i must be crazy

September 12, 2007

maybe i don't really have a grip on the pulse of mankind at all. i

certainly feel out of touch. i always felt like a stranger in a

strange land. i don't know when or how i was supposed to ever feel

connected to people, but i seem to be drifting every moment. i have

tried to meet other raw fooders, and that became a problem for me,

because i spent less time trying to make friends that weren't raw. the

problem is that, i think that people who eat cooked food are very sad.

it is a meager pathetic slave existence. while they look happy,

sometimes; and healthy, sometimes; i don't believe it.

i once knew an all raw girl around 30 years old. we went on a few

dates. i asked her how she was able to do it, since i was not able to

stay all raw, and she was. she said, " i just can't eat cooked food. "

she meant that it wasn't really a choice she wanted to make, she just

couldn't eat cooked food. i feel that way too. but if i could shoot

heroin, then i could force myself to eat cooked food too. i went

through so many years of very bad belly cramps and pain, without

learning about diet as the main cause. i treated myself like a bad

dog. i keep trying to figure out what i did wrong. did i want

something for nothing? was i scared and sick? am i stupid? am i a

cruel person? why do i deserve this? i have done to my body and life,

what bush and cheney have done to this country. how can i judge the

american people, when i am the stupidest of all.

i walk down the street and see many people. they are eating cooked

food. they have priorities and needs. they have families, jobs, and

they eat food too. the food is not the most important thing in their

lives. they all say they should eat better, and they all believe

doctors can help them heal. they are all wrong. how is it possible

that they are all wrong. it is not conceivable that they are all wrong

and i am right. i must be psychotic. i see things that no one else

sees. i point to them, i say, " see?, do you see it? look there! do you

see it? " they all say no. sometimes i can see that they aren't

looking. they think i am the absurd one. i must be crazy. i see that

they are all dying from the constant daily intake of dead food. it has

been a non-stop form of punishment from which they are never healed.

it gets worse and worse until they die from it. meanwhile, they live

their life in a fog, their minds clouded with the pain of denial. they

live in a fog because their energy level is so low, they can't even

get to epiphany without psychedelic drugs. they seem as mindless

drones. they act selfish because they are in pain. they are cruel

because they live in desperation with ugly egos that are just as sick

and malnourished.

the solution is cooperation and raw food. but maybe i am wrong. maybe

that is only my solution for me. maybe its best for everyone if i

wasn't even here. maybe that is not even the solution for me. i

question my perceptions, because i question their perceptions. it is

not reasonable to assume my perceptions are right, just because

everyone else's is wrong. maybe we are all wrong. i just call them

like i see them. and what i see, is that everyone is wrong. i have met

a few raw fooders in my life, and most of the time, they are crazier

than i. of course that doesn't mean that eating raw food is a mistake.

i think it means that eating cooked food helps you fit into society.

thats why i call it slave food. i believe that our culture has adapted

such that, in order to become aware of the problems with burning our

food, you must first become alienated enough to consider that everyone

else is wrong. maybe that thought is so lonely, it leaves no survivors.

for so many years, the idea of meeting another raw fooder was

exciting; awe-inspiring. but maybe i should give up too. maybe by the

time you have become a raw fooder, you have given up on belonging to a

tribe. you must become so cold and barricaded, or maybe thats just me.

i think i tried to meet other people. maybe i was self-defeating the

whole time. i want to blame it on my parents. how can they be as

stupid as everyone else. and i thought they were gods. i thought they

would protect me. i thought they would teach me. and i died for that

stupid cocky attitude.

i say, how can i be right and everyone else be wrong. that would make

me a genius. and i am certainly not a genius. if i was smarter than

everyone else, i wouldn't be in this situation. i would not have

misjudged all their responses. rawtimes would have caught on. people

would be asking me for help. people would want me around. all i have

to do is see the facts of my life to realize that i am not special in

a good way. i must be delusional. on the other hand, i don't believe

that. i still see what i see. after this water fast, i will start

epiphany21. i will count the days, to see how arbitrary 21 days is. i

say 21 days, because it is a number like: 3 minutes without oxygen , 3

days without water, 3 weeks without food. i know that many people have

claimed to fast for 40 days, but i think it more likely that many

would die after three weeks. in this case, three weeks without cooked

food is what i have noticed in my life as a plausible and tested

hypothesis. i will test it again now.

how can i be right and everyone else be wrong. i consider that maybe

raw food is best for me and not for them. but i don't see that. i

don't really believe that everyone is that different. i believe my

mind is different, but not my chemistry. i wish i could say something

new, instead of repeating the same thing. i am in awe. all the time,

everyday. i can't believe what i see. not only are people eating slave

poison every day and thinking its normal, they elect and support

leaders who are so obviously a bunch of murderous greedy criminals,

that not only are the people dying individually, but the whole country

is dying right before our eyes. the money being transferred from

american debt to arab banks [by our vice-president] is so enormous,

that it is overwhelming for me; that everyone just doesn't say no. i

hope i am wrong. i hope they can put me in a hospital, because the

americans are really good people. yes, i hope they can put me in a

hospital because i am crazy. and the doctors are really good people

who know what they are doing. and in the hospital they can cure me. so

that when i get out, i will be able to eat cooked food again. and it

won't make me sick. and i can follow the government guidelines to know

how many calories and carbs to eat every day. and how i should combine

proteins. and i will work hard so that i can buy organic food

certified by the state. and i will be happy and pay my taxes. and take

medication to keep on being normal. yes. that is what i need. i need

medical care. i must be crazy.

given the possibility that i am right and everyone else is wrong; it

is more probable that this is not even real, and i am not even on

earth. this is a dream, or should i say, a recurring nightmare. a

flash forward, ala jacobs ladder; as bizarre as cow eggs.

who else,

jrellis, of course

the one and only

September 12, 2007

I have something very important to say to you.

YOU ARE GOING TO DIE.

It doesn't matter what the heck you eat...YOU ARE GOING TO DIE. A raw

fooder can die DECADES BEFORE a smoking cooked-fooder, and you may

have no control over it.

People are NOT wrong for eating cooked food. People live 80-90 years,

have children, grandchildren, and great grandchildren, make fortunes,

run the world (both of which need to be done!), fall in love, give

their hard earned money to the poor, etc, all ON COOKED FOOD.

You sound depressed. If going back to cooked food can get you out of

it, I highly recommend it...at least you have the knowledge of raw and

can come back to it or incorporate it 50/50 or something.

Or, you may simply need to add some years to your wisdom, you do sound

a quite " young " to be honest.

Joe

rawfood , " rahtymz " < wrote:

>

> maybe i don't really have a grip on the pulse of mankind at all. i

> certainly feel out of touch. i always felt like a stranger in a

> strange land. i don't know when or how i was supposed to ever feel

> connected to people, but i seem to be drifting every moment. i have

> tried to meet other raw fooders, and that became a problem for me,

> because i spent less time trying to make friends that weren't raw. the

> problem is that, i think that people who eat cooked food are very sad.

> it is a meager pathetic slave existence. while they look happy,

> sometimes; and healthy, sometimes; i don't believe it.

>

> i once knew an all raw girl around 30 years old. we went on a few

> dates. i asked her how she was able to do it, since i was not able to

> stay all raw, and she was. she said, " i just can't eat cooked food. "

> she meant that it wasn't really a choice she wanted to make, she just

> couldn't eat cooked food. i feel that way too. but if i could shoot

> heroin, then i could force myself to eat cooked food too. i went

> through so many years of very bad belly cramps and pain, without

> learning about diet as the main cause. i treated myself like a bad

> dog. i keep trying to figure out what i did wrong. did i want

> something for nothing? was i scared and sick? am i stupid? am i a

> cruel person? why do i deserve this? i have done to my body and life,

> what bush and cheney have done to this country. how can i judge the

> american people, when i am the stupidest of all.

>

> i walk down the street and see many people. they are eating cooked

> food. they have priorities and needs. they have families, jobs, and

> they eat food too. the food is not the most important thing in their

> lives. they all say they should eat better, and they all believe

> doctors can help them heal. they are all wrong. how is it possible

> that they are all wrong. it is not conceivable that they are all wrong

> and i am right. i must be psychotic. i see things that no one else

> sees. i point to them, i say, " see?, do you see it? look there! do you

> see it? " they all say no. sometimes i can see that they aren't

> looking. they think i am the absurd one. i must be crazy. i see that

> they are all dying from the constant daily intake of dead food. it has

> been a non-stop form of punishment from which they are never healed.

> it gets worse and worse until they die from it. meanwhile, they live

> their life in a fog, their minds clouded with the pain of denial. they

> live in a fog because their energy level is so low, they can't even

> get to epiphany without psychedelic drugs. they seem as mindless

> drones. they act selfish because they are in pain. they are cruel

> because they live in desperation with ugly egos that are just as sick

> and malnourished.

>

> the solution is cooperation and raw food. but maybe i am wrong. maybe

> that is only my solution for me. maybe its best for everyone if i

> wasn't even here. maybe that is not even the solution for me. i

> question my perceptions, because i question their perceptions. it is

> not reasonable to assume my perceptions are right, just because

> everyone else's is wrong. maybe we are all wrong. i just call them

> like i see them. and what i see, is that everyone is wrong. i have met

> a few raw fooders in my life, and most of the time, they are crazier

> than i. of course that doesn't mean that eating raw food is a mistake.

> i think it means that eating cooked food helps you fit into society.

> thats why i call it slave food. i believe that our culture has adapted

> such that, in order to become aware of the problems with burning our

> food, you must first become alienated enough to consider that everyone

> else is wrong. maybe that thought is so lonely, it leaves no survivors.

>

> for so many years, the idea of meeting another raw fooder was

> exciting; awe-inspiring. but maybe i should give up too. maybe by the

> time you have become a raw fooder, you have given up on belonging to a

> tribe. you must become so cold and barricaded, or maybe thats just me.

> i think i tried to meet other people. maybe i was self-defeating the

> whole time. i want to blame it on my parents. how can they be as

> stupid as everyone else. and i thought they were gods. i thought they

> would protect me. i thought they would teach me. and i died for that

> stupid cocky attitude.

>

> i say, how can i be right and everyone else be wrong. that would make

> me a genius. and i am certainly not a genius. if i was smarter than

> everyone else, i wouldn't be in this situation. i would not have

> misjudged all their responses. rawtimes would have caught on. people

> would be asking me for help. people would want me around. all i have

> to do is see the facts of my life to realize that i am not special in

> a good way. i must be delusional. on the other hand, i don't believe

> that. i still see what i see. after this water fast, i will start

> epiphany21. i will count the days, to see how arbitrary 21 days is. i

> say 21 days, because it is a number like: 3 minutes without oxygen , 3

> days without water, 3 weeks without food. i know that many people have

> claimed to fast for 40 days, but i think it more likely that many

> would die after three weeks. in this case, three weeks without cooked

> food is what i have noticed in my life as a plausible and tested

> hypothesis. i will test it again now.

>

> how can i be right and everyone else be wrong. i consider that maybe

> raw food is best for me and not for them. but i don't see that. i

> don't really believe that everyone is that different. i believe my

> mind is different, but not my chemistry. i wish i could say something

> new, instead of repeating the same thing. i am in awe. all the time,

> everyday. i can't believe what i see. not only are people eating slave

> poison every day and thinking its normal, they elect and support

> leaders who are so obviously a bunch of murderous greedy criminals,

> that not only are the people dying individually, but the whole country

> is dying right before our eyes. the money being transferred from

> american debt to arab banks [by our vice-president] is so enormous,

> that it is overwhelming for me; that everyone just doesn't say no. i

> hope i am wrong. i hope they can put me in a hospital, because the

> americans are really good people. yes, i hope they can put me in a

> hospital because i am crazy. and the doctors are really good people

> who know what they are doing. and in the hospital they can cure me. so

> that when i get out, i will be able to eat cooked food again. and it

> won't make me sick. and i can follow the government guidelines to know

> how many calories and carbs to eat every day. and how i should combine

> proteins. and i will work hard so that i can buy organic food

> certified by the state. and i will be happy and pay my taxes. and take

> medication to keep on being normal. yes. that is what i need. i need

> medical care. i must be crazy.

>

> given the possibility that i am right and everyone else is wrong; it

> is more probable that this is not even real, and i am not even on

> earth. this is a dream, or should i say, a recurring nightmare. a

> flash forward, ala jacobs ladder; as bizarre as cow eggs.

>

> who else,

> jrellis, of course

> the one and only

>

September 12, 2007

My grandma lived to be 108(!) eating almost all cooked foods. I sure hope I

inherited her genes! Janet

Joe Postma <joepostma wrote: I have something very important to say

to you.

YOU ARE GOING TO DIE.

It doesn't matter what the heck you eat...YOU ARE GOING TO DIE. A raw

fooder can die DECADES BEFORE a smoking cooked-fooder, and you may

have no control over it.

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September 12, 2007

cooked food is poison ! The very reason the world is so violent, crazy,

hectic and anti human is becaue of cooked food . DAVIDWOLFE.COM

dave

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September 13, 2007

Hey, Guess what? You sound more confused than crazy. I

had to get cancer and do my own research until I found

out that the cooked food was one of the reasons for my

affliction. I went raw three years ago and am now

cancer free. I had to change my life style abit, I am

now a more caring person because of it. There are so

many benefits to being raw and vegan that I could not

tell you in one day. Do your homework and stop acting

so crazy. Raoul

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September 13, 2007

JRELLIS

Hi!!

How are ya??

In many years as a herbalist i have met alot of people

Feeling good about the food you eat is important.

No guilt.

Each person is different.

In my journeys i have met breathtarians. fruitarians. raw foodists.

macrobitics. vegetarians. meat eaters

I read a article about a person who used to manufacture L.S.D

He lived on...... RAW MEAT n POTATOES {believe it or not!!

Feeling at peace with your self!!

These words are from walkin that walk {life experience

How are you mentally ?

Do you have physical strength?

BE WELL!!!

ps feel free to pick our brains

rainer. susan. kim

www,pennysherbco.com

On Sep 12, 2007, at 9:05 AM, rahtymz wrote: