Guest guest Posted May 4, 2007 Report Share Posted May 4, 2007 Hello, A few thoughts and confessions: I have spent so much of my life fearing the consequences of the foods I may eat and the thoughts I may have or the actions I might take and the resultant shoulds and shouldn'ts of stern gurus and charismaticly convincing (and often very well-meaning) authorities and individuals. As a result of this, I have created an emptiness inside from a lack of self-trust. So, to deal with this, I have often filled myself with the advice and methods and techniques of more experts and gurus and communities of solidarity. Then, inevitably, I would counter these teachings with some form of renegade binging or some other outward or covert rebellion because these experts and wise people would inevitably reveal their fallible hypocrisies. I created myself as a self-absorbed Jealous God: searching for a perfect people and infallible manner of living. I harshly judged those that do not meet my higher, purer moral standards, even taking them through virtual deserts and trials to prove their mettle. It is mirrored in the words and reactions and stories around me; the stern and harsh critics and cold shoulders I so often looked for in my life in order to allay my fears of unknowing. I confess this. I have eaten mostly raw for about 7 months and I have also, in part, brought the attitude detailed above to my diet. Yet this Old Testament-like wrath now seems like a blessing to understand and learn through. I found, once more, I did not know whom or how to trust. Yet again, I surrounded myself with experts and I grew resentful of their hypocrisies and rebelled. I found I did not trust my own research, because I had only given myself the authority to judge the confidence and research of others. I had also lost a great deal of weight. According to the scale, I weigh 145 lbs and I stand at 6'5 " . Many people call this very unhealthy, but I have slowly felt healthier and more psycho- physically integrated than I can remember and it seems sustainable. I have also enjoyed such unconditionally supportive love from so many people, even during my occasional thrashing about through detoxification or the replaying of this cycle of fear (do these have some mutual relationship?). Perhaps the world slowly mirrors my ever growing benevolence towards myself and others more than my past perfectionism. I feel so grateful. I have undone the tautological cycle of mistrust. I have grown more aware that a long book of open ended experiments...hypotheses... " what happens ifs " ..and semi-objecctive observations..might help some people understand healthy living more than all the " Stop! Don't!No!Never!ShouldNot! " 's and other dietary rules. Perhaps here, those interested could work together to create or adapt the shalts and shalt nots of our inherited culture (and, as a side note, the dictates of Codex and the like) into a more non-dogmatic experimental form where each of us can learn to trust ourselves and take on the reins of our own unique lives, whether we have the gifts of great charisma, confidence, and funding, or not. Just some thoughts. Thanks and blessings to you all. -Jonathan Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 4, 2007 Report Share Posted May 4, 2007 Hi Jonathan, Thanks for sharing this! I can really relate. Marjorie www.rawgreenmama.blogspot.com rawfood , " Love Food Lane " <lovefoodlaughter wrote: > A few thoughts and confessions: I have spent so much of my life fearing the > consequences of the foods I may eat and the thoughts I may have or the actions I might > take and the resultant shoulds and shouldn'ts of stern gurus and charismaticly convincing > (and often very well-meaning) authorities and individuals. As a result of this, I have > created an emptiness inside from a lack of self-trust. So, to deal with this, I have often > filled myself with the advice and methods and techniques of more experts and gurus and > communities of solidarity. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 5, 2007 Report Share Posted May 5, 2007 Ah, Jonathon, I resonated so positively with your post. Whenever I hear someone on this list and elsewhere who speaks as if they have THE answer to our questions and concerns, I am skeptical. There are so many different theories and the gurus state their beliefs as if they are truths, which I cannot accept. Suggestions I appreciate but not pronouncements. I believe my own intelligence, body and experience will tell me which suggestions fit well for me. I hope this rawfood list will remain open to all experiences and points of view and not become overly influenced by any gurus trying to convince us that they know the truth...I believe some of them stand to profit financially if we chose to follow them and their advice has a hidden agenda. I may sound overly skeptical, but I have reasons for what I believe here. Take what we like and leave the rest. Sherrard ************************************** See what's free at http://www.aol.com. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 5, 2007 Report Share Posted May 5, 2007 Sherrard, I dont think you sound skeptical at all. I feel the same way. When I read these strict do's and dont's as if one size fits all, instead of addressing a specific situation at hand it can be discouraging. I am also especially skeptical when I read advice that is followed by obvious SPAM. Carla On 5/5/07, guinevieve <guinevieve wrote: > > Ah, Jonathon, > > I resonated so positively with your post. Whenever I hear someone on this > list and elsewhere who speaks as if they have THE answer to our questions > and > concerns, I am skeptical. There are so many different theories and the > gurus > state their beliefs as if they are truths, which I cannot accept. > Suggestions > I appreciate but not pronouncements. I believe my own intelligence, body > and experience will tell me which suggestions fit well for me. > > I hope this rawfood list will remain open to all experiences and points of > > view and not become overly influenced by any gurus trying to convince us > that > they know the truth...I believe some of them stand to profit financially > if > we chose to follow them and their advice has a hidden agenda. > > I may sound overly skeptical, but I have reasons for what I believe here. > Take what we like and leave the rest. > > Sherrard > > > > ************************************** See what's free at > http://www.aol.com. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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