliss and amazement. > > I was told by guides long before that to practice putting more " space " > between the atoms of my body and I had no idea what that meant but > found I was able to do it if I did not think about it. And I put more > and more space (dissolved more and more until I wondered if I was > invisable) between the matter and was able to hold it and experience > the sensation for longer periods. I would go to the point of when I > got really scared about actually disappearing and then just a bit more > and then sort of hold it and experience what that felt like. But I did > not know why I was asked to do this. > > And before that I saw, several times, everything turn into moving > granular bits, usually sort of shining. So I could still operate in > the world pretty well (or as well as one can when ones mind is in > total amazement and my mouth was probaby agape with wonder too!) but > everything was in bits, shining and moving sort of like a TV screen > without a picture but in color. > > Lovley! > > Bye, > Sherri > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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