Report to Sector K

April 29, 2006

Hello all-

I hope everyone is well and thriving, at least striving.

I want to report some discoveries. Let me preface that the language I

use is for convenience sake to point to something which the given

vocabulary cannot describe accurately, so my description must be

excused from a rigid exactness.

A return to doing artwork after a break due to a move to a new studio

has brought a deepening in the understanding of how to perform the

practice. The practice as it has been is a follows; while I am at the

palette, I recite my simple yet effecting prayer of gratitude to

divinity (both incarnate and ethereal) and say the words of my gravity

mediation to give maximum relaxation. At the art board while I am

drawing my approach consists of three reminders in three words,

" gravity " to retain a relaxed body, " look " to retain a certain visual

attention to the image, and " spirit " which is to bring forward the

sensation and surrendering to that which directs the drawing.

The specific visual attention that " look " refers to is also a surrender

of seeing. The image opens up in a particular way when this is

approached correctly. It is not so much as looking as it is happening

to see what is being shown to me. It requires less attention and more

surrendering, sort of a sidelong glance outside of any expectation.

A week ago at one point during drawing I was reminded of an experience

in the early days of my drawing. At that time while drawing I suddenly

felt a very strong presence behind me. This being seemed about nine

feet tall and had a very intense presence. It's attention was on what I

was doing, not on me at all. It was like a very high ranking individual

that was checking in on some activity in it's domain but was so

elevated that it could give no attention to any of the participants of

the activity. What struck me was the great power of this being's

presence, more than I have ever felt, and the intensity of its

attention on what I was doing coupled with what seemed a very

impersonal attitude.

What reminded me of this was that my viewing of the image during the

recent drawing session seemed to mirror the sensation I had of the

being in the earlier experience. The experienced intensity of the

viewing increased at the same time as my involvement with it diminished

giving a powerful sensation that was at the same time very removed.

I have told of my experience of this being to a few, a couple of which

have not given a favorable opinion of this being's intentions. But

after I thought of this former event during my recent drawing

experience I now consider that it was perhaps a lesson to me. This

being was showing something to me, something to emulate to in my

practice. Over three years later I think I am now ready to get it.

For the rest of the drawing session I included this approach into my

practice and it proved to be very effective. The intensity of the

visual stimulation, the kryias that are part of the drawing and the

general altered and powerful sensations that can come from the practice

were very high. By remembering and emulating the sensation of this

teacher in my past it seemed I could create a certain witnessing of

myself engaged in ecstasy that augments the ecstasy greatly.

The next day I used this approach at a dance class I use to engage in

my practice and again I found it to be effecting. So there is

confirmation that this approach functions.

Let me add some thoughts on this development. In my ecstatic

experiences I have never lost my sense of self as is sometimes

described in the experiences of others. However in this approach I can

view myself from a sort of distance and thereby somehow gain a fuller

surrender as well as a greater dissociation that is often noted of

these states. I can see the surrender of my will to the shaking,

moaning and perceptually enhanced creature that I become, even greater

than before. I do not see myself personally involved in the

transformation that comes, but removed from it.

There is also a sense of who it is that sees from a distance, what I am

thinking of as my other body. This I have described before. It is light

and penetrable but very hard and consistent in form, which seems like a

big bubble. It is very still and has no real sense of its axis, up or

down. This is something very subtle and of course not at all continuous

but which is becoming more and more familiar when the perception of it

comes. So there is an essential division in my being coming forth in

these experiences, that which surrenders and that which watches.

Neither of which seems at all close to my person.

Let me be critical for a moment, but hopefully in a way that gives

others an opening. Much of what I say is contrary to certain

traditional or even contemporary descriptions of what an ecstatic

experience is or should represent, but does correlate to others. For me

there is no great growth of sentiment, what I can describe as the realm

of the soul. There is no sense of greater contentment, of a greater

unity, or an expansion of the movement of the personal heart. I have

heard of this as the culmination of spiritual development. but so far

this is not in my experience. I know that this will bring on nay sayers

as to the authenticity to my experience. However I do not consider

there to be anything lacking in my development. How could I?

The forgoing of fundamental attachment and the practice of being a

witness to action is a traditional teaching and this has some

correlation to my experience. However I must add that for me this is

functioning under my ecstatic experiences. In that I must state that an

undertaking of these practices would not necessarily lead to ecstasy.

They seem more as tools of clearing to let the experience culminate. If

there is no fuel for the engine, a tune up will not cause it to run. I

can surmise how these practices may benefit daily life experience, but

engaging in them in the hope that they might spark the holy fire seems

perhaps a dubious approach.

And lastly a thought on transcendence as there is no doubt something

transcendent happening with me. Transcendence is a reoccurring theme in

spiritual traditions. Transcendence is often thought of as surmounting

problems, of gaining a higher, purer and better perspective or

attaining greater peace. But it is also possible to include in the

definition of transcendence the notion of disruption. It would not be

illogical to define the going outside of the normal order as

subversion. Even if there is culmination ultimately there is most

probably subversion as well. I do not consider it necessarily a bad

indication to experience it in this way and think that many would

agree. And in many traditions it is definitely noted as such.

My lesson here is to stand your ground in your development. Your

subjectivity is yours alone. The subversion, the culmination, the

lessons are yours. Be careful in your analysis based on what comes

externally. A thousand year tradition is a thousand years of hearsay.

No one ever wrote about you specifically, know that.

Love Bret

April 30, 2006

Hello Bret!

Welcome back and what good news in your journey! Sounds to me

like a type of bi-location is beginning to emerge. Also see the being as a kind

of teacher for you and I would not be surprised to find you continuously

accessing old data that in the present seems new. It takes time to process much

of this.

Most folks respond to entities with negativity or fear. The best thing I feel

is to pay attention to how YOU feel. Fear not withstanding and let that decide

your action.

The culmination of a spiritual or energetic event is largely up to the

individual having it. That being said it is common for the heart to be opened

and expanded and yet not a requirement. This may come later. Or not as this is

the unique quality of your flow. Time will tell.

Maybe its just me but I know of no hard and fast rules of what an ecstatic

experience should be. There are similarities sometimes, sometimes not. Its

again, individual.

A great progression in your understandings seems to have taken place. You are

the one and only Kriya artist that I have ever heard of. Your experience seems

to be gaining momentum and the lay of the land ahead will challenge your engine

- keep him gassed and tuned! heh.

No nay sayers can understand where you have gone until they go. So no worries.

Good to hear from you Bret and

Bret Arenson <bretarenson wrote: