Eating mindfully (WAS: I fell off the wagon (WAS: Garlic Redux))

June 30, 2007

Jeannieh,

Thank you so much. Edgar Cayce said something to the effect of that a person who

harbors negative thoughts and emotions has something within them far more

polluting that the most polluting food. That is not a direct quote, but

something that I garnered from his wise words.

You see, Love is unconditionally accepting. I hear a lot of shoulds and

shouldn't when I hear you speaking, especially about yourself and your

comparisons to others. You expect a certain outcome, which is attempting to fit

yourself into a certain agenda. I want to say this as gently as possible: Please

accept yourself for who you are right now, for anything outside of that is well,

outside of Love.

Being outside of Love is a sure way to muck up the whole works!

So, so suggestions to help you along your way. Whenever you are eating, whatever

that may be, clear out your " mind " completely of all thoughts. Go to the deepest

center of your heart and feel and know that you are okay and everything is okay

and it is all going according to plan. Then, just experience. What are these

thoughts telling you what this is or that is not? They're just thoughts of an

ego-mind which seeks domination and control over all your behaviors -- very

conditional -- like a psycho computer gone really rotten.

If it happens to be a raw vegan meal or even vegan meal for that matter, a

feeling may arise that you are indeed doing your part to be compassionate and

loving, for your choice is helping to heal and create a better reality for

everyone! Your choice has now lessened pain, suffering, pollution and increased

life, vitality and vibrancy for yourself! What a blessed feeling and knowing

this is for anyone that experiences it without words.

Who cares about outcomes? Karma, which is to say, natural, intrinsic law takes

care of all that without us having to think about what is going to happen, it

just does. However, the resistance and insistence of the cognitive mind can and

does throw a wrench into these gears with feelings of panic, obnoxious fears

that are vibratory patterns that do nothing but shake up and destroy beautiful

structures of loving living.

So, next time you're eating that apple, feel your teeth slide across the

individual cells, after having pierced that beautiful skin with a delectable

pop, juices flowing in sweet rivulets, mixing so wholesomely above and beneath

the tongue, meeting and marrying the own juices of your being, flowing essence

down throat into body. It was made for you, by the One Intelligent One, which is

to say, yourself in a far off place that resides in the center of your heart and

the entire Infinity at large. Feel that energy now incorporating into your

being, knowing that anything that is not it, wanting to flee. Remember, no

thinking, be just like you were when you were three, all is alive, full of

vibrancy and that magical essence.

Peace on your Journeys,

Bobby

jeannieh h <jeannieh99 wrote: Bobby,

I sensed and felt a great spirituality in your post. How deep and how

thoughtful you are in your words. I appreciate it greatly.

It's just that I was under the impression that most habits could be developed

in 30-45 days. It is because of this that I felt I should have already developed

the new habit of just wanting raw.

Also I guess I got caught up in all the people declaring their newly found

hatred for sad and the falling numbers on the scale. I just wondered why so many

people are so successful and I am struggling and yet not getting the same

results or even similar. Lots of emotions going on and it does impair my logic.

You are correct about needing patience, this is not one of my virtues...LOL I

am just so sick of looking like I do. I am just so desperate to look better so I

can feel better. I see my dh loosing so much and he is not even trying to be

100%. I just feel it's not fair. LOL

Thank you,

Jeannie

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June 30, 2007

Bobby,

I agree with you about the use of the word " should " . I do tend to use it alot

more than I realize, I think it is out of sheer habit (A bad habit), and

desperation. I think it is just that I want it so badly, I feel like I ought to

be there already. I do need to appreciate me as I am, my logic says that and

understands that. My emotional me looks in the mirror and hates what it sees.

That part of me is not happy with what I look like. When I look in a mirror I am

disgusted, I think to myself, " this is what people see " . They don't get a chance

to see the inside, they are met with the outside. I don't understand why I

sabatoge myself so. I understand the logic of " eat right & excersize " . I am

trying to eat right (raw), I don't exercise except at work. I intend to but

never do at home. I wonder why, knowing what I need to do to get from point a to

point z, why I don't just do it!! I hear people all the time say, " if you want

it badly enough you will do what it takes " . I am

wondering " do I not want it badly enough? " I feel I do. Deep down, I know I

do. Then, I wonder, what is wrong with me that I don't " just do it " . So much

inner conflict. (sigh)

You wrote:

" So, next time you're eating that apple, feel your teeth slide across the