Guest guest Posted May 2, 2006 Report Share Posted May 2, 2006 First hello to both John E and John R. Then to all of you wherever you may be. Currently some of my experiences have changed. Since this past Jan i had heat /cold............movements of energy ''doing''its thing,little pains some nausea,all sorts of adjustments going on. Fatigue etc,and my work changed. Couple weeks a go some little burning in feet and legs but only for a couple days. Now all the symptoms have gone like nothing is going on. Not even the smallest Kriya's. But for the last 2 weeks or so i am aware of a Blue Goddess inside me.She is as big as me at times. She is really rather Kind of nice,much more present as i do the practise and meditate of course. At times definately the ''The Boss'',if its time to do some of the practise ............well if its time it can't wait. Also i have seen a large Tai/Chi inside me revolving bigger than a beach ball lets say from base chakra to the neck in size,it revolves when i do Micro/Macro Orbit.Revolving forwards.It's like a globe. Now the Blue Lady has been pushing me too ............on concepts/some beliefs,some things i always thought were true have kinda vanished or i see things quite differently. Another view point. The Blue Lady is and i don;t really have words for it well 'she' is part of me somehow,dare i say like a new ''girlfriend'',its kinda weird but yet OK and soothing and she belongs. Had some changes with emotions too,prob mostly subtle fears are dissolving,in fact i have a fearless ness and determination which is quite strong ..................like ''bring it on'' lets get going. There had been a problem with a person who organised my students''lots of complaints about that person'' today i gracefully sent her out of my work situation,was a letting go of that which is not in service. The grace was required but really i fired her. Healthy for all like a divorce is supposed to be. But see part of it had been her control issues and subtle vindictivness,you kow it when people are like this ..............but you can't quite see enough issues or get hold of the tricky energy,to deal with it.Then all of a sudden its ''clear''and the energy is gone,done with,gone in grace. The snake idea well its vague for me but i think i see at least ''one'' stretches right up to my neck/ face in front. Amazing that i aint scared either........................actually i am quite happy with both the snake and the lady. But why one snake and not two, i thought they were supposed to go up the spine,don't feel anything there now. Oh had 2 dreams too.................................not usual for me to remember. The one i could see a part of me as a woman, and she looked small thin and actually not too healthy, kinda needed healing,so in the drean she became my patient,she was dressed a bit like a nun.I think she will live.Ha Ha Second one i was in the mountains at a conference or studying way up at say 10,000 feet. I go to leave and my bicycle has gone cant go down the mountain cos somebody stole it. Then i see another in its place much fancier than mine more complicated and harder to control and ride. So i get part way down the mountain and another fellow says its his bike and wants it back,as he takes it ,i see the saddle cover is peeling off ,its old and wizened and about 1/2 to 2/3rds off. The new saddle underneath does not look too comfortable tho................... a bit of a racer saddle you know hard and sleek. So he takes that bike and now i was left without one .............then i wake up!!!!! Now this is a long scribe for me so will add when there is something to say. God Bless you all R...................................... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 2, 2006 Report Share Posted May 2, 2006 Hi Richard, Sounds like you've got some interesting stuff going on. And it seems to me that if you're remembering dreams, you might be sleeping a little better? Has that improved? JE , richardstuart wrote: > > First hello to both John E and John R. Then to all of you wherever you may be. > > Currently some of my experiences have changed. > Since this past Jan i had heat /cold............movements of energy ''doing''its thing,little pains some nausea,all sorts of adjustments going on. > Fatigue etc,and my work changed. > Couple weeks a go some little burning in feet and legs but only for a couple days. > > Now all the symptoms have gone like nothing is going on. Not even the smallest Kriya's. > > But for the last 2 weeks or so i am aware of a Blue Goddess inside me.She is as big as me at times. > She is really rather Kind of nice,much more present as i do the practise and meditate of course. > At times definately the ''The Boss'',if its time to do some of the practise ...........well if its time it can't wait. > Also i have seen a large Tai/Chi inside me revolving bigger than a beach ball lets say from base chakra to the neck in size,it revolves when i do Micro/Macro Orbit.Revolving forwards.It's like a globe. > > Now the Blue Lady has been pushing me too ............on concepts/some beliefs,some things i always thought were true have kinda vanished or i see things quite differently. Another view point. > > The Blue Lady is and i don;t really have words for it well 'she' is part of me somehow,dare i say like a new ''girlfriend'',its kinda weird but yet OK and soothing and she belongs. > > Had some changes with emotions too,prob mostly subtle fears are dissolving,in fact i have a fearless ness and determination which is quite strong .................like ''bring it on'' lets get going. > > There had been a problem with a person who organised my students''lots of complaints about that person'' today i gracefully sent her out of my work situation,was a letting go of that which is not in service. The grace was required but really i fired her. Healthy for all like a divorce is supposed to be. But see part of it had been her control issues and subtle vindictivness,you kow it when people are like this ..............but you can't quite see enough issues or get hold of the tricky energy,to deal with it.Then all of a sudden its ''clear''and the energy is gone,done with,gone in grace. > > The snake idea well its vague for me but i think i see at least ''one'' stretches right up to my neck/ face in front. > Amazing that i aint scared either........................actually i am quite happy with both the snake and the lady. > But why one snake and not two, i thought they were supposed to go up the spine,don't feel anything there now. > > Oh had 2 dreams too.................................not usual for me to remember. > The one i could see a part of me as a woman, and she looked small thin and actually not too healthy, kinda needed healing,so in the drean she became my patient,she was dressed a bit like a nun.I think she will live.Ha Ha > > Second one i was in the mountains at a conference or studying way up at say 10,000 feet. > I go to leave and my bicycle has gone cant go down the mountain cos somebody stole it. Then i see another in its place much fancier than mine more complicated and harder to control and ride. > So i get part way down the mountain and another fellow says its his bike and wants it back,as he takes it ,i see the saddle cover is peeling off ,its old and wizened and about 1/2 to 2/3rds off. The new saddle underneath does not look too comfortable tho................... a bit of a racer saddle you know hard and sleek. > So he takes that bike and now i was left without one ..............then i wake up!!!!! > > Now this is a long scribe for me so will add when there is something to say. > > > > God Bless you all R...................................... > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 2, 2006 Report Share Posted May 2, 2006 Hello ..................yes i found a chinese herbal combination here in town. I take one capsule i get 5/6 hrs sleep. I take 2 i get maybe 7 hrs,have not slept for more than 2 1/2 to 3 hrs a night for maybe 30yrs. You can imagine the shock of sleeping that long ,at first,it was weird,had to learn to walk again each morning. felt silly ,giddy, even a bit drunk till i got used to it ...........but oh so sweet. It great and it is a blessing i'm very gratefull,but you know me its not a cure yet. Some day Someday.............R........................ - " nologo3 " <nologo81 Tuesday, May 02, 2006 9:27 PM Re: Just an update > Hi Richard, > > Sounds like you've got some interesting stuff going on. And it > seems to me that if you're remembering dreams, you might be > sleeping a little better? Has that improved? JE > > > , > richardstuart wrote: >> >> First hello to both John E and John R. Then to all of you > wherever you may be. >> >> Currently some of my experiences have changed. >> Since this past Jan i had heat /cold............movements of > energy ''doing''its thing,little pains some nausea,all sorts of > adjustments going on. >> Fatigue etc,and my work changed. >> Couple weeks a go some little burning in feet and legs but only > for a couple days. >> >> Now all the symptoms have gone like nothing is going on. Not > even the smallest Kriya's. >> >> But for the last 2 weeks or so i am aware of a Blue Goddess > inside me.She is as big as me at times. >> She is really rather Kind of nice,much more present as i do the > practise and meditate of course. >> At times definately the ''The Boss'',if its time to do some of the > practise ...........well if its time it can't wait. >> Also i have seen a large Tai/Chi inside me revolving bigger > than a beach ball lets say from base chakra to the neck in size,it > revolves when i do Micro/Macro Orbit.Revolving forwards.It's like > a globe. >> >> Now the Blue Lady has been pushing me too ............on > concepts/some beliefs,some things i always thought were true > have kinda vanished or i see things quite differently. Another view > point. >> >> The Blue Lady is and i don;t really have words for it well 'she' is > part of me somehow,dare i say like a new ''girlfriend'',its kinda > weird but yet OK and soothing and she belongs. >> >> Had some changes with emotions too,prob mostly subtle > fears are dissolving,in fact i have a fearless ness and > determination which is quite strong .................like ''bring it on'' > lets > get going. >> >> There had been a problem with a person who organised my > students''lots of complaints about that person'' today i gracefully > sent her out of my work situation,was a letting go of that which is > not in service. The grace was required but really i fired her. > Healthy for all like a divorce is supposed to be. But see part of it > had been her control issues and subtle vindictivness,you kow it > when people are like this ..............but you can't quite see enough > issues or get hold of the tricky energy,to deal with it.Then all of a > sudden its ''clear''and the energy is gone,done with,gone in > grace. >> >> The snake idea well its vague for me but i think i see at least > ''one'' stretches right up to my neck/ face in front. >> Amazing that i aint scared either........................actually i am > quite happy with both the snake and the lady. >> But why one snake and not two, i thought they were supposed > to go up the spine,don't feel anything there now. >> >> Oh had 2 dreams too.................................not usual for me to > remember. >> The one i could see a part of me as a woman, and she looked > small thin and actually not too healthy, kinda needed healing,so > in the drean she became my patient,she was dressed a bit like a > nun.I think she will live.Ha Ha >> >> Second one i was in the mountains at a conference or studying > way up at say 10,000 feet. >> I go to leave and my bicycle has gone cant go down the > mountain cos somebody stole it. Then i see another in its place > much fancier than mine more complicated and harder to control > and ride. >> So i get part way down the mountain and another fellow says > its his bike and wants it back,as he takes it ,i see the saddle > cover is peeling off ,its old and wizened and about 1/2 to 2/3rds > off. The new saddle underneath does not look too comfortable > tho................... a bit of a racer saddle you know hard and sleek. >> So he takes that bike and now i was left without one > .............then i wake up!!!!! >> >> Now this is a long scribe for me so will add when there is > something to say. >> >> >> >> God Bless you >> all > R...................................... >> >> >> >> >> >> >> >> >> >> >> >> >> >> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 2, 2006 Report Share Posted May 2, 2006 Hello Richard, You do have the idea that the " Blue lady " is Shakti? And your feminine nature, and the Ida. All at the same time. She is blending with you from many different vectors. I'm not surprised that your on a plateau. Remember that in a professionals point of view the Kundalini will come but for it to come so strong as to knock out that persons livelihood, well that wouldn't be practical from a nurturing platform. You have had it strong before and did what you could to turn her down. So the Goddess is merging with you ever so gently, allowing social and energetic concepts to change your perspectives and proclivities from the indside out. Allowing you to sense her activity inside you. Going gentle yet present. You are fortunate as it doesnt always go like that. You are going great Richard! The pingala will awaken to so no worries there. Your feminine self needs some healing and so that must happen first before the sweeps begin. The sweeps are the male/female divine mergings. They go on for a time - quite pleasant. Keep up your practice even though the tactile sensations are not as present. Remember the need for a time of acclimation. - blessings - chrism Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 3, 2006 Report Share Posted May 3, 2006 Thank you as always. Yes i know its Shakti working inside me,and its very specific too ,i have to be attuned to what is wanted ,what expands ,and what is no longer in service. Thank you all i'm gratefull for the site. R........................... Will look into Messenger. - " chrism " <> Tuesday, May 02, 2006 10:02 PM Re: Just an update > Hello Richard, > You do have the idea that the " Blue lady " is Shakti? > And your feminine nature, and the Ida. All at the same time. She is > blending with you from many different vectors. I'm not surprised that your > on a plateau. Remember that in a professionals point of view the Kundalini > will come but for it to come so strong as to knock out that persons > livelihood, well that wouldn't be practical from a nurturing platform. You > have had it strong before and did what you could to turn her down. So the > Goddess is merging with you ever so gently, allowing social and energetic > concepts to change your perspectives and proclivities from the indside > out. Allowing you to sense her activity inside you. Going gentle yet > present. You are fortunate as it doesnt always go like that. > > You are going great Richard! The pingala will awaken to so no worries > there. Your feminine self needs some healing and so that must happen first > before the sweeps begin. The sweeps are the male/female divine mergings. > They go on for a time - quite pleasant. Keep up your practice even though > the tactile sensations are not as present. Remember the need for a time of > acclimation. - Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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