Tara's update

[Guest guest]

Not much is happening in the scope of kundalini. I am still clearing

old emotional patterns, and having a hard time finding my balance

at times.

 

Took my girls snowboarding yesterday. I am sore all over my body.

But what a blast! Afterward we went to a hot springs and while

sitting alone in one of the caves I had a spontaneous emotional

catharsis. With it came a past life memory of being a young man

(perhaps 18?) and being imprisoned and eventually hanged. I had

the feeling that I was abandoned by God. The young man kept

expecting God to show himself and rescue him. The crime was

a political/religious one, heresy or something (15th Century). I

had a body catharsis about this past life a year ago. I knew I did

nothing wrong, yet was being punished with my life. In the body

release, I went through the anquish of reliving the fear of death,

and finally my body went through the hanging again with the help

of my boyfriend at the time. I put his hands around my neck to

simulate the noose, and struggled, I had the sensation of getting an

erection, and finally died.

 

In this memory, in the hot springs, I realized I cannot be without

God. Much of my grief lately has been about separation and now

I know why. It has been playing out in my memory alot lately,

this grief over separation. It was explained very well in Stan

Grof's books on the parinatal matrix, and explains the process

I am now in. I was born with forceps and have relived the birth

process vividly, with smells, tastes, and visions of hovering above

my little baby body. I could see the doctor and the nurse, and

I felt sick. My mom went through twilight sleep and they had to

pull me out. So all of these memories are playing out as I sort

through them and try to release their hold on my emotions.

 

The Kundalini is tingling under my skin up to my heart chakra.

I feel the energy in the front and back of my body, and all over.

I also feel like the top of my head is missing, or a bowl is around

the top of my head (baby halo?). Alot of tingling and heat at

night. I wake often with energy shooting up through my feet and

into my hands. My dreams are becoming more frequent, but they

leave before I can catch them in my conscious net. They seem to

be mundane, like processing everyday life.

 

So that's it for now. Welcome to the new members. I look forward to

hearing about you and your experiences as well.

 

Chris, I would like to see if we could hold a seminar in Fort Collins. I

don't know how much time I can devote to it now, but still have it in

mind. Glen, Susan, and Robert are working here together, but they are more

in the Denver area. There is always room in my opinion. So I will see

if it feels right and what I can commit to.

 

Bye for now, Tara

[Guest guest]

All that you have written falls into the scope of the Kundalini. Clearing the

old emotional patterns is an act of removing blockage. The Kundalini is prepping

you for a much stronger and more complete flow. Some things are coming to me

from what you have written, I ask your permission to comment and do not intend

embarrassment or hurt.....if i may.....

 

Physical exertion releases or loosens old patterns stuck inside aspects of our

physical natures. Your snowboarding may contribute to your internal balancing.

Watch those knees! It also helps the reconnection's from the dismemberment.

 

With the past life recall can also come an opportunity for learning the lesson

that the young man died with in his mind, but only for a moment, as he was

rescued but not in the way he was expecting. The reasons for the hanging perhaps

can shed light but they pale into insignificance with the thought upon his mind

as he approached the gallows. The realization that God had betrayed him. As he

was tied and the noose tightened and the floor dropped out from under him his

betrayal was confirmed. For that brief time. Where is the teaching here? That we

cannot expect help from God in our time of perceived need? That as we smother

and drown, bleed and break that there is no one, no thing that will help us?

Perhaps.

 

I would suggest that as we call out to God that there is another deeper and

more private area in which to communicate. That as we - as a population - still

rely on externalizing our deity, and missing the very point of the gifts we have

been given, that we can reach inside to quench our thirst for help and

sustenance. Inside to the God(s) that reside in us, in our heart chakra and

around us for our needs to be met. The ones that might suggest you leave the

country that wont let you believe as you wish, or work as you wish or express as

you wish. Even now in our country most do not understand this. It is a gift of

the Kundalini that can bring these and other gifts into sharper focus.

 

If you have feelings of betrayal because of his experience allow him to teach

that God is here inside always and she will never leave you though your choices

will be respected even as you scream in agony. He will help and guide you and

come to you but you must pay attention and trust.

 

Another item:

Is being born with metal worse than being born with dirt

or filthy hands or flea bitten rags held in the arms of a poor mother? I would

suggest that as we take form we know the circumstances of our birth, that if a

metal tool is used we are not traumatized any more than if a hand was reached in

and we are dragged out of the mother. Are we all traumatized because of the

tools available to the birthing at our time of entrance? What about the

fluorescent lights and the EMF from the equipment? Or the ceiling tiles , which

are never cleaned, raining down a cloud of noxious dust for new lungs to inhale.

I have heard of the forceps theory and if its true Tara may we all be born that

way as a prelude to the Kundalini that you have flowing. For me its just -

Welcome to the physical world! Metal, dirt, fleas, and all. -thanks for getting

this far -

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

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